ACCA

Tomorrow evening i am gonna meet Audrey after work to go to FTC to apply for membership of ACCA & enrolling into FTC as a student.. mind made up.. i shall take 2 modules for my next half a year.. so i just gonna slack as much as i can for this remaining one month.. Next year onwards gonna be more tough.. gonna discliplined myself to study and to work as a full time..heard that ACCA is going to be very tough since i was in Poly year 1..so i am just gonna do my best, though i am not born smart.. i just have to put in my 100% effort this time round.

I always have my radio tune in to 98.7 everyday at work.. so was listening to 'muttons in the morning'..the djs are lame & they were mentioning about the news whereby different matchmaking agencies combined together to make a special event soon & were basically asking for suggestions of listeners of how they feel about matchmaking sessions in this century...

I was like.. hmm...for a moment, i was entertaining the thought of will i have to go through such things in the near future??
I am glad my mum never stresses on me about me this age have to get married.. she's rather Bo chup about my life, which is good in a way.
i can't imagine myself going thru such ordeal.. i am not against pple going to matchmaking but my defination of matchmaking is basically single woman looking for single man, single woman has been unattached for few yrs.. her frens all married..no one to hang out with.. yearns for love & attention and thus go for matchmaking.. and
single man looking for single woman to satisfy himself.. he's afraid of getting Aids..so he have to look for a lifelong partner to carry on his heritage.. all his friends are married & he has no one to talk crap with..and he's afraid to die as a loner..


I am so damn critical.. but that's how i feel..don give me the crap that such matchmaking session is a good way to make friends.. if it is.. it would be call friendsmaking session..
When either sex attend such stuff, they usually will put on a fake self in order to impress the other..so the chances of meeting a wolf in a sheep cloak is relatively high..
I still believe in looking for love by starting as friends.. etc..while studying or working.. observation period is longer & the person true character shows.. Afterall, marriage is for life.. i won't want to sacrifice my lifelong happiness simply becoz pple start calling me old hag or mei ren yao few years down the road..pple can snigger at me being single for all i care..

so if ever one day, one was to caught me attending such session, there's only two possibilties:
a) i gone bonkers
b) u saw the wrong person..tt's my evil twin..



when it comes to relationship, when it comes, it comes.. so i am just gonna wait.. even if no one comes along..i will build my own house..like the old times whereby single old woman will invest their livehood to build her own house..and live happily ever after..with me, myself and I.

Happiness Lies in my own hands..

Vivo City

Went down to Vivo city at 12pm today, met my sotongs family members to celebrate our Sotong president Auntie Mary belated birthday.. except sweetie aka lao shi couldn't be there.. she wasn't feeling well.

We went to this chinese restaurant, Dian xiao er..due to the bigness of vivocity, we have difficulty in finding the place, and our lao er give us the not exact location.. telling us it's near to starbucks when it was quite a distance apart..and she was late due to take wrong bus.. sotong lao er in actions again.

The food was good..simply love the sambal kangkong.. and it was not that expensive..ate till very full.

We decided to watch a movie after that.. and while waiting for time to pass.. went walking around & i collected my watch which had been due for collection for more then a month ago..

This is the pig watch bought at ten dollars.. purchased it with Lihao & Amanda on the day when Vivo city just opened. We wanted to buy a watch for the 5 of us.... incld. Norin & xiuqi, we planned to wear it together at work... but as the shop didn't have additional stock for the watch in pink & thus have to wait for collection...well, guess i can't wear it together with them at all, as i'm no longer working in grill..this watch just have to remain in my accesories box for the time being.








After which we went to eat dessert at a cafe.. wanted to eat the brownie so badly...but sigh.. it's sold out.. so have to settle for the fries & ate banana spilt.





At ard 4plus.. watched:



HAPPY FEET!
I so wanted to watch it when i saw it's preview as the penguins were so cute..
I graded it a 7/10..it's a cute show & it does have it's storylines.. it's not just a bunch of penguins acting cute & hanging around the ice zone..
It's an enjoyable show..& i wld recommend my friends to watch it.
Got this baby penguin soft toy on purchase of minimum of 4 tickets..it's sooo cute..

