27/11:

在等待的简讯却迟迟没等到。。电话响了，关心我的他跟他同名却不是同一个人。。

 

28/11: 

Friendship isn't about the Quantity... Every individual frens matters a lot & is truly cherished. =) If i say, every lost frenship equals to teardrops, i'm not being exaggerating.

 

This blog shall be my bank of thoughts, what's i posted in Facebook, will all be stored here..

25/11/10 

When things does not run smooth or life seems crazy, i don't term it as a bad day or life sucks but Rather it's e Time for Experience Accumulating/Character Moulding! =)

 

 

A Love Fool

Based on the title.. i'm here to shout out my Inner Feelings once again..

Met this guy which my leader & my members strongly recommended..

It's all started during a particular cg day where they celebrated my Belated Birthday...

Where our ever Fun embracing, Happening leader Bernard randomly throws a question wherether am i open for recommendation to guys..

All in the name of fun without serious thinking: "Yeah, why not? Bring it On"

This guy.. his name was mentioned years back.. when my then cg member introduced to Joyce,Sabrina & me his younger brother.. and our first thought was.. "Why do the both of you look so different??"

It was a hasty introduction and my only recollections was that he mentioned his then leader was Bernard, the actor from Drama ministry(my current leader)..

Saw him again when he joined us during our Timbre outing after steamboat dinner.. didn't really pay much attention to this quiet guy sitting in the corner..

And after i took up the challenge, my two fellow members whom i am closer to..kept the teasing non-stop.. again & again..

"stop mentioning his name.. what happens if i really like him??"

He almost joined us two weeks before for the dinner at Namsuk's house.. so everytime without fail, i would be informed beforehand that he be joining in though in the end, he always have something on..

So imagine my shock.. when i went to cg last thurs..was late due to registration to Acca.. opened the door, placed down my bag.. & there he was...

*Awkardness was in the air"

Bernard to him: "..... ya know why u are in this cg today.. "

them to me (while on the way to Clarke Quay) : "..... go sit in his bike.."

''- -

It was only after Justina's assuring words "just treat him like a friend.. he's nice as a friend" that i begin to loosen things down.

and yeah.. i took the initiative to speak to him during dinner though i kept stammering..

Things begin to improve only when we proceed to Chupitos for some shots & Beer & subsequently to Rebel..

We danced.. and more communication follows.. feel at ease & comfortable chatting with him...

Before he could speak while leaving the club, he was "assigned" to send me back home even though he live in Queenstown.. and out of the club.. i was back to my Ostrich nature.. too shy..

Love the Breeze while sitting on the Motor bike.. though i was really super clumsy.. getting on & off the bike & even asked silly question on how to put on the helmet..

Thought that was it.. when he send me home.. we spoke a bit when i got off.. mentioned that i knew his brother and he looked shock.. silence subsequently followed and we bid farewell..

So Could that be all? he didn't asked me for my hp no.. only i did asked him for his facebook..

I was thrilled when he send me a facebook msg and we exchanged conversations till Sat night and silence encompassed the Facebook inbox till then..

I would rather choose to believe that he's busy than to accept that he's just not into me.. =(

Met up a few different guys this whole year..

There was Jack.. whom i only hanged out once..Quite a nice guy just that i got too caught up with my work..that he decide to label me as a Busy gal who had no time for anything else.. and he subsequently got attached.

There was Chee Wei.. this super nice guy who gave in to me.. one that never fails to send me morning & night greetings.. at first it was sweet.. Hanged out for 4 times..
Remembered what i love to eat, what school i attended & even accompanied me when i was bored and needed company..watched Movie.. showed concern when my dad was hospitalised..a very accomodating guy i must say.... it all ended when he WhatApps me to become his gf.. *faintz*
not because of his insincerity.. he did try calling but i refused to pick up the call.. he's just not for me.. a Friend & probably a good Husband Material but i'm just the Bad Girl Material who doesn't like Too Nice Guys..Prefer someone who embraces Fun as much as i do.

And there was him.. it's simply ridiculous but i am already missing him since last Thurs.. the message has stopped.. Maybe he's just not into me.. Maybe i am not his type of gf material..

As much as i'm delighted to receive the good news that i was selected for the Sign Lang Interpretator.. but deep down inside.. i would be Happier if i were to receive his msg..

Can u believe it? Such thoughts are for Xiao Nu Ren.. don't i love to climb the corporate ladder..accomplished as much as i can.. but to think that my thoughts actually planned to settle down for an average kind of life to be with a guy like him.

