Met up with the Sadf mates last fri @ Sake Sushi to celebrate Joel's birthday and afterwhich some of us proceeded to DXO to chill and ended up Camwhoring.

More photos to be uploaded once JY uploads her version into FaceBook.

Thoughts:

What's your Dream?

Dreams can be defined as, A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration: 


As this sermon was being shared by Pastor Kong during service, thoughts were stirred and i nodded continously throughout as he shared.

Humility, Courage and Loyalty.

Particular love what he defines Courage:

The Capacity to do what is Right even if it's unpopular.

How many of us dared to be different? By not following the crowd & having a mind of yours despite critism & sniggers.

We humans have a tendency to react as the  "Tall Poppy Syndrome"

Being Different & choosing to stay confident in this belief that we hold firm on ain't an easy task.

Especially if you belong to the cateogory where human's approval is your oxygen.

All of us have been through this phrase before isn't it? During our teenager years, we always love to hang out with the coolest group in our school. The eloquent confident classmate of the group is always the leader.

During that phrase,i would not lift a finger (just being Exagerating) or make a single decision without consulting another.

"if i do this, what would they think?"

"by saying this, will i offend him/her?"

Thank God i grew up this phrase during 20s of age.

and the extreme side of me evolve.. i simply became the opposite but much of it is kept within my thoughts.

A Silent Rebellious Nature

So do dare to be Different but apply that with common sense.. the exclusion of which becomes Weirdness..

Pursue your dreams in life with these 3 factors by planning & actual action and leaning on the greater one, years down the road.. u would be so proud of your achievements!! =)

Sharing:

Decide to randomly write out a story as seen in my previous posts.. was inspired by my friend Kelly on her novels and another which i saw on Tv of her composing Love Stories in Chinese.

Thus, for the sake of fun, shall try to compose one..

=)

Signing off....

                                                            Complextion Memoirs of Emma Ang

Chapter 1:

As the dawn breaks, while majority of students are in deep slumber and well in escapisim of reality by hiding under the blanket and thrashing the alarm clock at the wall.

A different scenario occurred in a prestige bungalow at Holland Village. Without the reliance of any external noise, Emma was already in her sports attire as her dad places a plate of freshly baked sausage with scrambled eggs before her.


"Everyday breakfast is always something new and one that brightens my day!"

Dad nodded with a grin, gave a pat on Emma's head.

" Do try to sleep earlier the next few nights, don't understand why nowadays youngsters like you can survive on 4 to 5 hours of sleep. "

" Dad, weren't you suppose to be asleep before i do, i don't understand why old people nowadays sleep after midnight"

Giggles.

"So what are your plans after your O level exams?"

" Oh well.. if everything goes smoothly as planned, i am aiming to enroll into RJC."

Up till this point as you close your eyes, what will be the image of this gal in your mind?

A girl with plaits and thick specticles, a simple daddy's gal and one that dresses in jeans and t-shirt?

Drop all of that away.

Her dad a chinese & her late mum a Portugense. This mix heritage girl stands at a height of 1.65 with fair rosy skin, memorising light brown eyes and high cheekbones. Emma is a stunning beauty for her age.

Thus it ain't a secret that many guys in her school goes drooling over this school belle that is not only sexy but smart and witty.

To be continue...

Note: Above characters and storyline are Ficticious, any similarities are mere coincidence.

The following article extracted from Nanz Inc.Com simply expresses what's my exact thoughts:

Being single is hardly a social stigma these days as more women in Asia become independent financially and socially.  However, marriage, especially in the Asian context, is still seen as the "more acceptable" status.  How do the bachelorettes of the 21st century make sense of their independence, their longing for companionship and social expectations to be hitched?

For one, the personal freedom is definitely something that is appreciated by civil servant, Cheryl, 28.  “I wouldn't say that being married with two kids in a 4-room HDB flat at 28 is a goal for me.  There are still a lot of things that I wouldn't give up for now such as travelling, doing mission work in church and building my career.”

For PR consultant Ann, 37 and editor Joan, 30, singlehood has even afforded them the ticket to work abroad in Australia and Hong Kong respectively.  Says Ann, “If I had been attached or married, I would probably not have had the opportunity to pursue my Masters degree overseas or migrate to Australia. These were life choices that really made me a better person from what I have learnt along the way.”