It was kinda throw face to admit that i was excited when the ticket staff passed the soft toy to Maggie as she bought the tickets..seeing that my reactions.. lao san who held the plush toy ask me to have it..she says she have too much of such stuff & lao er, who is much younger apparenlty didn't have any reaction to this penguin makes me feel so kiddish..20 plus le, still act like a small girl when i see such cute stuff.. but i can't help it, it's my normal instinct to be happy whenever i see cute stuff & i simply adore penguins.. gonna put it in my office desk tmr.. so it's gonna cheer me up.

After the movie, we went to eat again at the foodcourt at level 3..and my..it was expensive..lao er spend 8 dollars plus a bowl of Bak Ku Teh, rice & veggie..Lao san spend $6 on a bowl of laksa & i spend $6 for a plate of nasi lemak,with 3 dishes..Maggie's was much more reasonable, her Kuay chup cost her 4.50.. and we had an additional side dishes of chicken wings & steamed eggs... Eating 2 full meals a day is just so sinful..

Neverthless, it was a fun day.. our next gathering would be in Dec.. having our annually christmas celebration.. gonna look forward to it.

Decision making time..

Can't believe that i am showing the symptoms of a computer freak-a person who occupies herself in front of a computer 3/4 of time everyday..it's 12 noon on sat, woke up not long ago..and on washing up.. switched on my laptotop & typing. To think of it, i face 8 1/2 hrs of computer every week day while working.. & after work while at home, would be facing my laptop till 11pm plus.. so it's 12 hours of facing the screen.. crazy me.

It's decision making time once again.. thinking should i take up 1 or 2 modules for my ACCA for next year June exams.. was kinda sure that i would be taking up 1 module till i hear audrey mention that i can pay the modules by instalment... so right now my mind is full of 1 or 2?? 1 or 2?

I'm going bonkers from all the thinking.. i got to take into consideration that if i were to take up 2 modules, i might not be able to take the level of stress.. as initially taking up 1 module wld be testing of water,wherether am up to it.

Handling both work and 2 modules at the same time is gonna be tough.. it's not gonna be like last time..this 2 modules are gonna be twice or thrice tougher from what i studied at poly. I am not born smart,, so if i want to pass, it's all abt being discliplined.. making sure my books are with me wherever i go(making me a geek), concentrating & not falling asleep at work and lesson times..

which means less time for myself and more time into work and studies..

Planning & thinking till next tues.. realised Yvonne is in the same shoes as me...chatted on Msn last night..

FTC staffs seems to be on strike..called so many times to make enquries so as to help in deciding.. but none is picking up the call...

Sighz.. meanwhile.. i shall watch my anime & continue calling at the same time...

True happiness

finally manage to settle my blog skin.. changed a new blog skin which was really good but in the end, there was some error & my posts couldn't be seen.. after editing again & again.. the problem still remains and thus left with no choice i went to blog skin.com to search for a new & nicer skin..being quite a perfectionist.. i finally settled for this current skin.

Went to register for my Basic theory test as a private candidate on tues, due to test schedule being fully booked.. have to wait till next year Jan to take.. meanwhile.. my book can be left aside to collect dust..

Being a woman is real tough esp one that is married, have kids & working..Over heard my colleagues conversation in the toilet today..

Colleague A: I'm fat..glad that my husband didn't mind abt it..

Colleague B: Aiyoh.. he have no right to mind lor.. U go home still have to take care of your kids... cook for them.. do housework and on top of it still working..where got time to take care of figure.

-End of Conversation-they left the toilet..

Hmm.. no wonder marriage can be such a headache.. such a torture... Marriage is never a fairly tale story, whereby the prince & princess live happily ever after..

To a woman, marrying the man she love, includes commitment to be with her husband till death & to keep the sparks going..giving birth to continue the family line..taking care of her husband & kids.. do housework..cook and work.. phew..all that is enough to shorten a person life span..


I am quite critical & tend to think differently from the crowd..think it's gonna be hard for me to get married in the future..It's better to date & unmarried.. meanwhile my current focus is still achieving my goals & being successful in years to come..

My definantion of true happiness is finding the guy that loves me.. and vice versus and both of us work hard together in our each individual career.. giving one another a pat on the back & supporting one another morally.

Hope heaven would hear my prayers & answer it soonz..

Movies day..

Sighz.. want to change my blogskin today but apparently blog skin is having database problems and thus i'm still stuck with this blogskin.

