Christmas Eve & Christmas Celebration

Though it was a working day on X'mas Eve.. it's only for 2 hours!! Left the office in a rush though, grabbing all personal docs & stuffing them in the drawer.. & catching up with the Mgmt who drove us to the venue:

Sakura Pte Ltd- International Buffet at Dhoby Ghaut- 2nd latest outlet.

The Brand which i do its accounts.. 11 headaches..

Photos taken with my Colleagues from Accounts Dept:

Afterwhich, we move on to Plaza Sing to shop & chill at TCC..

Supposedly had agreed to turn up for JY's performance at Heeren(coz i Promise her!) but apparently with no response from my SADF peeps & colleagues had own errands to run.. i got to give it a miss with much regret..

With much time to fill from after shopping with Kelly & Cassandra to meeting up with my Batch 6 peeps.. decide to msg those who can come up early to accompany me..

and guess who responded?

It was as if my last entry had a voice that had turned my wish into a reality:

It was time really for us to do a good catching up before Yr 2009 ends:

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Yepz, it's none other than my Buddy, Lionel!

This pic was taken in our X'mas party in class & coincidence would occur yet again, he was my secret angel..

Imagine my shock when he pass me the present?(awkwardness was still in e air as we took e pic) i was like.. "Hmm.. of all classmates.. he became my angel"

The rule of the X'mas exchange: Ian the coordinator, would be allocating names to each of us on a random basis..of our recipent & their wishes of X'mas gift... (Unless Ian reads my blog which is pretty impossible).. it would have been Coincidence #3 for our Reconciliation of Lost Buddies..

As can seen in the picture, received a pair of beautiful silver ear-rings from Chomel.

got to say, it's my best christmas present thus far...

Coincidence #4 : he just happen to be out after work, had planned to meet his frens for dinner elsewhere but due to distance, he had a change of plan.. & we met up for dinner..

It was a good old hours chat as we had dinner at :

guess what? as far as my memory could bring back to 3 years ago.. this was the very foodcourt (was @ Wisma) we had dinner before we meet again 3 years later.

Chatted about each others life.. and we can't stop laugh about Coincidences #1 & #2:

Coincidence #1 for our Reconciliation of Lost Buddies:

Same Ministry- Talking Hands Ministry..

Being in same church is not a Coincidence. as CHC is a large church.. Ministry wise,Had we met in usher ministry, it would be pretty common as it's among the largest ministry in church..

but THM? it was a small ministry, not one really popular ministry...

Coincidence #2 for our Reconciliation of Lost Buddies:

Same Batch - Batch #6..

Now, who could ever predict we can end up in the same batch when i been in church for yearsss & he being around a yr plus..

i waited a year before i finally received the call from the coordinator..

He came in 1 lesson before mine..

Mystery : a question i popped up - why 3 yrs?

None of us could come up with a logical answer for that..

Spiritual number he says.. Christ was risen 3 days later..

Hmm...

End of dinner before we met up with Mark.. whom can't stand waiting for us to finish our prolonged dinner..

Conclusion : we both had changed & mature much since the last 3 yrs... all misunderstanding & awkwardness by now, had been 100%  cleared..

Truely, i thank God for this Buddy-ship which i thought i had lost forever.. i am blessed. =)

Differ-ability:  for every lost frenship, i will always attempt to salvage it back... but for every lost relationship, i prayed hard & hard that i will never see my Exs ever again.. not on the street.. 

if coincidences as above occurs,  i will consider it a Trial rather than a blessing.. & i will quit that activity with immediate effect.. no hestitation at all.

Simply to put it, every broken r/s is an stepping stone towards courage & personal goals.. i burned the bridge as i cross.. a never turning back.

 

On to something happier..

We rush to meet up with Mark at St. Andrew's Cathedral:

 

We wanted to catch a feel of Catholic Christmas Service.. Mainhall was fully packed, we had to move on to the Overflow room..

Aftermaths: we left halfway, after the carols were sung ( i gave an extreme bored look) before the main service starts..

We wanted Life and so on Ian's suggestion.. we move on to:

Timbre @ Arthouse:

My favourite Hang out place!

The band performing on that day was great:

Band name: Co-ed Liza.