Likewise, Joan, who previously worked in London, admits that she wouldn’t have had the liberty to just “up and go” if she had relationship commitments.

As much as they enjoy their independent lifestyles, the possibility of companionship is still something that they haven’t ruled out.

“At the end of the day, I think everyone would like to have a special someone, and I'm no different.  When I see friends getting married, settling down and having babies, it feels like they are moving on to 'adult' stuff while I seem to be stuck in this kidult phase,” Joan admits.

However, these discerning single women have also come to terms with the fact that the lofty notions of romance will also evolve.  “I think this thing about Mr Right is kind of overhyped.  Not everyone finds him and I just think it boils down to whatever works for you and makes you happy,” says teacher Lyn, 30. Similarly, Ann believes that there will be certain circumstances she will have to accommodate if she does encounter love later in life — for example, not being able to have children.

Meanwhile, Cheryl is still enjoying the dating scene as a single.  “Putting on a pretty dress and heels and having a nice dinner with hopefully enjoyable company is seldom a bad thing!”

Whatever the case, it seems like these women are hardly in a rush to get into a serious relationship or even consider marriage for that matter.  As Lyn explains, “

“Love is not something that can be forced upon. It happens when it happens.”

How many Coincidences can there be in life?

Coincidential that we are in the same church, same service.. and only to end up seeing this friend of mine in Chc Sign Lang. Basic class..

Of all ministries?? Of all various recruitments throughout the year??

i almost fainted seeing his name on the class list on the first lesson..

Any thoughts of withdrawing?? As much as it would be a struggle, Sign Lang in Chc after waiting for more than a year.. all those attempts to join this ministry.. is simply too important for me to give this Passion up.

So imagine my attempt to treat him as a normal classmate apparently didn't worked out... my words were sarcastic.. hints of hurts i guess..

Just last week, 1/2 of me looked forward to lesson.. the other 1/2 seriously didn't want to go..

Thought it was the past that we were friends... isn't everything Past??

i was glad that i finally bump into you after 3 yrs & that the coincidencial met-up was sufficient to summariase this friendship up?

So y do we have to bump into each other again??

Puzzled was all that in my mind...

i really want a simple life.. sick of a dramatic life-style..

Just today, our class had arranged to meet up &sit together in the Hearing Imparied area for service.. and coincidentally he had to sit beside me.. i give him a reluctant "hi" and when we're given 2 minutes to interact with our neighbours..  i was like ... " - _ -

And guess what.. i did the meanest of all things.. and simply chat with the classmate sitting beside him.. treating him transparent for the moment.. only to include him in the follwing conversations..

I guess it was all obvious to him..

We both knew there were some conflicts we need to settle...

and off we went to Changi Airport as a class to had our lunch and practice for our up-coming test this Tues.

One of them offered to drive us to the nearest mrt station.. as we sat together...

he randomly ask about my well-being... only to get back my retort once again..and on & on we then begin to talk about those common friends we once had.. often letting out.. "That's so long ago"

As we travelled in the same train.. he finally said: "Why don't we just talk about the issues that arose years ago?"

Stunned i was...

But guess it really was about time.. cause we both can't believe how coincidentally things had really turn out to be..

we both wanted our past to be erased and move on with our life.. never mentioning what exactly happened... but One that is Greater.. guess wanted the both of us to stop running away..

I finally got the answer i wanted.. it was true.. i was correct.. he had decided to back out from this close friendship we had, when he suspected i liked him back then..

As every details was mentioned out.. i can't help but to feel it all seems like a dream..

This blog was started out becoz of a Friendship i once held so tight

a Friend who i hold close to my heart

a Friend who i could really relate..

a Friend-ship that caused me to fall badly when i lost it.. losing control of my emotions..

No one around me knew what's wrong with me..

How can a gal possibly get more upset over a lost friendship compared to a lost relationship??

Did she really liked him that much??

Noo.. it wasn't..

No one back then could comprehend for the reactions i had..

"it's only a Friendship"


But they fail to recognise that i am not in the face in the crowd.. i tend to Think Differently..