Yeap, i'm finally moving on.. no more waiting like a fool, to wait for something that i would never have...guess life is forever moving on.. this is the umpteen times that i have move on from a heartbreak from a guy..

to be me, life can be so terribly sucks.. nothing seems to be going on right.. arghz.. i need a break..i want my life to turn for the better!!
Went for the ACCA preview talk after work yesterday, it lasted less then an hour..gonna register for my ACCA course this coming december..waiting for Audrey msg so as to hand in the registration form.. which means by Dec, i would be broke by $500 plus or more..registration fees for 1 course is that ex.. heard a bad news from the speaker, the module that i would be taking next year, Information system would no longer be in existence after they change a whole new syallbus in June 2007.. which means i'm taking a course which is to be taken off..sighz..
but no choice..got to clear the modules level by level..only by 2008, will i clear my level 2 modules..provided i don't fail any... 2009 take level 3 modules.. taking into consideration, normal humans do fail level 3 at least once.. only by 2011..will i be able to obtain my ACCA certificate.. 5 years from now..will my dreams draw closer...

Audrey is in good luck, told her that i was 'jealous' of her..she's working in Big 4, being a audit executive, having a boss which treats her very nice,would teach her patienlty and treat her very nice.. makes me wonder what am i doing with my life right now...

4 more months before my this temporary position ends.. i really have no idea what next.. future is suspended.. if my current company confirm me as a full-time, should i take it or shall i go find a audit line?? Only by joining a audit company, will it helps better to understand my ACCA level 3 modules and only can i join one of the BIg 4!! but wherether i am up to it will be anothher situation... will someone tell me what should i do...

Time waits for no one

i can't compare.. i am such a proscranitator..

1 month plus to year 2007.. gonna make new resolutions very soon..

what would life has for me?? can it pleaseeeeeee turn for the better??

will i ever get attached again or would i end up getting hurt once more time?

what can i achieve by end of 2007?

all these questions are floating in my mind.. one thing for sure.. i have to cut down my slackness every single day..

I got to luve office life..
i got to lurve waking up at 6am..
i got to make myself less anti-social..
i got to lurve myself more each day.. more confidence..
i got to look young..
i got to obtain my driving license...
i got to get a life...
My life got to turn out for the better!!


Went to RP for movie marathon ard 9 pm plus.. got the priveliage thanks to lihao.. watch 4 movies in a row, having 30 mins break in between each movie..
watched 3/4 of Mission Impossible 3, Monster house, coach Carter and erm.. forgotten the title of the show..
All first 3 were relatively nice..the best was coach carter..enjoyed it the most, though it was a simple story of a basketball coach & it's team members.. neverthless.. the after effect of it was good, it just felt good..a movie that makes me smile..

watched till 7am.. this is the first time of my life that i watched a movie till morning 7... the last time was 5 am plus.. had mac for breakfast and went home to sleep.. slept like a log from 10am plus to 830pm...

next sleeping time is 1 hour plus from now.

Fun times make bad moments as non existence

Had a fun time yesterday.. went to lihao house to give her a birthday surprise along with Norin, Amanda and some of their 7 jie meis.. but it turn out to be no surprise for Lihao, she was kinda anticipating her jie meis to turn up anytime..all of us commented she too smart le..nvmz.. next year different plan...

Gave her the present which was not in her birthday wish list.. hope she likes & wear the shoes often.. afterwhich we went to eat supper... Eric came and drove us to Changi to eat Nasi Lemak..yummy indeed..it's been years since i last ate at Changi village & thus we sat down & talk..oh my.. it was fun, 1 woman & 4 gals talking & laughing non-stop.. we were louder then a market..though we didn't anything out of the ordinary but it was fun laughing together with the rest..listening to cold jokes and talking crap all the way till 1am.. yeah.. though most of us have work & school the next day, time apparently didn't affect us much..

On going off from Changi, Eric drove us around to 'bio" transvasite.. didn't see any pretty ones, only manage to see 1 who wear a skimply top that shows almost all her Breast.. Apparenlty, Most of them tend to emphasis on having a big assets.

Reach home around 2am, 4 hours left to catch up my sleep..though it was physically tiring, but It was FUN! Haven't enjoyed myself so much, hanging out so late for quite a while..was truly happy yesterday.. to me, at times like these make me feel life is worth living..though happy times last only for a while but neverthless, it's worth it! Love moments when my life is up..

Life is like a rollercoaster..full of UPS(Sweet Surprises)& DOWNS-(always happen when u aren't prepared.)