Fact finder:

Members:

Coy - Cajon/Drums- Coy is a veteran of Manila's alternative music since in the early 90's. He played drums for the 4-piece punk rock band Public Menace which performed in underground gigs in and around of Manila. A Restaurant Manager by day, he briefly disappeared from the music scene and resurfaced as the "cajon"player for Co-Ed Liza. His influence include The Clash, Geenday, Offspring and Manila-based, Eraserheads, and Rivermaya. Edwin - Guitars/Vocals- A self-taught guitarist, Edwin is a veteran of overseas gigs particulary Japan. He is a licensed Mechanical Engineer in the Philippines, but he decided to pursue his passion for music. The guy with a well-controlled, full-toned voice, Edwin can sing and play the guitar particularly well. His musical influences range from David Gates, Christopher Cross, Eric Clapton, James Taylor, Stephen Bishop just to name a few. Liza - Vocals- Liza or "Meemye" as she is known in the Manila acoustic music circuit, is an accomplished singer who shows her versatility in performing classic, ballad, alternative and R & B songs. Born to sing, Liza is a veteran of numerous singing competitions in Manila since she was young. From Patti Austin to Taylor Swift, Karen Carpenter,Colbie Caillat, Lisa LOeb, Sheryl Crow,Rihanna and Beyonce Knowles. Her influence in music shows in the song she loves to sing every night.

Genre:

acoustic

Hometown: Philippines

 

Check this link of their Performance:

http://www.facebook.com/search/?q=co-ed+liza&init=quick#/video/video.php?v=1249343721504

It's better to watch the live version

Love their takes one: Lady Gaga's Poker Face and  Black Eyed Peas- I gotta Feeling

Drank my favourite Yagger Bomb and we chatted, photowhore, played game till 1am plus.. wanted to hang out later but we had our church service the very next morning.

25th: Christmas Day

Attended service bringing Jing Yi, Kelly, Cassandra together with Xin yi's and her bf (of whom is a chc member too)..

it was a great drama production by the fabulous Drama team.

Met up with SADF peeps in the evening to had dinner @ Mahanttan's Fish Market:

Supposedly to go clubbing at St James Powerhouse after the dinner.. but i blew quite a huge amount the nite before & couldn't afford to blew another round on clubbing again.. if not i got to survive on bread & butter for the whole month.

Simply because be meeting up Rapper & Rainbow for Dinner at Bollicine , Meet up with the Sotongs.. both group which i had not met up with ages..

and saving up for my upcoming studies in ACCA.

26th:- My Virgin Attempt

went for SADF's Youth Beat meeting.. our very 1st meeting for the year.. conducted by James. this group consists of 11 members of whom i am glad there is Mark & Ian. Kok Leong and a few others.

James went on to brief us on the objectives of Youth Beat & i became the Interpretator for him and all the way.. the very 1st attempt..saboed out by Kok Leong who insists & told james beforehand b4 i agreed..

Had our discussions on the Activities to plan out for the deaf youths and Agenda for the next meeting..

This's gonna be exciting as the group of us are going to put our heads together to branch out ideas, source for sponsors and befriend the Hearing Impaired Youths..

1st Idea branched out: An Ice Breaker for Introduction & Bonding in Feb.

Gonna go into further details for our next month's meeting.

Gonna rope in more people with interest to help out.

=)

Signing off.

Saw this blog from Nanz Inc makes me so interested to sign up for Cake Baking Courses:

'http://mengchoo.livejournal.com/

Tags: Creative

对你冷谈是有原因。。 对于过 去我以没有任何挂念。退后是 不想给任何人负单 和不快..

因为我不想对任何人有种依赖。。只有 God 能 carry it all.


"the way we are right now, being friends like we just met, is the best way out.. i hope u do understand it someday.. "

No Worries to those who are reading this..

I just needed an area to say it out as by keeping it in within doesn't make me stronger..

我会学着把生活打理好。

in my heart, you're always forever my buddy...

很多时候现实会逼我们向前走，有一些人， 一些事，都必须要放弃。

If you been watching the news, the focus these few days are on:

The conference that is going on in Copenhagen ends today...

http://en.cop15.dk/

Celebraties around the world are posting videos on it:

It's funny to think that while the Governors are busy cracking out their brains to fight for an Amicable solution that all countries can agree on.. the rest of us get more busy than them, that is, we go on with our normal life, busy with work & studies.. just grab a fellow by the street of bugis and ask him what he thinks about Climate Change, he probably give you the blank look.