For the very first time.. that i'm actually having such thoughts.. *slap myself awake*

And after such a long time.. i actually want to start dating again.

To God,: "why the guys that are interested in me, i am not keen to date them and the guys that i'm interested in are not keen to date me??"



*Praying & Trusting God for the right one*

It's been a 13 years walk.. 

Started with baby steps..

He was there watching..

Guiding me...

But as i grew older..took the wrong step too many a times..

It was either HIS way or the wrong way..

Following HIM & simply 

Obeying seems like a difficult 

task..

The Temptation ahead seems too great for me to simply take the narrow path by Faith..

Life as a Christian ain't no bed of roses.. but being a non-christian helps no either..or rather it would be worst.


I'm taking my baby steps once again.. to stir up the Faith and to take up the Cross..


Many thanks to Wendy, one of the volunteer in THM, whom testimonial stirred me up.. 


A woman of Faith is what she is.. =)

Am seriously cutting down on my Digression and Focus on doing what i should be doing and to really learn to control my Emotions by not letting it affect my daily life and what i should be Pursuing..

Gonna be my first longgggggggg awaited Song Signing for Service this coming Sat, 19 Sep 2010 at Expo Hall Service 2!!

What comes easy for other seems to be a longer route that i have to take:

As such.. began by logging online to watch 530 Expo service and practice.. followed by previous services..

And what else can work best when u wanna watch examples of Song Signing:

 lady in the video is pretty amazing..she's a hearing and so are her parents.. Learning ASL was part of her module and with this passion in mind, she's now a Deaf Educator.

This is my favourite of all times:

The reason she stand out, in my own personal opinion is her fluency of ASL and Expression that says it all..

You can check out her profile on the following:

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Ally-ASL/207129801391?ref=ts&v=wall#!/pages/Ally-ASL/207129801391?v=wall&ref=ts

and her interview:

http://blogs.houstonpress.com/rocks/2010/06/words_without_songs_making_mus.php?page=2

Talking about being passionate is what she lives out. =)

She's my Inspiration..that someday to really sign as beautiful as her.

Lord, preserve my life.. I still want to hold on so I can in e near future switch my career to
Counselling.. And make my life more purposeful & of meaning to others! :)

他喜欢她，她却依旧喜欢他，但他喜欢的是另一个她。。。

Creative Genes

Saw some of the photos posted by my ex-cell group member, Jian Rong (my then best crappy fren, though i never manage to outwin him before):

Years passed and the cg which i had once been so closed with... all the xiao di di & xiao mei mei grew up.. and their talents grew & grew..

Went to check out his blog:

http://ilovetoshoot.tumblr.com

The following are shots taken by him:

VISUAL IMPACT:

Saw this cute website on my Fren's Facebook & thought it was pretty interesting:

Genesis 1:6
Then God said, 'Let there be a vault to separate the waters from the waters.'

Check this out at : http://www.thebricktestament.com/genesis/creation/04_gn01_06.html

Great for those who fall asleep upon reading the bible... =)

LOL 

http://lolsnaps.com/?media_id=366&cat_type=all&order_type=most_viewed&pagenum=1

Instead of being worried as his fren.. reading his negative post in his profile makes my blood boil..

Being Emo for a day is basically the limit for any person.. lamenting it out on profile probably makes him feel better.. coz tt's what i used to do.

However, his most recent post makes me want to Lash out and give him a tight slap if he were in front of me right now.

Don't try telling me problems makes u want to end yr life.. who doesn't have daily struggles?

Who u are in front of yr frens.. those words of encouragement, your ability to be the attraction of the crowd.. your surrounding frens, your smartness.. didn't pop out suddenly.

They say the more talented a person is the more negative the person is.. isn't that absolute Crap?!

They probably can't be themselves in front of their frens.. nor show their weakness.. but seriously tt's where u know who are your true frens.

All i can pray & hope is that he get fast over this phrase & never let such negative thoughts filled him again.

Though i can't really define u as a fren right now...though those feelings are absolutely gone.. though i no longer regard u as a buddy.. but tt doesn't mean i don't care anymore..

Upon viewing the following in the Home page posted by one of my fren:

http://www.facebook.com/people/Cyndiz-Cheong/526903399#!/group.php?gid=113528545363616&ref=mf

My heart sank deep upon verifying the accuracy of the news..How Cruel can Life actually turnout for a Person's life. As if this family situation was not bad enough, they have to lose their Sole Breadwinner in such a rare accident..

