It's time for me to update my blog once againz..
Been hooked onto Facebook these past few days.. Got to know of this thru my cousin,sabrina.
http://www.facebook.com/
when i first logged in, i was thinking it's just another friendster or a place where u post your pictures and etc.
But as i surft through and realised it's more then boring.. it's simply the opposite.
So for those who have yet to have a face book account, do join it, it's something you can do when you are bored.
Met up with my sotong family on Sat with the exeception of Shirley who's busy with her FYP and school stuffs..
Intitially Vivien suggested in having steamboat but steamboat for lunch would make our nose bled and by the suggestion of Mei qi we decide to settle down for Kenny Rogers.
Mei qi then show us all the pictures they took over in Japan.. the most beautiful one, i feel are those taken in Disneyland and i screamed in excitement upon the Stores where they took pictures of Pooh and of the Pooh bear adventure ride and their Popcones box have pooh's Honey container.
Sounding like a little Kid over here..
Upon finishing our lunch, we were told to give her and Maggie $0.20 each, not knowing the reason and wanting to end the mystery, we gave.
It was for the purpose of "buying" our gifts.. as we receive a Cartoon Character clocks..
I got a Pooh Bear clock, something that i always wanted and a sealed coin box.. I joked that i wanted to place the clock at office.. and when my Boss return from his Paternity leave, he would be too shock to react to see that i have turn the office into a mini Pooh house..keke.
Vivien received a Pooh alarm clock and as for Shirley..i am saying it out till she received hers from Auntie Mary.
Once again, Auntie Mary pad for the bill when it was supposed to be a treat by also Vivien and me.. We owe her a big treat. given that out of 5 gatherings, she had treated us up to 3-4 times.
Went Grill to work after that.
saving up to join Mei Qi & Maggie to go Japan next year..
On sunday, after church service. Went with cg to have lunch at Changi Airport after which went to have dessert at Swensen,the 6 of us -> all ladies at one table have a great chat for 3 hours and more.
The topic ranges from A to Z in which we chatted about facebook and motherhood the most. Yup, my cg consists of mostly married couples..i got exicted on the mention of facebook and became a listener on the latter topic.
All are yet mothers but planning to be one.. we were discussing about who would be the stern mother and how to disclipline well the kids given that the current society tend to over dote their children till they have lose all manners by being a nuisance in public and to kick and hit their own parents.
I always feel kids that kick up a tantrum in public or being over hyper-active deserves a whacking up.. sometimes i feel tempted to slap kids that run all over and scream at the top of their voice at Grill.
okay.. i sounds violent. but i firmly believe in : spare the rod and u spoilt the child.
Guess i would be a stern mum in the future?
Read up her blog only to realised you both had met up. It's none of my business i know. . it's just that it make me realised what a fool i been. Guess i have been out of your mind since..
i should not have hope to meet you againz coz i know it will never come to pass.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Grr..
There's this chinese saying of people who have nothing better to do on saterday afternoon:Chi Bao Fan,Mei Shi Zhuo.
The reason i am typing all these is due to the following conversation i had a while ago:
Me: Hi good afternoon Lotus Group.
Pest A: Hi good afternoon, is this the office for Amalfi the Pizza Place restaurant.
Me: Yes.
Pest A: I would like to book a reservation at 4pm later. I call the outlet and no one pick up.
Me: The outlet operates from 3pm onwards. How may i assists u?
Pest A: Ok. My 10% voucher(Lotus group voucher) is out of shape,(tt's what i heard at first).
Me: Oh okay. You still can use the voucher as long as the print out have our restaurant Name.
Pest A: No. I mean my printer is down. I can't print out the voucher.
Me: Oh, i am so sorry. In that case, you can come down another day when u have the voucher printed out.
Pest A: No i want to dine today..and i want the discount(he didn't say tt literally but his words meant it)
Me: I understand. But it's our Company Policy to give discount upon the voucher.
Pest A: But i can't print it out. What is your name and your position in the company.
Me: Cindy here. I do not wish to drift away from the topic. Do you have any American Express or Citi Bank Credit Card? With these cards you can have an 15% discount without using the voucher.
Pest A: Oh..(Pauses) But i don't want to use my credit card. I want to pay in Cash. In that case, u all are losing a customer of lunch at $150 and i won't frequent your restaurant.
