Arghz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish i could shout it out loud and shout out loud right now!!

Darnz.. i am in my bad depression of the day againz.. just exactly what's wrong with me?!

This morning, i literally went to work with a bad mood, for no particular reason and retorted back to my accountant and even talk back to my manager.

End of work, thought i was much better when Audrey called to ask me wherether i wanted LJS for dinner..and on the way to class, my mood was better.

But.....

When i learnt that i was not sitting with them and with someone else, i was really sianz.. which means no chatting for me..

I should be alright in sitting alone, that's what i told myself.

But for no reason, i got very frustrated for really no particular reason and left the lesson around 9pm.

On the way home, my depression whelm into me..lost my independence all of a sudden.

Feel that i doesn't matter to anyone..

Feel that even i leave this world, nobody would care, no one would realised or missed my absence..

Arghz..

That's how bad my depression of a day can get me into.

Darnz..

Really wanted to call someone to vent out my frustration and someone to assure i am important.

But there was none that came into my mind.

Am i that boring?

Am i that uninteresting?

I am not ugly what! Why am i still unattached!

Darnz..

The only resort for me to vent out my frustration is on my blog..

at the very least, it won't feel i am a bother, it can't talk back neither can it refuse to accept what i type..

I know i sounds very pathetic right now...

but that's me...

I am just a mood swing person..

One moment, i am cheerful and love being by myself, loving myself..

but the next moment, i would wallop into self-pity..

I want someone to notice ME!!

I want a hug!

I want a shoulder to lean on...

I want someone to give a pat on the back, someone to whisper to me that he/she believes in me and encourage me to go on in life.

Who will be the one?

I know God loves me, He does and His Love is better then any other thing in the world.

But darn me, i am just an unsatisfied human being.

I sounds like a kid right now, i sounds so childish..

Somebody get my life back..

Someone please, slap me awake back to reality.

Can there be a someone who can bring a smile to my face?

Am i being picky? I know i am no beuty but i deserve a right to chose the best for my life.

But the best always prefer wnat is best for their life...

I want to lead a normal life..

I want a companion..

No one on MSN seems to bother about me right now.. sighz..

Am i the only one who feels this way right now..

Darn it sucks to be a woman.

All thanks to DMS!- During Mensuration Syndrome.