Really do hope that this family thru the help of others can stand on their feet again.

I truly Respect this gal who created this group page to get awareness of others to come forward and give.. and it ain't one easy task to convince others to give coz...

Sometimes all it takes is one black sheep to abuse the trust of charitable givers..

We seen and heard of those who uses the name of Charity to cheat kind souls of their donations and uses it for their own benefit.

What sears such person conscience to actually have the heart to uses such money.. maybe they didn't even have one to begin with. Tsk.

When u pass by the tunnels, when u dine at hawker centres, have your ever first thought was to give but then pull back because of what u had heard and read? Even though the amount is just less than a dollar..

I had such situations which makes me question myself..

Went to JB with my colleagues, an old man selling tissue approach out table.. my hands move immediately to my pouch but then i stopped and said no the next second.. and my guy colleague decide to buy for him instead and before this.. some students had approached for donations.. i had decide to clear my ringgit coins but he gave a dollar note instead.

For that two moments, i feel like a hyprocrite..

I mean thru my facebook profile..i joined many charitable organisations as a group member.. enjoyed posting up news and posts like the one i just did in my Profile.

All these are 3rd actions taken which are not directly impactive..

I didn't think twice about posting these things up but i had actually think twice about giving.. Darn..

Another incident that just occurred was in KL while eating Nasi Lemak.. one of my fren spotted this blind man waving his hands for attention and alerted me.. i watched franctically seeing him waving his hands and asking for the attention of someone and i pondered that he could be someone who might be weird or a common sight in this place thus no one seems to pay him attention.. after a while, a malay man called the vendor and told him that this man wanted to place an order.

Oh man.. why do we conclude another person's action so fast..

Though in other countries, there are Syndicates that actually abducted young children, cut off their limbs and make them become beggers and we as tourist are warned not to even pity them by giving cause they would follow us all the way or get more beggers to surround us and this in a way, might allow the syndicate to increase the victims.

Has this awareness of self-protection causes us to give lesser and lesser??

I really hope not.. we're considered really blessed as individual to have a roof under our head, have our daily meals and clothes to wear.. let's really put our self-fishness aside and contribute to what we can.


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Updates:

Three of my colleagues are resigning this month.. two of which are the same designation as me and are our lunch khakis..

Sadly, the other one who seldom mingle much with us.. her departure from the dept seems to have no impact coz i didn't even realised when is her last day. *Guilty*


Thus it's really important to really mingle around and socialise at work no matter how anti-social u feel u are..


Though having colleagues that wants to further their career path are a common sight.. emotions are still there and all of us though no one mention on their lips.. we know that we know that this dept will seems to have a sense of absence after the end of this month.

Not one indivdual is Replaceable.. workload may be but personality isn't.


Just had an appraisal done by my Superior ( my shi fu) that is... and seriously she is really one person that i truly earn my respect. She's 4 years younger than me.. but her knowledge and experience far exceeded mine.. (needless to say) and she's one role model of striking a balance between earning respect from those under her and having a good EQ with the colleagues around her and one whose jokes can make us laugh.

I'm pretty certain that non of my colleagues read my blog before i type this all out otherwise i won't want to be  labelled as a Pat- horse- butt person. 


After the talk with her.. thoughts aroses.. she's probably surprised that i have not much enquiries.. coz deep within.. i know i haven gave my best so far after working for a year.. coz i'm quite a slacker BUT after the talk.. i know deep within i got to work even harder.


At the end of the day, in this reality world..nobody really cares about who u really are.. it's not about Niceness that attracts but simply on your Knowledge. The better u are on it and adding it on with a Gift of Gap that makes you a People Person.


Changes are always Necessary isn't it? and it varies with the Situation around. I'm glad that i have my Sotong gals to let me be myself and keeping my Sanity intact. =)

* "我们来拍照.. (w/o waiting for our response) 1 , 2 , 3 *takes photo* "

LOVE YA GALS! 

(*Joke of the day contributed by our Lao Er  really got Lao San & me laughing till our tummy aches)

他的离去(ex)和他(Mr L)的在次出现 ,让这女人成长了许多..学会了放手,也学会了珍惜现在的所有... no longer that Emo. & no longer hold on to what does not belongs to her.. Happiness lies in God's hands coz HE knows Best. =)

我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i feel so much better by "shouting" it out..

No guts to express my feelings so blogging works best for me.

