我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我喜欢你！！！！！！！！！！！！！!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i feel so much better by "shouting" it out..

No guts to express my feelings so blogging works best for me.

Everyone of us have our little secrets, be it the dark one or a confession..

As we grew older..those secrets we used to whisper to our close sistas and then blushed away and giggle together seems to diminish over the years...

Due to restrictions by having an image to maintain, balancing our busy schedule and not trusting people easily.. communication with colleagues, classmates and friends are more of a general topic.

But as the secret builds up.. your heart begins to feel an Itch.. a desire to share with someone..but who?? what are the options available??

A. Write it on a paper, stuff it down a bottle and dump the bottle into Singapore River (Ops..Rubbish alert to the NEA volunteers)

B. Blog it out and then use a Password to lock your blog.

I can't imagine how Le-cheh is it for  close frens to type a password upon clicking your link & there's no assurance that there won't be a stranger beside yr fren who's sipping her fav starbucks as she logged in.

 C.  Log on to  http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/

I stumbled onto this website upon reading 8 Days..

Publishing your secret on the WEB??

How safe is this secret?? No one knows for sure but one guide to this website is only to publish secrets that ain't really dark.. u can't probably post u commit a crime, in sucidal mode or.. Crap Alert.. intentions of Terroism ( coz it takes 4 days for it to be posted out after being reviewed & voted before it's published).


But it's a good way to release out your frustrations or practising your lines before making that confession.. like for eg: Confessing that you are gay..




It's probably a good way to confess your feelings by typing your real name and then placing it as a link and then sending a private msg to your admirer.

On a serious note as i glance through these msgs.. i can't help but to ponder.. everyone out there needs a listening ear & it's probably the idea of the person who started this website.

In our Busyness.. it seems we have neglected those who secrectly wish we would stop in their footstep & be there for them.

Why do one chose to tell a computer, a stranger publishing it out for the world to see & it actually makes the typer feels better..

Maybe in this society that we live in, we tend to judge.. and ironically those that judge you are those that you know and those sympathize you are the strangers out there.


Labels: Lameness- Ponders- New website 

在感情的世界里，我像似刚出恋的女生。。喜欢暗恋人的感觉。

 可是却不想被暗恋。。

不想给别人错觉也不想伤害任何人。。

一旦感觉到,我在我们的友情里倒退。。

这是我给你的明示代表着我只把你当朋友而已。 对我千万别死缠烂打。。

我反而会觉的你很惹人厌。

对于“你”，我知道我们属于不同的世界。。

在我的理智里， 喜欢你是件非常可笑的事。。心跟脑是站在不同线。

一旦在朋友周围里，有幽默，有智慧，有High EQ的男生，我的心就会动摇。。

想踏进你的世界，认识你的一切。。

若感觉是互相的，这社会是不会给这一段感情快乐。。

你应该有个普通的生活。。不想shake your world 制造不愉快的结果..

在过不久，我得跟着majority踏进社会的世界里。。不认命却得conform to Society..

“该是找对象结婚了”。。 这句话在朋友的暗示里藏着，就连刚收到的sms 不断的提醒着我。。

女人终就是女人。。to what extend & duration can i defy gravity..

How diff do i want to be echoes back & forth in my mind..

希望你在你的世界里找到你的快乐吧。

We ain't here to please anyone .. words are that easy to mutter.. but existence & acceptance with the exception of self is basic human needs..

Attended a Deaf Forum held by Deaf & Hard of Hearing Federation together with Teacher Wee Wee, Victor, Tony,Jeremiah and Andy.

It was held at ERC Institute Pte Ltd and it was one of the more interesting forum in comparison to talks of common sense topics that i had ever attended. 


Topics covered:


1. Mixed Marriage between Hearing and Deaf


Unless we are in their shoes, no amount of sharing can let us truly understand the good & bad times..


Googled e following story:


http://www.pbs.org/weblab/lovestories/stories/Communication/story32853.shtml


2. Job Interview


The speaker being deaf shared of her experience in Interviews of how Interactions between her and her Interviewer would be scribbling notes.


Jobs that are best for them for those that requires not meeting clients & communication.


3. Hearing Aids


http://www.cochlear.com/sea/hearing-loss%20treatments/hearing-aids-adults

With technology advances, it seems as if the design have been modernised:

http://www.digisound.com.sg/index.php?page_id=21

Digital : Due to tiny micro-processors, digital technology has been introduced into the most modern hearing aids. Acoustic signals are converted into a binary code at high speed and with great precision. Complex calculations provide the ultimate flexibility to individualise hearing systems to suit a particular hearing loss.

