A sense of loss overwhelms me at this very moment... been sick & stuck at home for the past 3 days.

What have i been doing? Nothing but simply, lying restless on my bed, watching TV, on & off my laptop which hangs more than 10 times a day...

Had forced myself to work yesterday morning, only to got worse during lunch time.. was frozen stiff by e air-con only to get another extreme weather contrast while out for lunch and back..

While i lay on my chair forcing myself to work, my endurance level decreased thru e minutes, none of my colleagues tried to asked me to go home for they knew of my stubborness... as i once had turned up for work during my MC day.

My nose was burning from the heat & my brain begin to be in a daze,my speed became an 100 old grandma..

I got to mention 3 of my colleagues were particularly sweet,the guy who sat in front of me lend his sweater upon my request and gave me an astonished look when i offered to wash e sweater in fear of passing e virus to him... another gal saw me trembling with cold passed her thicker sweater while another checked up the nearest Company medical clinic near my home..

Saw 2 doctors within this time span of 3 days.... what a waste of time to Cyndiz's Dictionary..

Can't do anything of much fruitfulness, coz my headache acts up everytime i try to think.. i just want to recover ASAP and get back to work tmr... so much workload to be done.. Three days of missed work = More OT to cover up... Arghhz.. God Bless me!!

Mentioning about schedule.. i had particularly upset two of my frens by my last min cancellation of plan..

The first being we had agreed to go clubbing the next day and it was discussed weeks in advance and confirmed the night before.. only that the very night, i had blew quite a sum of Moolah on Chilling up with my Batch 6 X'mas nite celebration.. an impt. one coz my buddy, Lionel was there.. so in order to save up, i decline to join this group of frens..which maddens one of them as the person had particular cancel another impt plan in order to club.. though it was months back, this incident had upset e frenship tt it been a long while since i last caught up with this group of frens..

The second...

I am someone who lives by the principle, Do unto others what others do unto you..

So seriously i can't stand last min cancellation of plans from my frens either.. coz sometimes a meetup with them is my opportunity cost to do something else..

Thus once it's planned, it's usually carried out.. 

Being stubborn, i still carried on agreeing to meet up even though i was sick believing that i can still carry myself through the whole day.. but my body carries out the opposite.. as if i was forced to take a break.. i had to cancel this plan to meet up reluctantly.. =(

What went thru my mind?? Nothing.. Purely nothing which rendered me kind of useless these past 3 days except for the very fact that i decide to change my diet from this very day onwards.. coz i never been so sick for such a prolonged period before...

I sounds kind of exaggerating, it's just 3 days only isn't it??? what's the big whole deal??

Well.. for someone like me, a late bloomer and times when danger of death came ever so close..every single minute counts..

Gonna register my ACCA tmr.. and it's time to gather back my motivations for studying.. since it's been a long while tt my diligence got me to study constantly despite juggling work..

Got to blog about the Asia Conference that ended last sun, had attended it since last thurs evening.. and really it was a mind blowing conference that got our faith stirred up deep within... for a long while, i had yearn to spend more than a day with christian mates praising & serving God.. so Thank God for these 4 days, where i got to sit in the main hall at the Hearing Impaired area, learning new sign lang as i observed the seniors interpreting the sermon..

Been particularly blessed by Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke, add him in yr facebook if u hadn't :

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=526903399#!/evangelistreinhardbonnke

This is the first time i heard him preach and mine he's really impressive.. an amazing man of God who created a revival in Africa..getting millions of Africans saved in just a few nights.. and what he shared during the conference and his FB profile hits your mind and he got this great sense of humour with truth build in it..

TRIALS? Trials come. They are like a baking-oven. The heat is atrocious - but the cake is delicious. Keep “looking to Jesus, the author and completer of our faith.” Good morning from Singapore. REINHARD BONNKE

Christianity Boring? So is television if we don't plug in. For the best programs, switch on - it makes quite a difference. So does switching on to God. Nobody is a "fan" of so¬mething they know nothing about. An open mind is not to be confused with one empty of informat...

And Dr AR Bernard of his words of sharing on the Culture Mandate.. Of how we should reconciled back to God intended self of us from the very beginning, that is living in the Image of God..
Living in  Self-Concept ; being who and what we should be which would subsequently increase our feelings of self  (Self-Esteem)once we know of the individual purpose of our Life that God has called us to live..

My mum has commented that it would have been the 4 days straight of insufficient sleep that causes me to fall sick.. but no matter what, despite the lack of work done and sickness, i will still attend the conference regardless of anything..

Hmm.. as i'm blogging, not seeing any of my colleagues online in FB would mean that they are watching the Movie, Sex and the City at this very moment and i'm jealous..