Everyone of us have our little secrets, be it the dark one or a confession..

As we grew older..those secrets we used to whisper to our close sistas and then blushed away and giggle together seems to diminish over the years...

Due to restrictions by having an image to maintain, balancing our busy schedule and not trusting people easily.. communication with colleagues, classmates and friends are more of a general topic.

But as the secret builds up.. your heart begins to feel an Itch.. a desire to share with someone..but who?? what are the options available??

A. Write it on a paper, stuff it down a bottle and dump the bottle into Singapore River (Ops..Rubbish alert to the NEA volunteers)

B. Blog it out and then use a Password to lock your blog.

I can't imagine how Le-cheh is it for  close frens to type a password upon clicking your link & there's no assurance that there won't be a stranger beside yr fren who's sipping her fav starbucks as she logged in.

 C.  Log on to  http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/

I stumbled onto this website upon reading 8 Days..

Publishing your secret on the WEB??

How safe is this secret?? No one knows for sure but one guide to this website is only to publish secrets that ain't really dark.. u can't probably post u commit a crime, in sucidal mode or.. Crap Alert.. intentions of Terroism ( coz it takes 4 days for it to be posted out after being reviewed & voted before it's published).


But it's a good way to release out your frustrations or practising your lines before making that confession.. like for eg: Confessing that you are gay..




It's probably a good way to confess your feelings by typing your real name and then placing it as a link and then sending a private msg to your admirer.

On a serious note as i glance through these msgs.. i can't help but to ponder.. everyone out there needs a listening ear & it's probably the idea of the person who started this website.

In our Busyness.. it seems we have neglected those who secrectly wish we would stop in their footstep & be there for them.

Why do one chose to tell a computer, a stranger publishing it out for the world to see & it actually makes the typer feels better..

Maybe in this society that we live in, we tend to judge.. and ironically those that judge you are those that you know and those sympathize you are the strangers out there.


Labels: Lameness- Ponders- New website 

在感情的世界里，我像似刚出恋的女生。。喜欢暗恋人的感觉。

 可是却不想被暗恋。。

不想给别人错觉也不想伤害任何人。。

一旦感觉到,我在我们的友情里倒退。。

这是我给你的明示代表着我只把你当朋友而已。 对我千万别死缠烂打。。

我反而会觉的你很惹人厌。

对于“你”，我知道我们属于不同的世界。。

在我的理智里， 喜欢你是件非常可笑的事。。心跟脑是站在不同线。

一旦在朋友周围里，有幽默，有智慧，有High EQ的男生，我的心就会动摇。。

想踏进你的世界，认识你的一切。。

若感觉是互相的，这社会是不会给这一段感情快乐。。

你应该有个普通的生活。。不想shake your world 制造不愉快的结果..

在过不久，我得跟着majority踏进社会的世界里。。不认命却得conform to Society..

“该是找对象结婚了”。。 这句话在朋友的暗示里藏着，就连刚收到的sms 不断的提醒着我。。

女人终就是女人。。to what extend & duration can i defy gravity..

How diff do i want to be echoes back & forth in my mind..

希望你在你的世界里找到你的快乐吧。

We ain't here to please anyone .. words are that easy to mutter.. but existence & acceptance with the exception of self is basic human needs..

Attended a Deaf Forum held by Deaf & Hard of Hearing Federation together with Teacher Wee Wee, Victor, Tony,Jeremiah and Andy.

It was held at ERC Institute Pte Ltd and it was one of the more interesting forum in comparison to talks of common sense topics that i had ever attended. 


Topics covered:


1. Mixed Marriage between Hearing and Deaf


Unless we are in their shoes, no amount of sharing can let us truly understand the good & bad times..


Googled e following story:


http://www.pbs.org/weblab/lovestories/stories/Communication/story32853.shtml


2. Job Interview


The speaker being deaf shared of her experience in Interviews of how Interactions between her and her Interviewer would be scribbling notes.


Jobs that are best for them for those that requires not meeting clients & communication.


3. Hearing Aids


http://www.cochlear.com/sea/hearing-loss%20treatments/hearing-aids-adults

With technology advances, it seems as if the design have been modernised:

http://www.digisound.com.sg/index.php?page_id=21

Digital : Due to tiny micro-processors, digital technology has been introduced into the most modern hearing aids. Acoustic signals are converted into a binary code at high speed and with great precision. Complex calculations provide the ultimate flexibility to individualise hearing systems to suit a particular hearing loss.