It does frustrate me that when it starts with the commoners like us to stand alongside on climate changes, a little bit does help..

Sitting there and being ignorant only leads to your faster extinction..

Does it kill one to just google to see how we can do our part for this world?

We only knows how to complain why isn't the government meeting our needs, why increase the tax??

and Blah Blah Blah...

It's all about ME ME ME!

Freak.. i hope to meet more people who branch their views sideway and doing a part.. everyone has the same 24 hrs.

We should do our part:

Love this video, it potraits the msg loud & clear:

"Everyone seems to be Waiting to see what would happens"

Let's stop asking what can we do but simply start.

Click here for the list:

If you are viewing this blog, do your part, spread the msg around.

A week more to Christmas & i'm so lookin forward to it..

A series of Activities await:

Tues: Mini Party with Batch 6 after Sign Lang class..

Introducing this group of great friends i recently knew from church sign lang class:

From Left (back) : Tony- Boss of a Denture Company, Ian- Multi-talented, creative guy, currently pursuing a degree & helping out at an Event Company , Jie Lin - working as an Investment Analysor, a super smart gal, who graduted with a Bachelor from NUS and a Master from SMU & was a SOT student, Lionel - a half Jap who is smart & high EQ,currently working in Logistic & ...(ironically, i know e least of e current him right nw, as we yet got time to catch up),   Stephanie - the ever smart gal, who runs her own PR Consultancy firm, a creative & knowledgable person who is ever so friendly & helpful. Marie- friendly & most senior of us but doesn't look like her age, a helpful cook in a kids Centre, Mark- pursuing Theatre Studies in NUS, our Monitor of the class, one that group us together, who is always availing time out of his busy schedule, planning for the performance & helping out everyone with missed out lessons.. a smart & talented guy too.

Teacher Wee Wee - she's forever so funny in class, teaching us not only the sign lang but helping to train each & every of us to be an Interpretator, focusing on the expressions & summarsing sentences. Amelia - the pretty & intellectual babe who's pursuing Polictical science in NUS our future NMP, who's soon going to US for an exchange program.

Missing in Picture : Jill & Alice.

a total of 11 of us...

To those who know me well.. yr eyes ain't playing a trick.. it's my buddy, Lionel alright...

What exactly happened? check out my previous entries..

Introducing the gals:

Excluding Ian that is.. This one better:

Perfect.

They sparkle up my life...

Just last sun, we went to perform at Roland Restaurant, an event organised by the Talking Hands Ministry for the Hearing Impaired.

Will upload the video performance we had once i receive it.

On watching it, i was surprise to learn that we got the attention of everyone in the room in comparison to ahem .. kids ran near the stage.. and others recording us.. how cool is that.

It was a meaningful dinner as we sat separately, interacting with the Hearing Impaired, helping to serve the food and  dessert.

Never felt so happy before, guess the joy of helping other outwins personal, self-indulge happiness.. that is scoring well for exams, job satisfaction, praises from boss & buying a new dress.

It's a joy to Serve.

Am i glad that the delay of 1 year was all worthwhile.. not only do i bump into a old friend but also knowing a bunch of fun filled friends from all walk of life.

So this tues, all of us are having a mini party with lotsa foods and exchanging christmas gift.

Thank God for them, i always wanted a group of friends who share the same faith.. =) Praying together & Serving God.

Thurs: Celebrating Christmas as a Company - Suki Sushi Group. The whole lot of us, from HQ are having our Christmas dinner at Dhoby Ghaut Sakura and exchanging gifts!

Thurs nite: Meeting my Sadf peeps to support Jing Yi's & Sebast Project June performance!

Fri : Attending Christmas Service& meeting the SADF peeps again for dinner & clubbing at St James Power Station.

Sat: Going to SADF for YouthBeat meeting..

A Packed week indeedz. =)

Looking forward to it with Enthusiasm!

As i log onto to my Profile on Facebook, what greeted me was a video created by my colleague..