Was very very tired the whole of today morning, keep falling asleep..and even close my eyes for few minutes..glad wasn't caught. sacrifing my sleep for the fun is definently worth it..won't mind if it happens more then once a week.

gonna go sleep...

Deep in thoughts

Rainy days & familiar streets bring back memories...
While out shopping with my best friend, Jingyin.. i begin to think through about my own future..had just went to my friend Wedding Matrimony.. in life, everyone go through different phrases..

On the way home.. thoughts continue to run through my mind & thus decide to blog...
- My thoughts ( in purple) for the day:

Time to let go, it's time for me to let go of my feelings for you, i won't chose to forget you cause i know i can't. I could only let time be my witness of letting go of my feelings little by little each day & not missing you anymore.

I will never forget those who have been important in my life..

I am no longer young to wait, i have to move on with my life, subconciously i had close myself emotionally and had draw a line with guys & not allowing them to enter into my life, i was afriad to get hurt.. but if this carries on i would be single for life..i don't wish to have any regrets in the future.

At this age, i'm mature enough to accept the reality of life, what happen in the past could only serve as memories, i can never go back to the past.

I can't continue to deceive myself i got to accepth the very fact that meeting up again only could allow us to be acquaintance, chatting up occasionally. We could never be as close as before...can never be like buddies again... situations has draw a permanent distance between us. I can't deceive myself forever by telling myself to wait.. wait for a chance that u would start to cherish me.

There had been a few guys in my life..one that i used to have a relationship with & many that i have one sided feelings for.
Thinking back, when i look at the guys whom i used to have infactuation on, i would wonder why i had like them before & the memories that these guys were mostly hurtful & sad.. and thus i had chose to erase such events away, those were not worthy to serve as my past memories to be recalled in the future. I had chosen to forget each individual guy when i knew that it was an one sided love and i wasn't close friends with them either.

This is the second time, i chose to record past events as a diary.. the first diary was for the guy whom i had feelings for in Grill before, i kept it in my computer..keeping it as a reminder of how dumb & foolish i had been and that i would never be so dumb anymore.

This being the second is much more different, it would be my sweet memories.. memories that i would lock it & keep it safetly in a corner of my heart till i am old..till forever i exist in this lifetime. A corner that no other can take away.. even if i meet a new guy in the future..even if i were to get married. Feelings for you by then would have faded but happy & sweet memories that u gave would always remain.

Memories of how we became from stranger to colleagues at grill.

Memories of how i bugged you to become my sensei & taught me those Japanese words..

Memories of how you would irritate me by joking that i'm not a girl..how flat chested i am..

Memories of how we realised we could click so well, & decide to become buddies.

Memories of confiding one another, having similar problems while waiting for transport,how we would chose to sit at the last row of the van and chatted from the start of the journey till i reached home & how u always end up becoming my green tea holder.

Memories of how we would argue when either one get to work on boat 1 while the other couldn't.

Memories of working together in the same boat, how you would cheer me up whenever i showed a black face at work.

Memories of how good a listener whenever i was sad & hurt by that guy..

Memories of how u would advice me that if i feel changing is for the better then i should go ahead & change, when most of the people gave me the typical advice that i still look good without braces and If i never try, i would never know.

Memories of how you would encourage me when i was feeling down, telling me that: "That which not break us will mold us, we're both good people with tough life, it will turn out for the better"

Memories of telling one another that though our life is full of trials, our goals keep us going on in life.

Memories of going to National Library... u got hurt & disappeared by ending up reading books & how as a buddy, i was so worried and searched each level for you.

Memories of how we conclude that though fate got us hurt individually by the person we had feelings for, God was kind & out of it, we became good friends.

Memories of how the big group of customers didn't turn up & all of us ended up eating the food & hang out as a group at Heerens. u had asked me to go down on your enlistment day but i couldn't.

Memories of we became closer & u would accompanied me by smsing me when i felt all alone during my initial attachment period..it was then i begin to have feelings for u, somehow msging u everyday became a habit.

Memories of meeting u together as a group by having a farewell mini grill outing, watching the movie, taking the neo-print & how i didn't work as there were enough staff & u came down to accompanied me for dinner..walking to suntec & chatting as u walk me to the bus stop & waited till my bus came.

Memories of how i meet you up for dinner before u went to army.. & met some amusing gays sitting in front of us.. took the bus and went home.. didn't knew from then till now it would be more then 6 months since we last met and i had missed your call on the first night of your army life.. till now, i did think, would things had been different if i had picked up the call..