Me: (in mind:"BigDeal!as if yr $150 is a lot") I am sorry but we have to follow our Company Policy.
Pest A: Let me tell you. If i were your boss, i would tell the outlet manager that there would be a customer by the name of so & so, he can't print out his voucher, can u give him 10% discount?"
Me: Everyone handle things differently.
Pest A: Alright. Let me tell you i am NOT going to your restaurant(he repeats this line more then once throughout the conversation). Thank you Cindyand have a good day, and i would e-mail this to your boss.
He then hang up the phone.
Darnz.. what a irritating person. Don't he have better things to do on a Saterday afternoon?!He don have a date then go and sleep or watch Tv la, what for make a silly call and talk all sort of nounsense and to write an e-mail to complain. The Lamest answer of his is to tell me he don't want the credit card discount of 15% and instead want to pay in cash with the voucher 10% discount. and what is 10% off to his $150 dinner?It's just a deduction of $15?!!
If i were to analyse this out. If he is willing to spend a 3 digit figure on a lunch/dinner, that means he is either the average guy who either struck lottery or got a pay rise. If not, his income would be more then any average person..just with a certain fact that he would carry cash of $150 & above in his wallet.
And if he belongs to the latter, why on earth is he making a big fuss over a $15 deduction?! Being the theory that the rich tends to be more of a Miser?
Secondly, i don believe he is going to dine alone in the first place..eating $150 worth of Pizzas and pastas would make any average Joe vomit?! If he is not dining alone, can't he ask his friend or gf to help print out the voucher instead?! Unless there is SUch a coincidence that his surrounding friends have their printer down too simply because they bought it together at a fair...
If he has the brains to argue it out with me,can't he have any other alternatives?! He doesn't seems to be a dumb fellow given that his english is rather good not broken.
Some people are just so stubborn & ridiculous. If i were to say yes from the start and do what he says a boss would usually do and to truely believe that his printer was spoilt or take pity because he so desperately wants to dine at Amalfi, wouldn't that make me a fool?!
Some people are just so full of themselves that they never put themselves in others shoes. Would he have say Yes if tt Pest was in my shoes?!
Basically under the following situations,would i have agree to a 10% discount without a voucher:
1. He bring his spoilt printer down to Amalfi.
2. He's a nice guy who sounds he's pleading with me for the discount.
3. He decides to write an e-mail to me,taking a picture of his spoilt printer and writing a 10,000 words essay as to why he really need the 10% discount.
4. He cries over the phone when i say No.
5. for once,seriously.. He is a foreigner who just came Singapore, heard about our Restaurant but have no chance to obtain a Printer but saw the discount while he was surfing in his Hotel. In such a case, i would ask him to come down to Amafi and pass him our 10% discount card to him personally.
Alrightz.. got to get back to work once againz and awaits as to see what's going to happen on Monday and instead of being afriad that boss would scold me off i am rather eager to see the e-mail he writes and how ridiculous would that e-mail be.
A good laugh on a Monday morning would be good to get rid of the Bluey Monday... keke.
There's this chinese saying of people who have nothing better to do on saterday afternoon:Chi Bao Fan,Mei Shi Zhuo.
The reason i am typing all these is due to the following conversation i had a while ago:
Me: Hi good afternoon Lotus Group.
Pest A: Hi good afternoon, is this the office for Amalfi the Pizza Place restaurant.
Me: Yes.
Pest A: I would like to book a reservation at 4pm later. I call the outlet and no one pick up.
Me: The outlet operates from 3pm onwards. How may i assists u?
Pest A: Ok. My 10% voucher(Lotus group voucher) is out of shape,(tt's what i heard at first).
Me: Oh okay. You still can use the voucher as long as the print out have our restaurant Name.
Pest A: No. I mean my printer is down. I can't print out the voucher.
Me: Oh, i am so sorry. In that case, you can come down another day when u have the voucher printed out.
Pest A: No i want to dine today..and i want the discount(he didn't say tt literally but his words meant it)
Me: I understand. But it's our Company Policy to give discount upon the voucher.
Pest A: But i can't print it out. What is your name and your position in the company.
Me: Cindy here. I do not wish to drift away from the topic. Do you have any American Express or Citi Bank Credit Card? With these cards you can have an 15% discount without using the voucher.
Pest A: Oh..(Pauses) But i don't want to use my credit card. I want to pay in Cash. In that case, u all are losing a customer of lunch at $150 and i won't frequent your restaurant.