Go to my Profile to view it.. Titled as "Bali Trip"

As the music played in the background of the video.. can't help but to smile..

More that the destination, the companies of my colleagues is the reason of it all.. =)

Always feel that in a job, the most critical part of staying long in a job is not Job Scope, neither the Salary nor the staff Benefits but....... a good & understanding superior and great Colleagues.

They are the one that u faces 5 days a week, 8 to 9 hours a day...

Colleagues are those explicitly united in a common purpose and respecting each other's abilities to work toward that purpose. A colleague is an associate in a profession or in a civil or ecclesiastical office.

On my 1st job in a recognised  established firm, though i dined with my colleagues.. most of my 8 hours is facing my documents & computer, not much words were exchanged.. it became quite a bore till another new colleague came along months after.. & not long we resigned together.

2nd Job: Lotus.. it was fun being a part time waitress but not full time in the office, as the whole office is only
occupied by my boss, freelance accountant & myself.

So on days when Boss & accountant were not around, i'll be all alone in the office.. what kept me company was the radio.. Pathetic right? & i'll be waiting for the outlets colleagues to collect goods in order to chat.

They were a fun lotz but upon a major change, everyone got pessimistic & non-stop complains about so & so.. it got my Morale low to the ground..

Nonethless, it was in Lotus as a part-timer, that friendships were made from working together as waiteress.. from there the Sotong Group was formed, from there i knew my Buddy, the 3 happy gals and etc & etc..

3rd job: no mention of the past.. in Short i would summarise it as the Boss from Hell.. Lolz.. but out of every bad situation, there's a good out of it.. & that is be able to build up greater frenship with Meiqi as we often lunch out together.

So on moving to my 4th Job, i prayed hard for a job in a SME where Politics are kept to a minimum or at best none at all & great colleagues nonetheless so that work will not be a bore..

Initially, i had my reservations upon learning that it is a chinese speaking environment & that majority are Malaysians.. i prayed hard that i'll be not outcasted & not left out of topics..

As days goes by.. realised i was wrong, they're a fun bunch of pple to hang around with.. we can be working half-way & there be laughter among our cubicles..

With them, i can release out my inner kid nature..

Always wanted to hang out with people similar to my Nature:

When it's time to be Serious, we will be.. Bur when it's time to Play,  we're crazy about it!!

Praying that things will stay this way as the Company expands.. & looking forward to our next holiday trip together!


Thank God for you guys:

(P/s: For yr info: these are 75% of staffs from Accounts Dept )

 A Clarification:  pls do not self-assume that i like u 

Thoughts:

 my expressiveness of words are best type out and not spoken out.


Inadequate? Nahz,  i would rather term that i am not a Eloquent person but there are my other strong points that u really got to know me well real well enough to find it out.



Call it Mysterious maybe.. LoLz..


Nahz.. maybe i used to feel that way but not anymore..


Quiet? Nahz..


I just don't like to talk..



In apparent, being talkative & loud can really spoilts one image..  applicable on myself that is..


Listening is apparently harder than talking.. and i'm glad i am gifted in the area of being a good listener..


How would this world turn out to be if everyone can't wait for their chance to talk..


Who would be there to lift up the lowly & lend a shoulder to those in tears?


How do one Understand without listening to another patiently??


Take a step back in the midst of your hectic life & look around for those who are hurt & in need..with your extended hands, u have made a difference in the life of others and that's where u find Happiness..


Since young, i went on the journey of searching for Happiness..


Someone once told me:


~ Happiness is when u are attached & found the one you love..


I can never accept any verbal truth till i have my own experiences..


and so i fall in love.. & out of love..


I didn't find Happiness..


They say:


- 'Happiness lies when u're smart & successful"


Though i'm still in the midst of this achievement, a taste of smartness was found in clearing 90% of my ACCA fundamental papers without retaking any. Thank God for that.


I was happy for an hour or so... the tinkling feelings then begin to diminish.


A taste of success was found when i was in charge of the Finance, HR & admin of my previous workplace.. it didn't last long & high expectations soon lead to greater disappointment.



Through observation, it was said that:


"Happiness lies in having lots of fun by engaging in external activies(i.e. clubbing)."