If i had a gal-fren who understand me so well & click with me like nobody business.. take away that friendship in a sudden & u will see me collaspe in the same manner..

As we went to mention about the past.. i had to emphasis that all my reactions.. how this loss hurt me was all because i treasure him as my closest fren..

Yepz, i went on to confess, i did had liking for him back then.. a slight one.. but those attempts to contact him was not for a reciprocal of feelings but i just wanted this frenship so badly to be back..

In conclusion: the answers that i searched frantically with tears, i finally found it at a time when i had forsaken that idea had all been resolved..

So aren't i suppose to be happy??

Apparently not..

no explanation for this..

all i know is that.. what past is past.. we can never be as close as before..

maybe this Buddy that u acknowledge is simply void of emotions.. she's just too hurt on the inside.. countless one sided-feelings before this incident.. after it, i lost another friendship with my best friend.. followed by a broken heart in a too-hurt-to mention failed relationship..

she's really  extremely tired emotionally.. she's just want to do well in her job & studies..achieve her goals & simply being a friend to those she meet.. to make a difference in the life of others.. to help those around.. to use her passion to serve others..

she's just want to give.. she no longer can accept any receiving..

or maybe she's just too afraid of any possible broken trust again..

Updates..

Ain't that feeling well today, so decide to rest at home..

Have really been busy at work since work started 3 months ago.. working hours is never an 8 hours straight (i ain't complaining though).. since first few months is always picking up the experience..

what i am lacking though is my memory, ability to remember tons of things and give an almost immediate reply, when superiors/management poses questions..

I am often placed in the situation where i got to flip through my countless files just to give the reply ..

So when the reply pops out immediate all thanks to my memory bank extracting it out fast... i feel so darn proud of myself.. stroking my Egos.. (Gals do have Ego too k?!) We call that Self-love, Self-indulgement.

Competency..

Another struggle:

The ability to remain awake throughout.. this often occur after lunch..from 2pm to 4pm.. the time where my mind is slowly floating into its LaLa Land..

Like working while sleeping with open eyes... there was this time, my colleagues was having a discussion to my left.. and i was typing on my key-board... drifting away second by second..

After almost ten minutes or so.. i popped random sour stufffsss into my mouth to stop myself from slumping into the keyboard..

Colleague A then walk over and mention about some changes to be taken effective & asked if i heard the Discussion they had discussed..

At which.. i gave her a blank look.. "No.. what were u all saying"

No futher questions was asked where on Earth was i..


About my job/working Enviroment:

Can't remember wherether i blog about this part before but decide to blabber about it anyway:


Majority of the colleagues are from Malaysia.. thus spoken Communication is Chinese

And Appraisal of my confirmation was in Chinese.. i almost fainted when i saw that..

Chinese Chinese Chinese...

Though i ain't no Banana.. but English is my option to communicate with those around me..

& one criteria of looking for Mr Right -> Proficient in English (both written & speech)..

Back to my Colleagues, they are simply a fun lotz.. their definition of fun is often jokes that goes flying around on each other.. Gossips? nahz.. juz corny jokes cracked on each other.

Nonetheless, it's funz to have constant laughterss amid the hetic pace of work..

Constant Seriousness kills me straight on the spot..

a random example:

Was at my cousin's wedding.. sat with family & cousins whom i am not close with.. after attempts to communicate with my aunt about her kids & cousin about her work.. which often end up in Monologues..
As silence embraces the table.. i decide to let my eyes do the wandering but with eyes met them (thinking tt i am looking at them).. i felt every single second passes like an hour.. and almost so random, i let out a loud sigh: "I am Bored!"

Thankfully, the dinner started not long after... with relief from within..


Sharings:

Just obtained the following website from Jing Yi:

http://www.lifeprint.com/asl101/lessons/lesson01.htm

It's all about ASL (American Sign Language). One that i am in the midst of picking..

Yepz, my life is practically is filled up with work & Sign Langs..

Will be meeting up my classmates from CHC sign lang classes to sit at the Hearing Impaired area for service this sunday.. can't waitz. =)

Updates

Though it does feel silly at times to be almost "talking" to myself in my blog entries..

I decide to blog anyway..to treat it as a way to record memories..