It hurts to have to accept the fact that memories are past that i can never go back to..It hurts to face up to the truth that we would only be acquaitance and nothing else..

From now onwards, i got to step onto a different path & continue to walk forward...alone or with a different guy in the future.. i am clueless..

Why does happy moments last so short???

Though we met up on Msn after a few months & said that we would be buddies again but somehow buddies is interpretated as acquaintance. Ultimately,we have different destination in life..

Neverthless.. meeting u is one of the Happiest moment in life..& u always be someone important in my life.. be it past or present tense.

Maybe one phrase could describe this: "Bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu chen jing yong you"

If i continue to hold on or tried to meet you, things would out sour even if we meet cause i would hope that we can chat as much as last time but if it didn't.. i would get myself hurt once again.. i don't wish to let such event sweep away all the memories and i would end up regretting liking you. I would rather chose to let go now..that whenever i think of u, sweet memories will flash through my mind..

Everyone got to look towards the future & move on.. but one thing i'm sure, i will always remember u as someone who had impacted my life, someone who was my close friend, a person whom i called buddy that gave me memories that went recalled will make me smile from the bottom of my heart.

Imaginary scenario... 40 years down the road:

Grandchild: Granny, when u were young, other then grandad, is there any other guys that was special in your life?

Granny: (*stares into blank air, in deep thoughts)

Grandchild: Granny.. did you hear what i asked??

Granny: well.. other then your grandad, i had a relationship with a guy for 2 years, but he wasn't someone i really love..i won't say he's the special guy that have impacted my life.

Grandchild: So your answer is No then.

Granny: *Pauses* There was this guy i befriended when i was in my early 20s.. i knew him when i was working as a waitress. we realised we could click & we became buddies..he's really a very nice guy..those time we were friends.. (*smiles)though it was only for 6 months, i was very happy & enjoyed those moments. Though we weren't together.. he's someone i haven't forgotten after so many years.. (Tears then begin to whelm up in the eyes)

Grandchild: Granny..don't cry..(*takes out tissue)

Granny: I'm okay.. (walks away, went into her room, took out handphone & begin to read through the messages that have been stored for 40 years.. she misses the guy she haven contacted for years)

-End of story_

I have no regrets in knowing u.. my only regret is not cherishing you much more as a friend when i could.

I pray that God would let my future husband be similar to you..cause i won't settle down for a guy who is not as nice as you.. the guy must be as nice as you or better.

I pray you would find your ideal girl who would simply love you for who you are and someone who is suporting by your side always.. a girl whom u can pour out all your love on and she would likewise pour out all her love for you.

May our each individual life turn out for the better.. achieving our ultimate goals in life.. when u open your cafe.. hope you would invite me..

I don't hope that u would think of me as that important friend in your life or remember all those memories but only hope you won't forget about my existence..remembering me as a friend who cares & silently supporting u, though not verbally but mentally... Be it 5 or 10 years later,when u walk down clarke quay, u would remember grill, remember u once had a buddy that u worked with.

I wish you Happiness & success...

This is my Life.. my story..

Just finished watching the channel 8 drama, Zhuang shi qing yuan. It's been ages since i chase watching every episode of a show & looking so forward to it's ending episode today.

It's not a super fantastic drama.. Mediacorp drama story lines always the same.. but i simply like the way Yvonne Lim act.. & also the love story of her & Pierrce Png. Both are truely in love with one another but as Yvonne Lim sister, acted by Fiona Xie is in love with with Pierrce Png, she resorted to all sorts of underlying methods to break them apart... i feel a lot for Yvonne Lim character as she really have a tough life, a runaway from Taiwan, no family, no career, & love life being break apart. If it were to happen in real life, terrible ain't it? though the possibility is there..

Everyone's life has a story to tell...

Every incident in my life is a chapter of my Life Story & i chose to record it in this blog of mine.. so it's good in a way that not much people access into this blog...

A person who appear Strong on the outside normally are weak on the Inside & a person who look weak on the outside is actually Strong on the Inside.

I belong to the latter category..

Everyone has their down moments in life.. some chose to share it with their loved one, or their close friends..afterall..the best way to make yourself feel better in bad days is to say it out.. keeping it inside of u only make yourself feel worse. If not, there won't be the existence of counselor.. or Psychologist.