In clubbing, only when the alcohol kicks in and when the music goes spinning, the "Highness-state of altered consciousness) makes me laugh & go crazy, letting loose of the stress.. but in apparent such emotions send to the brain is not Happiness"



"Simplicity is Bliss" oftens ends with a . but mine ends off with "but Complicated is me"



Enjoys observing as i treb on every step along the way searching for my Happiness.. seen friends and colleagues smiling upon discussion of their recent holiday trip..


Surely..


"Happiness is when u go for a holiday"


Despite the circumstance, my stubborness got the worst of me and i followed my heart to join my colleagues for a Holiday trip"



Rather then anything else.. holidays are really good to recuperate after a constant stressful environment.. it lets u run into a temporary world of Escapsim


Trip ends = Happiness ends?



I look at the world map, i searched through the web, keyed into GPS... but none could direct me to Happiness.

This words appears to be an Intangible Assets in everybody's life, it can't be touched, it can't be bought but yet we can't survive without it, it seems almost equivalent to Oxygen.

Have you seen a face in the crowd who seems to walk around aimlessly, eyes seems to lose all hope & their lips are either straight or frowning.. where has their smile gone to?

In my pursuit, as i seek to view my life from a different perspective, did i realised that Happiness was always there in my life, i had been too blinded by my own limited mindset.

It was only then & then.. when friends came over & mention about how my life is an inspiration to them & when the smile of another warms my heart.. my heart gave a wide grin, it was all satisfied.

"Happiness is when the life of another is change for the better because u made a Difference in their Life"


As i pursuit in this journey of  Less of me, More of Others route.. i know that i know i am walking in the right Direction..


Someone's elses smile willl be my reflection in the Mirror , when they smile, i will too.

As mentioned in my facebook:

"Cyndiz Cheong

is so So sO SO Going to BALI this upcoming Thurs!!!!!!!!!!! =D"

I'm looking forward to this trip with enthusiasm.


Being such a last minute person, i decide to spend these two days on this upcoming trip:




First the Lodging:




http://perelavilla.com/location




Seems like my colleagues which did most of the planning enjoys a Prestige life, a great selection to stay!


More of it:


http://balivillaphotographer.com/category/clients/villa-perela

Ooz..

My kind of life..

Doesn't it represents a High end Bungalow that is usually located at Holland area?

Since meanwhile i can't afford to live in one, one just got to save a bit and afford a temporary similar stay in other countries..

During the Trip, i shall take more actual photos of the place to compare & contrast..

Next, i went to check to google on Bali:

 

Firstly: Weather

Weather Predictions for 26th- Thurs till the day i be back (29th-Nov'09)-> "Sunny to Mostly Sunny", spells a real hot weather out there.

Being a laze Indoor person, this would means slapping on myself lots of Sunblock lotion & seriously i hope not to get too burnt out.. i really hate all the aftermaths of sunburnt, skins peeling off and there esp on the face..

Secondly: Forum

Nothing much of help that i could obtain from this forum apparently.. shall rely on colleagues to actualise the Itinenary..

Thirdly: News

Follow up of the News with me as i travel to Bali and keep me in prayer too. Not that i'm paranoid.. but this S'porean gal, all safetly protected in this red dot has not travelled out(exlcd JB & sentosa LoLz) for the whole 20 + years of her life.. somehow does feel a bit paranoimic to travel to Bali in the midst of Excitement..

Lastly:

More updates next sunday when i'm back from my Trip!

Next up:

Christian Entry:

Sometimes u don't need the best of circumstances to feel a Joy within.. though what surround me are stuffs that can't be resolved in a short-term, though i may not have an exact solution to it.. yet i'm feeling this joy within, a smile smudge across my face even as i blog.

Insane?

Nahz, on the Contrary, when things are beyond our own control, i am glad to have One that is Greater that is sustaining me thru and being rest assured that i can go through it at the end of the day.

I serve a God that is Amazing.

Found this news that i would want to share, feel so inspired! though this interview was carried out months ago:

Click on it to find out:

http://www.citynews.sg/index.php/featured-video/

*P/S: Scroll down to the 3rd Row, select the Video on the fourth column (1st  column is on yr left).