Just came back home after hanging out with the Sign. Lang Peers.. Jing Yi, Joel & Sebast...

Today marks the near end of IS2, times always seems to fly.. Next week is our Test..

25 Sentences.. in which the Instructor will sign sentences to us & we will subsequent write it down..

I almost fainted at the No 25, when our Instructor told us about the Test Format on the very 1st lesson.

And to make it worst, if we miss out a particular word like "the" "a".. the words that followed after it will be marked as nil!

Was given a Mock Test today & i am indeed so proud of myself of the progress that i had made..

Cause i intially i was really darn Terrible when it comes to reading & writing the signed Sentences..

2nd part of the Test consists of :

Signing Story with Expressions.. Not Exagerrating Expressions but simply using our Facial movements to express the meaning.. w/o which all of us look like robots signing..

3rd: Signing out Picture Description..

Test is progessively harder & harder..

What's best is that next week i literally have two different signing test..

the 2nd is the Basc SL learnt in church.. as mentioned in my previous entry..

Just as i was blogging.. received a bad news.. a Price that i had to pay for my Proscratination.

A Price that is not only measured in Monetary Terms but in terms of Time wasted as well..

Told myself to be cool about it.. no amount of sadness & regret can change the situation..

Just got to think of another solution right now & to really Learnt from my Mistake..

Wish me all the best.

Thoughts:





If only i had such a dad..

I'm in love with this song.. love the soothing music, pairing up with the singer's voice(alike to that of a comforting dad's voice) and how the Chinese Sign Lang matches so well.. it makes it all perfect to pair it with this drama.

The voice makes all the difference:




Another version that i found.. prefer the former one.. more heartwarming.. more suitable for a family scenario.

My recent hobby is to visit the following website:

http://nanzinc.com/


In it contains Live interviews and good reads..

" What's the Best advice you ever received?"

On viewing it, i pondered for a while on mine...

Which advice had changed my journey in life? stirred up provoking thoughts & made a significant Difference?

There's two particular :

"If you never Try, you never Know"

This was one particular advice that i applied in Decisons-making..

Spoken to me few years back, when i was thinking wherether to use the little savings i had to put on Braces..

It would have seems to be a waste to many.. Many had adviced me to do it only when i start working full time..& i don't look tt un-pretty with my stuck out rabbit teeth (Which form a major part of my poor Low self-esteem back then).

But this was not exactly what i wanted to hear.. i have enough of all the general, popular typical,politically correct answers.. i wanted something different.. something that i can apply in my Own personal life.

And this fren spoke that phrase : If u never try, u never know..

Why does such a simple phrase particularly apply to me? To those who know me, it's because i'm not your face in the crowd.. i am different..

Taking up ACCA, working in Accounts in F&B industry, taking up Sign Lang Courses has all started by applying this advice.

So when others ask for my opinion, in regards to taking up a particular course, changing job... i will use the same words to me.. not because it's Politically correct but simply certain fears are unfounded by worrying about it even before it occurs... like:

"What if i can't handle the job scope?" "Will i get along with my colleagues?" " Do u think taking this course is the right choice?"

Always felt that answers to the above could only be found when you're in it.

Like me asking myself before enrolling in SADF course: "What happen if i can't read what the deaf are communicating to me?" "what happens if i can't sign a complete sentence?

All these never crossed my mind, as i believe when it actually occurs, then i will think of a solution..

Worrying unnecessary makes one Aged faster..

" you're a Systematic person, think you should take up Accountancy"

This came from my then Best Fren who knew i had flunk Maths in O Level..

the Clueless me back then just followed her Advice & took up Accountancy in ITE & the rest leads me to currently pursuing my ACCA Cert.

Both frens have become a past tense (Friend-ed)... but nonetheless, i am Grateful that they accompanied me for that moment & made a Difference in my life.

Updates Column:

Just received a phone call last week which brought a smile to my face, the very reason y i am in SADF..

Starting this Tues, i am in Talking Hands Ministry of CHC!!

Or rather, i am joining in by attending their own conduct Sign Lang courses.. yupz, i am starting all over again by taking Basic Sign lang Courses.. sounds all weirdz & silly when i am already in Intermediate Level in SADF, but ultimately, it does not matter.. as i see it as an Achievement.  a Milestone that i had planned a Year & plus back.