A new Found Love?

Seriously, i am pretty amazed at the power of Connection of Languages..

Being someone who knows Sign Lang.. i truly begin to embrace at how Languages can Narrow the gap of Distance between Humans..

By knowing the Deaf language, there's an almost immediate Connection & ice seems to melt in an instance..

An invisible bridge begins building in between once common Language is used..


As i observed, though Chinese and English is often what hangs on our lips in almost every situation where we are in..be it asking a stranger for direction, giving out instructions at work or hanging out with friends.

But once you start speaking in a less common word to your neighbour, you could almost share a secret which is unknown to others around you.

When we were young, the F language was our best way to gossip in class/groups even in front of the teacher, who look clueless to our moving lips.
 Nopez, it's nothing Vulgar just that you add an F sound to every word in the sentence..

English language: Nice to meet you.
F language : Nicefice tofo meetfeet youfou.

It's also the best way to communicate one to one when you don't want any interruption.. and i immediate transform to be liken to a third party whenever i have two friends speaking Dialects.

I am born to be a Hakka but one who apparently who get speechless when asked to speak this language.. though i grew up living under the same roof with my relatives. More than often, my last recollections of what they spoke was not Hakka but  rather Cantonese and Hokkien.

But it's pretty bad when my parents had to mixed these two to talk.. leading me to be a good listener & a confuser.. Not being able to differentiate which is which..

 So more than often, i rather not open my mouth when people around me speaks in these 2 languages.. to avoid causing them to laugh when i joined in.

Just the other day, went out with my Colleagues for dinner.. Cantonese were their main communication.. & so    i remained silent.. As one of them turned around to talk to me changing to chinese while the rest were in their topics.. an image pop out..

I am that question mark that hopes to be in their "Circle"..

Guess this is often how Person A feels when they observe the Deaf communicating..

Being the person i am and ever wanting to learn something new.. i am not contended to stand outside being an  observer.. i want to step into their world.

And so with this intention in mind..

A path to learn Cantonese shall begins from this day on.. =)


Plus Points:

1. Communicate with my Colleagues on a closer level.

2. Able to interact with the elderly.



若我踏进你的世界，学习你的语言，我们的距离会不会更接近。

*Applause*

After much proscratination & after

 much figuration from others blog.. i 

finally manage to edit my blog that 

simply reflects the best of me..

opps.. i know i sound so narcissistic.. esp. 

when i was trying to create the header picture 

of this blog... i am like.. freak.. y am i so in lov

 with myself?!

For my close frens, they probably seen my 

previous messed up blog.. with all the 

alignment gone totally wrong and i had really 

put that issue all at a side for a long duration of

 a year.. BUT as i had got to constantly bypass 

this messiness blog b4 i view others blog and 

by today i had enough of it & decide to 

figure it all out... now i feel so proud of 

myself... *Beams with pride*

HAH.. o x O

Comes tmr will be the day, this close fren of 

mine whom i befriend back in Lotus days will 

be enlisting into Pulau Tekong:

He's none other than Rubber, Rapper..  Rapture Lai 

JianWei!!

He's probably the youngest in my group of 

frens... to think that as i mention that my fren 

is enlisting into Army to my Age group frens..

probably results in head scratching..

This Intelligent, High EQ talkative, crappy,

 Hospitality F&B graduate will move on to

 becoming a man's kind of life in a day's time.

I had make it a point since our last caught up 

dining at Caprese to meet him up before he 

enroll into Army..

And i'm glad tt my memory didn't failed me

when i chatted with him on FB, otherwise i 

probably be guilty labelled as a fren who is too

 caught up with her own life..

So together with our Pretty Babe Rainbow, we 

went to our Favourite HangOut : NO 5.. 

sipping away our LOVE = LYCHEE MARTINI!

We toasted to him of his loss of hair & 

freedom, life of Tekong & meeting the 

supernatural (Tekong is famous for it).

Be meeting him up once again in two weeks time.

Take Care Dude! Remain in your constant Positive Self in

Camp as you said you would.. Believe that you can  

come out even fitter physically & mentally. Jia YOU K?!

Had just enrolled back into ACCA, registered

 for P2 in adminstration & monetary terms

 but not mentally yet.. 

I'm still searching high & low for my 

Motivation, Excitement & Discipline that i 

once had when i first enrolled.. when my life 

for 2 years was literally work,study routinely 

and mugging w little sleep during exams...