Cyndiz's Quote: Sometimes having a crying outburst alone isn't necessary bad nor a sign of weakness, it actually release u from what u been hiding inside.. BUT Pray immediately after, it stops the bad emotions (Self-pitiness) that could potentially arise from the cry.

In God I Trust!

                                                

Met up with the Sadf mates last fri @ Sake Sushi to celebrate Joel's birthday and afterwhich some of us proceeded to DXO to chill and ended up Camwhoring.

More photos to be uploaded once JY uploads her version into FaceBook.

Thoughts:

What's your Dream?

Dreams can be defined as, A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration: 


As this sermon was being shared by Pastor Kong during service, thoughts were stirred and i nodded continously throughout as he shared.

Humility, Courage and Loyalty.

Particular love what he defines Courage:

The Capacity to do what is Right even if it's unpopular.

How many of us dared to be different? By not following the crowd & having a mind of yours despite critism & sniggers.

We humans have a tendency to react as the  "Tall Poppy Syndrome"

Being Different & choosing to stay confident in this belief that we hold firm on ain't an easy task.

Especially if you belong to the cateogory where human's approval is your oxygen.

All of us have been through this phrase before isn't it? During our teenager years, we always love to hang out with the coolest group in our school. The eloquent confident classmate of the group is always the leader.

During that phrase,i would not lift a finger (just being Exagerating) or make a single decision without consulting another.

"if i do this, what would they think?"

"by saying this, will i offend him/her?"

Thank God i grew up this phrase during 20s of age.

and the extreme side of me evolve.. i simply became the opposite but much of it is kept within my thoughts.

A Silent Rebellious Nature

So do dare to be Different but apply that with common sense.. the exclusion of which becomes Weirdness..

Pursue your dreams in life with these 3 factors by planning & actual action and leaning on the greater one, years down the road.. u would be so proud of your achievements!! =)

Sharing:

Decide to randomly write out a story as seen in my previous posts.. was inspired by my friend Kelly on her novels and another which i saw on Tv of her composing Love Stories in Chinese.

Thus, for the sake of fun, shall try to compose one..

=)

Signing off....

                                                            Complextion Memoirs of Emma Ang

Chapter 1:

As the dawn breaks, while majority of students are in deep slumber and well in escapisim of reality by hiding under the blanket and thrashing the alarm clock at the wall.

A different scenario occurred in a prestige bungalow at Holland Village. Without the reliance of any external noise, Emma was already in her sports attire as her dad places a plate of freshly baked sausage with scrambled eggs before her.


"Everyday breakfast is always something new and one that brightens my day!"

Dad nodded with a grin, gave a pat on Emma's head.

" Do try to sleep earlier the next few nights, don't understand why nowadays youngsters like you can survive on 4 to 5 hours of sleep. "

" Dad, weren't you suppose to be asleep before i do, i don't understand why old people nowadays sleep after midnight"

Giggles.

"So what are your plans after your O level exams?"

" Oh well.. if everything goes smoothly as planned, i am aiming to enroll into RJC."

Up till this point as you close your eyes, what will be the image of this gal in your mind?

A girl with plaits and thick specticles, a simple daddy's gal and one that dresses in jeans and t-shirt?

Drop all of that away.

Her dad a chinese & her late mum a Portugense. This mix heritage girl stands at a height of 1.65 with fair rosy skin, memorising light brown eyes and high cheekbones. Emma is a stunning beauty for her age.

Thus it ain't a secret that many guys in her school goes drooling over this school belle that is not only sexy but smart and witty.

To be continue...

Note: Above characters and storyline are Ficticious, any similarities are mere coincidence.

The following article extracted from Nanz Inc.Com simply expresses what's my exact thoughts:

Being single is hardly a social stigma these days as more women in Asia become independent financially and socially.  However, marriage, especially in the Asian context, is still seen as the "more acceptable" status.  How do the bachelorettes of the 21st century make sense of their independence, their longing for companionship and social expectations to be hitched?

For one, the personal freedom is definitely something that is appreciated by civil servant, Cheryl, 28.  “I wouldn't say that being married with two kids in a 4-room HDB flat at 28 is a goal for me.  There are still a lot of things that I wouldn't give up for now such as travelling, doing mission work in church and building my career.”