Me: (in mind:"BigDeal!as if yr $150 is a lot") I am sorry but we have to follow our Company Policy.
Pest A: Let me tell you. If i were your boss, i would tell the outlet manager that there would be a customer by the name of so & so, he can't print out his voucher, can u give him 10% discount?"
Me: Everyone handle things differently.
Pest A: Alright. Let me tell you i am NOT going to your restaurant(he repeats this line more then once throughout the conversation). Thank you Cindyand have a good day, and i would e-mail this to your boss.
He then hang up the phone.
Darnz.. what a irritating person. Don't he have better things to do on a Saterday afternoon?!He don have a date then go and sleep or watch Tv la, what for make a silly call and talk all sort of nounsense and to write an e-mail to complain. The Lamest answer of his is to tell me he don't want the credit card discount of 15% and instead want to pay in cash with the voucher 10% discount. and what is 10% off to his $150 dinner?It's just a deduction of $15?!!
If i were to analyse this out. If he is willing to spend a 3 digit figure on a lunch/dinner, that means he is either the average guy who either struck lottery or got a pay rise. If not, his income would be more then any average person..just with a certain fact that he would carry cash of $150 & above in his wallet.
And if he belongs to the latter, why on earth is he making a big fuss over a $15 deduction?! Being the theory that the rich tends to be more of a Miser?
Secondly, i don believe he is going to dine alone in the first place..eating $150 worth of Pizzas and pastas would make any average Joe vomit?! If he is not dining alone, can't he ask his friend or gf to help print out the voucher instead?! Unless there is SUch a coincidence that his surrounding friends have their printer down too simply because they bought it together at a fair...
If he has the brains to argue it out with me,can't he have any other alternatives?! He doesn't seems to be a dumb fellow given that his english is rather good not broken.
Some people are just so stubborn & ridiculous. If i were to say yes from the start and do what he says a boss would usually do and to truely believe that his printer was spoilt or take pity because he so desperately wants to dine at Amalfi, wouldn't that make me a fool?!
Some people are just so full of themselves that they never put themselves in others shoes. Would he have say Yes if tt Pest was in my shoes?!
Basically under the following situations,would i have agree to a 10% discount without a voucher:
1. He bring his spoilt printer down to Amalfi.
2. He's a nice guy who sounds he's pleading with me for the discount.
3. He decides to write an e-mail to me,taking a picture of his spoilt printer and writing a 10,000 words essay as to why he really need the 10% discount.
4. He cries over the phone when i say No.
5. for once,seriously.. He is a foreigner who just came Singapore, heard about our Restaurant but have no chance to obtain a Printer but saw the discount while he was surfing in his Hotel. In such a case, i would ask him to come down to Amafi and pass him our 10% discount card to him personally.
Alrightz.. got to get back to work once againz and awaits as to see what's going to happen on Monday and instead of being afriad that boss would scold me off i am rather eager to see the e-mail he writes and how ridiculous would that e-mail be.
A good laugh on a Monday morning would be good to get rid of the Bluey Monday... keke.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
In office right now..suppose to be working right now but then due to boss not in office on weekends and it's weekend! and plus i simply have no mood neither a slight intention of using my brain and thus decide to blog insteadz.. keke.
Just got confirmed and Praise God that upon confirmation there's an increase in my salary.. neverthless, will still continue to work in Grill.
Hmm.. work has become sort of a routine, my designation still doesn't fit my work load which is rather frustrating.
Have been asking the accountant to teach me to use the accounting software but to no avail..her time are precious and thus no time to waste to teach me.. =(
Guess this should have happened since she is a freelance accountant and she just come in as and when to finish her own work and afterwhich moves on to other companies.
Could only hope and wish my persistence to learn will make her give in soonz.
Yesterday was a rather sian day..
In the Employment contract, one of the benefits state that lunch will be provided however problems seems to arise due to it.
A certain manager of the outlet had complained that the office people are having a full set meal-
consists of Salad to Main meal to desert.It was only Colleague A have salad for lunch and me having Spagetti and our desert which is one scoop of ice-cream which we have once in long while.
To tt Manager, such a lunch is increasing cost for the company..
Which is simply a misconception.
what a retarded comment and decision..how much can he save just by cooking one less spaghetti per day!! and plus he himself is spending on unnecessary stuffs.
sighz.. to make it worse.