 & my Notes of ACCA was of high 

importance tt it be e main non living thing tt i

grabbed should my house(touch wood) caught fire.

This 1 and a half year, i had been away from 

the books & notes and had caught up my

 life with Frens, Sign Lang & 

Volunteering.. an Un-routine life... 

This July, this paper being in the professional 

level and re-taking my last fundamental paper..

 i got to mentally prepared myself tt it's gonna 

be back to a much routine & Geek life.. 

scheduling majority of time to working & 

studying.. and facing my laptop would be 

primarily due to revising & not for Facebook.

Exagerrating? Maybe for others, but a non-fun

 life by constantly revising every other days of 

non lessons is my tactic of passing my papers 

in first attempt with e exception of F5 that is..

While my classmates will be shopping, chilling 

out months before exams.. i be practising 

& re-writting my notes..

Thus explaining y i got burn-out and had to 

take this 1 yr & half to catch up on my life..

Psycho-ing myself that i can do it! =)

Shall be determined to wake up an hour earlier every Mon to Fri to catch up on work... =D

I just want to be on a constant Progressing Mode in the things that i do.

Shall end here by sharing this chinese Love quote tt i saw in MK's profile tt got me almost Emo e other day:

如果你不爱一个人，

请放手，好让别人有机会爱她. 

如果你爱的人放弃了你，

请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人. 

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属於你的
，
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的，

人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害. 

有些缘分是注定要失去的，

有些缘分是永远都不会有好


结果的， 

爱一个人不一定要拥有，

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他. 

男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；

女人哭了，是因为她真的放弃了. 


如果真诚是一种伤害，我选择谎言；



如果谎言是一种伤害，我选则沉默；



如果沉默是一种伤害，我选择离开.
 

如果失去是苦 你怕不怕付出


 
如果迷乱是苦 你会不会选择结束



如果追求是苦 你会不会选择执迷不悟



如果分离是苦 你要向谁倾诉，



好多事情都是后来才看清楚，



好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦，



然而我已经找不到来时的路. 


有一种爱,明明是深爱,却说不出来.



有一种爱,明明想放弃,却无法放弃.



有一种爱,明知是煎熬,却又躱不开.



有一种爱,明知无前路.心却早已收不回来. 



决定放弃你的那一刻我哭了，



我的眼泪证明了我是真的很爱你. 




爱你不是游戏. 爱你是真心的.



忘记你我做不到. 不管我们的解决是否完美.





什么是勇气？是哭着要你爱我，还是哭着让


你离开．

男人的自信来自一个女人对他的崇拜，

女人的高傲来自一个男人对她的倾慕. 永远不


要栽培你爱的男人，你把他栽培的太好，结果


只有两个： 

他从此看不起你或他给人偷了。

追求一个人的手法不需要太聪明，

但离开的手法必须聪明绝顶 ！




为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前人？

在未可预知的重逢里，

我们以为总会重逢，总会有缘再会，



总以为有机会说一声对不起
，
却从没想过每一次挥手道别，都可能是诀别，

每一声叹息，都可能是人间最后的一声叹息。

也许一个女子的寂寞也就是这样的不堪一击
。
如果一个男人对我伸出手，如果他的手指是热的
。
他是谁对我其实已经并不重要。对于男人，


更是如此，



如果一个女人在他心里出现，


只需要她的身体是炽热的。



也许爱情只是因为寂寞，


需要找一个人来爱，即使没有任何结局。

伤口是别人给予的耻辱，自己坚持的幻觉。



像我这样的女人，总是以一个难题的形式出现


在感情里.

发现自己只能爱一个人在一瞬间。


而且渐渐变的自私. 


很多人不需要再见，因为只是路过而已 。


遗忘就是我们给彼此最好的纪念. 



可以是一瞬间的事情，


也可以是一辈子的事情。


每个人都可以在不同的时间爱上不同的人. 



不是谁离开了谁就无法生活，遗忘让我们坚强. 



这样的生物，仔细一看，原来是伤痕累累的. 




是否被爱，每个人有不同的感受。



重寻旧梦的代价往往是我们付不起的. 

人世间的幸福，总会令人好看一点。

因为微笑，我才了解了爱. 

因为爱他，所以离开他。我喜欢这句话. 




有些感情如此直接和残酷。容不下任何迂回


的温暖.


 带着温暖的心情离开，要比苍白的真相要好，


纯粹的东西死的 太快了




。 

感情被懂得是一种幸福，


等待着被懂得是一种孤独.