For PR consultant Ann, 37 and editor Joan, 30, singlehood has even afforded them the ticket to work abroad in Australia and Hong Kong respectively.  Says Ann, “If I had been attached or married, I would probably not have had the opportunity to pursue my Masters degree overseas or migrate to Australia. These were life choices that really made me a better person from what I have learnt along the way.”

Likewise, Joan, who previously worked in London, admits that she wouldn’t have had the liberty to just “up and go” if she had relationship commitments.

As much as they enjoy their independent lifestyles, the possibility of companionship is still something that they haven’t ruled out.

“At the end of the day, I think everyone would like to have a special someone, and I'm no different.  When I see friends getting married, settling down and having babies, it feels like they are moving on to 'adult' stuff while I seem to be stuck in this kidult phase,” Joan admits.

However, these discerning single women have also come to terms with the fact that the lofty notions of romance will also evolve.  “I think this thing about Mr Right is kind of overhyped.  Not everyone finds him and I just think it boils down to whatever works for you and makes you happy,” says teacher Lyn, 30. Similarly, Ann believes that there will be certain circumstances she will have to accommodate if she does encounter love later in life — for example, not being able to have children.

Meanwhile, Cheryl is still enjoying the dating scene as a single.  “Putting on a pretty dress and heels and having a nice dinner with hopefully enjoyable company is seldom a bad thing!”

Whatever the case, it seems like these women are hardly in a rush to get into a serious relationship or even consider marriage for that matter.  As Lyn explains, “

“Love is not something that can be forced upon. It happens when it happens.”

How many Coincidences can there be in life?

Coincidential that we are in the same church, same service.. and only to end up seeing this friend of mine in Chc Sign Lang. Basic class..

Of all ministries?? Of all various recruitments throughout the year??

i almost fainted seeing his name on the class list on the first lesson..

Any thoughts of withdrawing?? As much as it would be a struggle, Sign Lang in Chc after waiting for more than a year.. all those attempts to join this ministry.. is simply too important for me to give this Passion up.

So imagine my attempt to treat him as a normal classmate apparently didn't worked out... my words were sarcastic.. hints of hurts i guess..

Just last week, 1/2 of me looked forward to lesson.. the other 1/2 seriously didn't want to go..

Thought it was the past that we were friends... isn't everything Past??

i was glad that i finally bump into you after 3 yrs & that the coincidencial met-up was sufficient to summariase this friendship up?

So y do we have to bump into each other again??

Puzzled was all that in my mind...

i really want a simple life.. sick of a dramatic life-style..

Just today, our class had arranged to meet up &sit together in the Hearing Imparied area for service.. and coincidentally he had to sit beside me.. i give him a reluctant "hi" and when we're given 2 minutes to interact with our neighbours..  i was like ... " - _ -

And guess what.. i did the meanest of all things.. and simply chat with the classmate sitting beside him.. treating him transparent for the moment.. only to include him in the follwing conversations..

I guess it was all obvious to him..

We both knew there were some conflicts we need to settle...

and off we went to Changi Airport as a class to had our lunch and practice for our up-coming test this Tues.

One of them offered to drive us to the nearest mrt station.. as we sat together...

he randomly ask about my well-being... only to get back my retort once again..and on & on we then begin to talk about those common friends we once had.. often letting out.. "That's so long ago"

As we travelled in the same train.. he finally said: "Why don't we just talk about the issues that arose years ago?"

Stunned i was...

But guess it really was about time.. cause we both can't believe how coincidentally things had really turn out to be..

we both wanted our past to be erased and move on with our life.. never mentioning what exactly happened... but One that is Greater.. guess wanted the both of us to stop running away..

I finally got the answer i wanted.. it was true.. i was correct.. he had decided to back out from this close friendship we had, when he suspected i liked him back then..

As every details was mentioned out.. i can't help but to feel it all seems like a dream..

This blog was started out becoz of a Friendship i once held so tight

a Friend who i hold close to my heart

a Friend who i could really relate..

a Friend-ship that caused me to fall badly when i lost it.. losing control of my emotions..

No one around me knew what's wrong with me..

How can a gal possibly get more upset over a lost friendship compared to a lost relationship??

Did she really liked him that much??

Noo.. it wasn't..