A new Found Love?

Seriously, i am pretty amazed at the power of Connection of Languages..

Being someone who knows Sign Lang.. i truly begin to embrace at how Languages can Narrow the gap of Distance between Humans..

By knowing the Deaf language, there's an almost immediate Connection & ice seems to melt in an instance..

An invisible bridge begins building in between once common Language is used..


As i observed, though Chinese and English is often what hangs on our lips in almost every situation where we are in..be it asking a stranger for direction, giving out instructions at work or hanging out with friends.

But once you start speaking in a less common word to your neighbour, you could almost share a secret which is unknown to others around you.

When we were young, the F language was our best way to gossip in class/groups even in front of the teacher, who look clueless to our moving lips.
 Nopez, it's nothing Vulgar just that you add an F sound to every word in the sentence..

English language: Nice to meet you.
F language : Nicefice tofo meetfeet youfou.

It's also the best way to communicate one to one when you don't want any interruption.. and i immediate transform to be liken to a third party whenever i have two friends speaking Dialects.

I am born to be a Hakka but one who apparently who get speechless when asked to speak this language.. though i grew up living under the same roof with my relatives. More than often, my last recollections of what they spoke was not Hakka but  rather Cantonese and Hokkien.

But it's pretty bad when my parents had to mixed these two to talk.. leading me to be a good listener & a confuser.. Not being able to differentiate which is which..

 So more than often, i rather not open my mouth when people around me speaks in these 2 languages.. to avoid causing them to laugh when i joined in.

Just the other day, went out with my Colleagues for dinner.. Cantonese were their main communication.. & so    i remained silent.. As one of them turned around to talk to me changing to chinese while the rest were in their topics.. an image pop out..

I am that question mark that hopes to be in their "Circle"..

Guess this is often how Person A feels when they observe the Deaf communicating..

Being the person i am and ever wanting to learn something new.. i am not contended to stand outside being an  observer.. i want to step into their world.

And so with this intention in mind..

A path to learn Cantonese shall begins from this day on.. =)


Plus Points:

1. Communicate with my Colleagues on a closer level.

2. Able to interact with the elderly.



若我踏进你的世界，学习你的语言，我们的距离会不会更接近。

*Applause*

After much proscratination & after

 much figuration from others blog.. i 

finally manage to edit my blog that 

simply reflects the best of me..

opps.. i know i sound so narcissistic.. esp. 

when i was trying to create the header picture 

of this blog... i am like.. freak.. y am i so in lov

 with myself?!

For my close frens, they probably seen my 

previous messed up blog.. with all the 

alignment gone totally wrong and i had really 

put that issue all at a side for a long duration of

 a year.. BUT as i had got to constantly bypass 

this messiness blog b4 i view others blog and 

by today i had enough of it & decide to 

figure it all out... now i feel so proud of 

myself... *Beams with pride*

HAH.. o x O

Comes tmr will be the day, this close fren of 

mine whom i befriend back in Lotus days will 

be enlisting into Pulau Tekong:

He's none other than Rubber, Rapper..  Rapture Lai 

JianWei!!

He's probably the youngest in my group of 

frens... to think that as i mention that my fren 

is enlisting into Army to my Age group frens..

probably results in head scratching..

This Intelligent, High EQ talkative, crappy,

 Hospitality F&B graduate will move on to

 becoming a man's kind of life in a day's time.

I had make it a point since our last caught up 

dining at Caprese to meet him up before he 

enroll into Army..

And i'm glad tt my memory didn't failed me

when i chatted with him on FB, otherwise i 

probably be guilty labelled as a fren who is too

 caught up with her own life..

So together with our Pretty Babe Rainbow, we 

went to our Favourite HangOut : NO 5.. 

sipping away our LOVE = LYCHEE MARTINI!

We toasted to him of his loss of hair & 

freedom, life of Tekong & meeting the 

supernatural (Tekong is famous for it).

Be meeting him up once again in two weeks time.

Take Care Dude! Remain in your constant Positive Self in

Camp as you said you would.. Believe that you can  

come out even fitter physically & mentally. Jia YOU K?!

Had just enrolled back into ACCA, registered

 for P2 in adminstration & monetary terms

 but not mentally yet.. 

I'm still searching high & low for my 

Motivation, Excitement & Discipline that i 

once had when i first enrolled.. when my life 

for 2 years was literally work,study routinely 

and mugging w little sleep during exams...

