This entry is about u

I still remember i met him at grill. Few days before while working at boat 2 with Chee Wee, he said that he would be bringing his guy friend to work & that he's a half jap..then i jokingly asked him..handsome or not...the rest of the conversation i can't remember...

On the day itself, i was working at boat 1 with dunno who.. then chee wee brought his friend down to boat 1 to send food to table 106 as both of them were runners.. when i went over to serve the food, chee wee then introduce me to his friend and said : "this is Auntie Cindy.." and obviously i reacted by saying him back.. haha.. and at that time..it was two strangers meeting up..we had turned from stranger into colleagues.

i will always remember that day...


Back then, i was crazier.. would talk loud loud, laugh loud loud & behave like a siao za bo.. much more talkative & entertaining.. have tone down a lot since..

I still remember asking him to teach me japanese.. more then once, when i walk pass by, i would ask him what's the japanese word for Teacher..back then it was really hard for remember it. now i know, it's called : sensei
The first japanese word i learnt was : Bakayado.. which means very dumb.. joey & me keep using it against one another..

Time pass.. People Change..

From that day onwards, he was a colleague teaching me japanese.. i told him that everytime he work, he have to teach me 2 new japanese words... Back then, most of the guys at work is just like my colleague, could talk well with everyone.. as back then,i had feelings for another colleague.
After a while..the teaching stops.. as i stopped asking him to teach me..for no reason..

I realised that we could really click when we took transport together after having supper together plus another gal.. she and me were quite close back then, he had feelings for tt fren of mine..

everyday our life is like a story.. taking on a new chapter.

That very night, i asked him wherether he got feelings for my fren.. he said yes & i told him about my feelings for that colleague.. coincidentally, both of whom we like are good friends. Other then talking about them, we begin to share about our families & realised we are similar in certain ways & from that day onwards, everytime he work till 12, we would take the company transport and sit in the last seat chatting about our lifes & abt the pple we like.. realising we could click so well & 'arh' so well.. i decide to call him as buddies..

Back then, i really treated u as a close buddy, it was just purely friendship.

From that very day onwards, lots of incidents happen.. both of us got ourself hurt emotionally by the person we have feelings for.

When he manage to get over her, he told me that he didn't treat me as his buddy so that he can get close to that girl but he sincerely treat me as his friend.. & both of us came up to the conclusion that, though life has been unfair to us, at least God let us know each other as buddies.. he's always encouraging & a good listener..

For no reason, i could feel that i can tell u anything & everything.

thought this friendship could last for years and longer but when the unexpected happen & we lost contact the moment u went NS, i had a breakdown..

not becoz of the feelings alone but simply because it was totally out of my expectation..not a single 1% would i think that it would turn out this way.. i would lose a friendship in this manner..

I have only expect that we would get to meet up once a month & contact only through sms..

after the call that i chatted with u on yr 2nd week of Bmt, i had realised our friendship have drifted..

i thought i was over sensitive..
but it wasn't so, after smsing and the letter, i knew my fears were confirmed..

I had to deal with the change.. but all that while, i had hope that there would be a chance that we would get to contact again & so i waited & waited for a hope..

When i saw u on msn, i was delighted..thus i took up all my courage and say "hi"..i was glad u replied..

When u asked will i forgive u..

I never blame u right from the start, it was more of a wait.. i was just waiting..so when i get to contact u again..i was over the sky..more then happy..

Right from the start i never blamed u at all


Those 6 months of friendship were sweet, i was so glad i could have a guy good friend but sadly as we humans are emotional, i couldn't stop myself from liking nice guys..

From the bottom of my heart, i really wish we could be as close as before.. but i know, it's impossible..things are different and i don't want to be so naive..

By staying contact once in a while.. even if it means, contact decrease to once a few months, that's enough. I just don't wish to have total lost of contact.. i lose it once & i felt lost...

Those 6 months of friendship symbolises a rainbow; It added colours to my dull life..knowing that nice, sincere and real people still exist..not all guys only befriends pretty gals.

and like A Rainbow it lasted for a while but it has been once there & i'm forever thankful it once existed..

It's been 6 months since i last seen u..when would be the next time?

If this lifetime, i don't have the fate to see u again..
I'm glad there's this precious gift that u gave & it's called, Memories.

If we get to meet up..that would be the best.

I never believe in fate but this time round, i could only give in... believing that "ruo you yuan, wo meng yi ding hui zai xiang jian"

I wish u happiness..
and may u find the gal who can be your true happiness.

from far, hearing good news about u.. would bring me a smile.

I wish u success..
Hopefully, when both of us achieve our dreams.. we can meet up over for a cup of coffee & catching up old times..

No one knows what would happen in the future..i leave it to God..

God Bless..