No one back then could comprehend for the reactions i had..

"it's only a Friendship"


But they fail to recognise that i am not in the face in the crowd.. i tend to Think Differently..

If i had a gal-fren who understand me so well & click with me like nobody business.. take away that friendship in a sudden & u will see me collaspe in the same manner..

As we went to mention about the past.. i had to emphasis that all my reactions.. how this loss hurt me was all because i treasure him as my closest fren..

Yepz, i went on to confess, i did had liking for him back then.. a slight one.. but those attempts to contact him was not for a reciprocal of feelings but i just wanted this frenship so badly to be back..

In conclusion: the answers that i searched frantically with tears, i finally found it at a time when i had forsaken that idea had all been resolved..

So aren't i suppose to be happy??

Apparently not..

no explanation for this..

all i know is that.. what past is past.. we can never be as close as before..

maybe this Buddy that u acknowledge is simply void of emotions.. she's just too hurt on the inside.. countless one sided-feelings before this incident.. after it, i lost another friendship with my best friend.. followed by a broken heart in a too-hurt-to mention failed relationship..

she's really  extremely tired emotionally.. she's just want to do well in her job & studies..achieve her goals & simply being a friend to those she meet.. to make a difference in the life of others.. to help those around.. to use her passion to serve others..

she's just want to give.. she no longer can accept any receiving..

or maybe she's just too afraid of any possible broken trust again..

Updates..

Ain't that feeling well today, so decide to rest at home..

Have really been busy at work since work started 3 months ago.. working hours is never an 8 hours straight (i ain't complaining though).. since first few months is always picking up the experience..

what i am lacking though is my memory, ability to remember tons of things and give an almost immediate reply, when superiors/management poses questions..

I am often placed in the situation where i got to flip through my countless files just to give the reply ..

So when the reply pops out immediate all thanks to my memory bank extracting it out fast... i feel so darn proud of myself.. stroking my Egos.. (Gals do have Ego too k?!) We call that Self-love, Self-indulgement.

Competency..

Another struggle:

The ability to remain awake throughout.. this often occur after lunch..from 2pm to 4pm.. the time where my mind is slowly floating into its LaLa Land..

Like working while sleeping with open eyes... there was this time, my colleagues was having a discussion to my left.. and i was typing on my key-board... drifting away second by second..

After almost ten minutes or so.. i popped random sour stufffsss into my mouth to stop myself from slumping into the keyboard..

Colleague A then walk over and mention about some changes to be taken effective & asked if i heard the Discussion they had discussed..

At which.. i gave her a blank look.. "No.. what were u all saying"

No futher questions was asked where on Earth was i..


About my job/working Enviroment:

Can't remember wherether i blog about this part before but decide to blabber about it anyway:


Majority of the colleagues are from Malaysia.. thus spoken Communication is Chinese

And Appraisal of my confirmation was in Chinese.. i almost fainted when i saw that..

Chinese Chinese Chinese...

Though i ain't no Banana.. but English is my option to communicate with those around me..

& one criteria of looking for Mr Right -> Proficient in English (both written & speech)..

Back to my Colleagues, they are simply a fun lotz.. their definition of fun is often jokes that goes flying around on each other.. Gossips? nahz.. juz corny jokes cracked on each other.

Nonetheless, it's funz to have constant laughterss amid the hetic pace of work..

Constant Seriousness kills me straight on the spot..

a random example:

Was at my cousin's wedding.. sat with family & cousins whom i am not close with.. after attempts to communicate with my aunt about her kids & cousin about her work.. which often end up in Monologues..
As silence embraces the table.. i decide to let my eyes do the wandering but with eyes met them (thinking tt i am looking at them).. i felt every single second passes like an hour.. and almost so random, i let out a loud sigh: "I am Bored!"

Thankfully, the dinner started not long after... with relief from within..


Sharings:

Just obtained the following website from Jing Yi:

http://www.lifeprint.com/asl101/lessons/lesson01.htm

It's all about ASL (American Sign Language). One that i am in the midst of picking..

Yepz, my life is practically is filled up with work & Sign Langs..

Will be meeting up my classmates from CHC sign lang classes to sit at the Hearing Impaired area for service this sunday.. can't waitz. =)