My bad emotions

My mood swings is getting from bad to worse.. i really had been too emotional to type my 2 previous entries.. i had assumed that my friends had neglected me when they didn't.. today lao san called & told me that they actually made arrangements for my birthday this coming sunday & she had heard about me getting so upset about itz.. so sorry gals..esp sweetie & lao san.. pardon me, i had been under too much stress recenlty.. i will try not to have such emotional outburst again..not to always have PMS..

Friends are a very important part in my life, realised life can't be normal without friends.. i can survive happily without guys but not without friends...
had lunch with a different group of colleagues today, the auntie that i normally haf lunch with left forgetting to ask me alongz..when the accountant that i assist realised that i'm eating lunch alone she asked me to join her.. phew.. so i went along with the group of accountants, an account assistant and my manager..stress.. along i went.. but as usual i was very quiet, only manage to talk a few sentences with the accountants & my manager.. i tried to find topic to chat, but.. my mind was in a blank & couldn't the right topic to startz, & there was an awkward silence when i walk beside the manager & she had to start the conversation first..
i got a serious problem here.. i always got this inferior feeling with people who are of higher position then me, to me, they are someone i respect & to learnt much from & thus unable to chat normally with them..but this can't go onz.. i got to change in this area.. I MUz Try!!

I just happen to see my ex friendster & wow.. i really got a shock!! he's a father..oh my gosh.. imagine my surprised, and his baby is so cuteeeeeeeeee & he's really fortunate to have a lovely & nice wife..though i don't know her but she gives me this feeling, she's nice & love him a lotz.. feel happy for the both of them.. it's been 3 yrs since i last contacted him, and oh my, how things have really change.. the 'ah beng' tt i once knew had become a father.. sad la, why is it that ex couples can never be friends, if not i can go see his kawaii baby girl.. it's soooooooooooooooooooooooo cute by the picture alone.. i wish him all the bestz..