 & my Notes of ACCA was of high 

importance tt it be e main non living thing tt i

grabbed should my house(touch wood) caught fire.

This 1 and a half year, i had been away from 

the books & notes and had caught up my

 life with Frens, Sign Lang & 

Volunteering.. an Un-routine life... 

This July, this paper being in the professional 

level and re-taking my last fundamental paper..

 i got to mentally prepared myself tt it's gonna 

be back to a much routine & Geek life.. 

scheduling majority of time to working & 

studying.. and facing my laptop would be 

primarily due to revising & not for Facebook.

Exagerrating? Maybe for others, but a non-fun

 life by constantly revising every other days of 

non lessons is my tactic of passing my papers 

in first attempt with e exception of F5 that is..

While my classmates will be shopping, chilling 

out months before exams.. i be practising 

& re-writting my notes..

Thus explaining y i got burn-out and had to 

take this 1 yr & half to catch up on my life..

Psycho-ing myself that i can do it! =)

Shall be determined to wake up an hour earlier every Mon to Fri to catch up on work... =D

I just want to be on a constant Progressing Mode in the things that i do.

Shall end here by sharing this chinese Love quote tt i saw in MK's profile tt got me almost Emo e other day:

如果你不爱一个人，

请放手，好让别人有机会爱她. 

如果你爱的人放弃了你，

请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人. 

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属於你的
，
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的，

人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害. 

有些缘分是注定要失去的，

有些缘分是永远都不会有好


结果的， 

爱一个人不一定要拥有，

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他. 

男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；

女人哭了，是因为她真的放弃了. 


如果真诚是一种伤害，我选择谎言；



如果谎言是一种伤害，我选则沉默；



如果沉默是一种伤害，我选择离开.
 

如果失去是苦 你怕不怕付出


 
如果迷乱是苦 你会不会选择结束



如果追求是苦 你会不会选择执迷不悟



如果分离是苦 你要向谁倾诉，



好多事情都是后来才看清楚，



好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦，



然而我已经找不到来时的路. 


有一种爱,明明是深爱,却说不出来.



有一种爱,明明想放弃,却无法放弃.



有一种爱,明知是煎熬,却又躱不开.



有一种爱,明知无前路.心却早已收不回来. 



决定放弃你的那一刻我哭了，



我的眼泪证明了我是真的很爱你. 




爱你不是游戏. 爱你是真心的.



忘记你我做不到. 不管我们的解决是否完美.





什么是勇气？是哭着要你爱我，还是哭着让


你离开．

男人的自信来自一个女人对他的崇拜，

女人的高傲来自一个男人对她的倾慕. 永远不


要栽培你爱的男人，你把他栽培的太好，结果


只有两个： 

他从此看不起你或他给人偷了。

追求一个人的手法不需要太聪明，

但离开的手法必须聪明绝顶 ！




为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前人？

在未可预知的重逢里，

我们以为总会重逢，总会有缘再会，



总以为有机会说一声对不起
，
却从没想过每一次挥手道别，都可能是诀别，

每一声叹息，都可能是人间最后的一声叹息。

也许一个女子的寂寞也就是这样的不堪一击
。
如果一个男人对我伸出手，如果他的手指是热的
。
他是谁对我其实已经并不重要。对于男人，


更是如此，



如果一个女人在他心里出现，


只需要她的身体是炽热的。



也许爱情只是因为寂寞，


需要找一个人来爱，即使没有任何结局。

伤口是别人给予的耻辱，自己坚持的幻觉。



像我这样的女人，总是以一个难题的形式出现


在感情里.

发现自己只能爱一个人在一瞬间。


而且渐渐变的自私. 


很多人不需要再见，因为只是路过而已 。


遗忘就是我们给彼此最好的纪念. 



可以是一瞬间的事情，


也可以是一辈子的事情。


每个人都可以在不同的时间爱上不同的人. 



不是谁离开了谁就无法生活，遗忘让我们坚强. 



这样的生物，仔细一看，原来是伤痕累累的. 




是否被爱，每个人有不同的感受。



重寻旧梦的代价往往是我们付不起的. 

人世间的幸福，总会令人好看一点。

因为微笑，我才了解了爱. 

因为爱他，所以离开他。我喜欢这句话. 




有些感情如此直接和残酷。容不下任何迂回


的温暖.


 带着温暖的心情离开，要比苍白的真相要好，


纯粹的东西死的 太快了




。 

感情被懂得是一种幸福，


等待着被懂得是一种孤独.