We were asked to have our lunch at another outlet which is Asian cusines.. The first few days were alright until i learnt from one of the chef that the main chef had asked him not to cook anything from the Menu for us, we just have to eat whatever they cook. sighz.. Not as if we would have request for any lobster or crabz..Grr..
It was really frustrating..
Sighz.. humans are self-centred. They only care about their ownself and do anything to make the boss like them and basically make decisions without thinking of others.
Phewz...
End of complain..
Any more complaining will make me old and angry for no reason and can't change anything.
Meanwhile, just gonna have my lunch back at the first outlet having their staff meal.
Gonna get back to work and i have no worries to post this out since no names were mentioned and plus my offical working hour is 4 hours.. 2pm to 6pm..
Which employee doesn't want to feel appreciated.
Just got confirmed and Praise God that upon confirmation there's an increase in my salary.. neverthless, will still continue to work in Grill.
Hmm.. work has become sort of a routine, my designation still doesn't fit my work load which is rather frustrating.
Have been asking the accountant to teach me to use the accounting software but to no avail..her time are precious and thus no time to waste to teach me.. =(
Guess this should have happened since she is a freelance accountant and she just come in as and when to finish her own work and afterwhich moves on to other companies.
Could only hope and wish my persistence to learn will make her give in soonz.
Yesterday was a rather sian day..
In the Employment contract, one of the benefits state that lunch will be provided however problems seems to arise due to it.
A certain manager of the outlet had complained that the office people are having a full set meal-
consists of Salad to Main meal to desert.It was only Colleague A have salad for lunch and me having Spagetti and our desert which is one scoop of ice-cream which we have once in long while.
To tt Manager, such a lunch is increasing cost for the company..
Which is simply a misconception.
what a retarded comment and decision..how much can he save just by cooking one less spaghetti per day!! and plus he himself is spending on unnecessary stuffs.
sighz.. to make it worse.
We were asked to have our lunch at another outlet which is Asian cusines.. The first few days were alright until i learnt from one of the chef that the main chef had asked him not to cook anything from the Menu for us, we just have to eat whatever they cook. sighz.. Not as if we would have request for any lobster or crabz..Grr..
It was really frustrating..
Sighz.. humans are self-centred. They only care about their ownself and do anything to make the boss like them and basically make decisions without thinking of others.
Phewz...
End of complain..
Any more complaining will make me old and angry for no reason and can't change anything.
Meanwhile, just gonna have my lunch back at the first outlet having their staff meal.
Gonna get back to work and i have no worries to post this out since no names were mentioned and plus my offical working hour is 4 hours.. 2pm to 6pm..
Which employee doesn't want to feel appreciated.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Inspiring Man of God
I just got to blog about this amazing and more then anything else, a person who is so strong and great determination and really live life to the fullest.
To my cg members who are reading this, the reason i was so quiet at lunch is because i was basically self-reflecting and thinking back of today's message.
The Preacher that preach today is Nick Vujicic, a man born without limbs. When the video was shown of his young time and how he live his life.. i was moved to tears. In the video, despite his disabilities, he swims, do fishing, play golf and ride horses.
When he appeared on stage just now, i was amazed. Here is a man who appeared on stage with the brightest smile..
He is simply so independent and unlike many others getting so upset by our limitation and weakness.. he can even make jokes out of his disabilities.
He went on to share on about his life story.. how he faced harsh critism and people making fun of him..he had went to a mainstream school to study, one can imagine the stares he faces studying with all the normal students.
Like any ordinary humans, he was once depressed and had a constant struggle of questioning God..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DxlJWJ_WfA
I cried watching the first video.. i have to repeat that he is really independent and strong.. he doesn't believe his disabilities short change him of being able to do things that normal people do.
Now Try putting yourself in his shoes...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4LtCrlXdd2E
the second video narrates of how his parents reacted when he was born & the questions he asked..
he indeed is a inspiring man..
To my cg members who are reading this, the reason i was so quiet at lunch is because i was basically self-reflecting and thinking back of today's message.
The Preacher that preach today is Nick Vujicic, a man born without limbs. When the video was shown of his young time and how he live his life.. i was moved to tears. In the video, despite his disabilities, he swims, do fishing, play golf and ride horses.
When he appeared on stage just now, i was amazed. Here is a man who appeared on stage with the brightest smile..