Secondly, in line with this.. received a E-mail from SADF of the Volunteer Orientation on the 14th of Nov!  =D

Thirdly, going to Bali, a Day in Advance, with no extra Charges except a minimum amount of Lodging charges..
It all started by Air Asia  informing my colleague that they had to delay our flight on Fri, from morning till Evening!! Imagine our disgust having our trip shorten  by a day for no apparent reason.

So they had to negotiate for a better deal, and thus concluding the Good News. ^v^

Fourly, time for me to get back my focus to my books starting from tmr.. cutting down my usage of Internet,hanging out with frens & simply going back home straight after work to study.

Had been slacking for 4 months... another more proscratination will be a threat to my Exams result!

So i'm proclaiming to be a _______ again!


________  =

Sharing

From Nanz Inc website reading column:

Found the Top 4 Successful Women in Internet Biz:

1. Gina Bianchini

Co-founder & CEO of Ning ( Based in Palo Alto, Calif., )

This 36-year-old Stanford MBA graduate set up Ning, a popular social platform business with her former classmate Marc Andreesen in 2006 and has become a web celebrity of sorts with her charming networking skills and razor-sharp understanding of marketing on the Internet. She also sees meaning in her work, as seen by what she said during a New York Times interview, “One user told me that he and his wife were starting a site for parents of terminally ill children. Enabling those types of connections reminds me why we do what we do.” There are currently over a million Ning networks worldwide, with its business currently valued at US$750 million.



Arianna Huffington (Co-founder of The Huffington Post)

When millionaire socialite Arianna Huffington, 59, first set up news website The Huffington Post in 2005, it was seen as a showy personal indulgence. Today, according to Nielsen NetRatings, Huffington Post has over 3,000 contributing bloggers, 22 million unique user visits each month and is the most linked-to blog on the Internet. Its business is valued at over US$100 million. Known for being a Wonder Woman, Huffington has said in one of her Post articles, “Fearlessness is like a muscle. I know from my own life that the more I exercise it the more natural it becomes to not let my fears run me.”




Lisa Stone (Co-founder and CEO of BlogHer)


The former journalist, web editor and interactive media producer became interested in the potential of online communities for female empowerment and set up BlogHer, a group blog, in 2005 to connect women bloggers through conferences, a publishing network of 2,500 bloggers and a listing of 20,000 women’s blogs. “The more real relationships we have with each other as women blogging, the more we’ll be inspired and able to share what we know with each other and grow each others’ visibility online,” Lisa said in an online interview. They receive over 14 million unique visitors monthly and investors have pumped in over US$15.million into this business.


Natalie Massenet (Founder of Net-A-Porter)


Nine years ago, Natalie, a 41-year-old Londoner and a former fashion stylist and editor, foresaw that online shopping would play a big role in the fashion retail business in 1999. She painstakingly used her fashion contacts to get luxury labels on board and created a global fashion portal Net-A-Porter that combined editorial content and fancy delivery packaging with e-commerce. She has definitely proved her early detractors wrong with over 400 staff in London and New York, and generated a £55.2 million turnover in sales last year. “I was completely confident. I never thought it wouldn’t work. I never once thought it wouldn’t be huge,” she said in an interview with UK Sunday Times.

Loving Sweet Stuff:


Had checked out a new place for delicious, salivating Ice-cream cafe called:  Udders

it's a pretty small cafe located at Novena, check out the website for its location.

What makes this place different, is it's wide range of varities of Ice-cream..

Upon stepping into it, one can't help but to be drawn towards its green wall( which is actually a big Blackboard).. and chalks are available for customers to select which flavour would they want to see in the menu. I Voted for Mango Chilli!

Sadly, my lousy phone is unable to capture a picture of my order : Waffles with Lychee Martini & Rum Raisin Ice-cream.

It's simply Affordable, 1 scoop is ard $3++ and what makes customers satisfied is that its Liquor are so rich.. that can make a non-alcoholic person turns red.

Was simply In Luv with the Lychee Martini.. it got me asking for more.

A Great place for hangout with Nite-owl Frens as this place closes at 12am on Fri.

=)