Humans do love face or to simply put it.. don't wish to show people their weak side.. always putting up a brave front or a face that says i'm 100% okay even when their whole world is upside down. Well.. on the other hand, those that are too weak, always relying on people's help & attention ALL the time & tell their problems to anyone & everyone is simply pathetic too.

Balance is the key to life.

I could say all these is because i fell into both category before.. when i was younger in my teenager years.. i kept everything to myself.. even when i was at my most down times, i would keep all the problems & cry away at night.. i didn't tell anyone.. till one day, i couldn't take it anymore & that it's almost impossible to stand alone.. i decide to share it with my best friend & felt much more relieved after.

From that day on, my friends were my best support & whenever i have problems.. i would go telling them.. & i totally let out my true self to them..crying when i felt terrible.

It was only during my attachment period that i came to realised i have over relied on my friends.. always bothering them.. i was just simply too weak.. During my attachment, i kinda went through hell & every single week was a struggle.. i kept calling My best friend Jingyin & my good friend Royston.. i never fail to scare them.. imagine picking up the phone & hearing the other party crying away.. & it happens more then once in a month & plus they both are busy people with super hectic schoolwork.

But they always never fail to be there for me..

I really owe it to them.. without the both of u.. i can't imagine what would have happen to me.

I only came to my sense that i was over relying on my friends when i walked out of my attachment company claiming half day leave, crying while walking & talking to Royston on the way.. i then went to the esplanade, facing the river & sorted out my own thoughts.

I still have a long way to go in life.. if i continue to rely on them.. they would sooner later find me irritating or making them worry for me all day long.. they also have their own problems..

Thus i just have to find a way to say out & complain.. and i have found it..

which is THIS!

This online diary is a non-living thing..it have no way to complain that i'm irritating.. unless the whole Blogger crash..

Though there is a risk that i'm telling everyone my problems..which is kinda dumb.. i still prefer to do this. Therefore, i went & delete away my blog link from my friendster & Msn.. and i don think anyone would be so free to access my blog through my friends blog link..

Most of my entries are so long.. it does take a lot of patience to read finish..

Today while on the way walking out from my office, one of the temporary staff being a teenager was walking in front of me & i was thinking to myself, wherether would he hold the door or just walk out closing the door in front of my face.. and... when he realised my presence, he walk out & hold the door in such a way that he stood there, hold on to the door & let me walk out & he end up walking behind me. i smiled & say thanks.. hopefully he heard that, if not i would feel so bad.

I was impressed.. totally impressed..

Too bad, he too young la..

Gentleman guys can make me have a good impression on them. A mega handsome guy can be in front of me but if he behaves in a un-Gentleman, such as closing the door in front of my face, or cut my quene or squeeze his way through in the train like a auntie or refuse to carry heavy stuff & helping ladies.. immediately, he's condemned as the ugliest guy on planet earth.

Such guys should be kicked off to Mars :

& live alone.


When i encountered such guys.. it really got me super irritated.. i still remember one incident, i was working at grill & the charger meant for charging the Comp. was blocking my way & as it being quite heavy & plus i have no idea where was it's main wire at. i asked the guys nearby, to help me remove... they then point to me where the main switch is & lamented about the lousyness of the charger or make some stupid remark, can't remember and just walked away.

I was seriously pissed off.. & in the end, luckily Mei qi was there & we removed it..

If in the future, if i ever become a mum.. i would definently teach my son to be a perfect gentleman..

feel so oppressed..

I WANT TO TALK & TALK & TALK &TALK & TALK & TALK & TALK & TALK & TALK & TALK & TALK!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHZ..

i'm going crazy by saying less then a hundred words per day.. Survey have shown that woman speak 10,000 - 20,000 words per day & now i have to suppressed by 9,900 words.

How i wish i can be working part time at grill every weekend, at least i can use all that up to talk to my colleagues or even to customers..

But now everyday i face is my computer.. can't click with office colleagues.. open my mouth but words can't flow freely in front of them...

sobz..

Only my poly friends.. certain friends from church,the gal i befriended in my attachment company, my sotong family members.. & colleagues at grill can understand that i am quite a talkative person in actual fact.

all i can blame is myself.. sometimes i just don't understand myself totally.. don't understand why i just can't talk to everyone & anyone & talk non-stop...


Life is getting Boring.B-O-R-I-N-G...

why do i have limited friends...

If these goes on...think i would go crazy..

*cross finger*