He is simply so independent and unlike many others getting so upset by our limitation and weakness.. he can even make jokes out of his disabilities.
He went on to share on about his life story.. how he faced harsh critism and people making fun of him..he had went to a mainstream school to study, one can imagine the stares he faces studying with all the normal students.
Like any ordinary humans, he was once depressed and had a constant struggle of questioning God..
I once too..had many questions to ask God..
y was i born in this family?
y can't he create me pretty?
y am i still single?
y do i have to go thru so many bad times and circumstances?
does anyone know & understand what i feel and been thru?
and many many more..
There was even this thought to end my life straight away before..
When he say he understand all these depressing thoughts and questions we ask ourselves. i am convinced he does.
After seeing him, seriously i have no more questions to ask God..
But here are some questions that have an answer:
Can anyone stand strong despite falling down countless times?
Can anyone still smile and constantly thank God for all things even when everything goes wrong?
Can anyone be confident when he feel that he is the odd one out in the crowd?
Can anyone live life to the fullest when u feel so limited?
Can anyone love his or her life and herself if she can't change her bad circumstances?
Can anyone be a motivation to the people?
Before i meet him, i guess my answer is maybe..
but after meeting him.. the answer is a definite Yes!
Cause Nick has been there, done that..
He is my hero.. he thank God that with his disabilities he is a living miracle to give hope to others that life is worth living no matter what happen.
His Testimony shows to christian that God is real and has the best Plans for us.
I am convicted of my never ending complain about my disstisfaction of my life.. instead of complaining of what i don't have.
I learnt i got to be thankful to what i have right now.
the next time i get upset about myself, he is my inspiration to be strong again.
Pictures speaks louder then words.. i have posted some videos about this inspiring man.
One really got to live Life to the fullest..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DxlJWJ_WfA
I cried watching the first video.. i have to repeat that he is really independent and strong.. he doesn't believe his disabilities short change him of being able to do things that normal people do.
Now Try putting yourself in his shoes...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4LtCrlXdd2E
the second video narrates of how his parents reacted when he was born & the questions he asked..
he indeed is a inspiring man..
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Just came back from service and now waiting to start work at Grill.
Today's message was preached by Joyce Mayer, a great anointed woman of God.
"Receiving the Love of God & letting it flow into other people's life."
The next few phrases she mentioned struck me and got me reflecting..
" We need to have a good relationship with ourself, we got to have good value in ourself."
Many atimes, i have a tendency to get grumpy and upset about my own flaws, always feel that i am not good enough, always envy and wish i was someone else..hoping i could be as pretty, smart and rich like them.
I was never satisfied about myself and all these sums up to having a bad relationship with myself.
She went on to share about her past, how she wish she had a sweeter voice,a normal life like any married woman...but she since overcame it and became a preacher, having her own minstry and helping people all around the world.
Indeed everyone is created differently, if everyone on the street look like one another, how boring would this world would be.
Until i know i don't have to impress anybody only then i know i have total confident to say i have totally learn to love myself.
Going to make it a goal to love myself more each day..accepting the way i am created for i am unique in my own way!
Jia You Cindy!!
Today's message was preached by Joyce Mayer, a great anointed woman of God.
"Receiving the Love of God & letting it flow into other people's life."
The next few phrases she mentioned struck me and got me reflecting..
" We need to have a good relationship with ourself, we got to have good value in ourself."
Many atimes, i have a tendency to get grumpy and upset about my own flaws, always feel that i am not good enough, always envy and wish i was someone else..hoping i could be as pretty, smart and rich like them.
I was never satisfied about myself and all these sums up to having a bad relationship with myself.
She went on to share about her past, how she wish she had a sweeter voice,a normal life like any married woman...but she since overcame it and became a preacher, having her own minstry and helping people all around the world.
Indeed everyone is created differently, if everyone on the street look like one another, how boring would this world would be.
Until i know i don't have to impress anybody only then i know i have total confident to say i have totally learn to love myself.
Going to make it a goal to love myself more each day..accepting the way i am created for i am unique in my own way!
Jia You Cindy!!
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
For the first time, i am at office so early in the morning.
Once again, i had Insomnia..
Thus no matter how long i lay down on my bed, i just can't fall asleep, therefore i don't want to waste any more time and decide to come to work insteadz.
Reason for Insomnia??
Well..i was sad, kinda emo-ing...
Recently was kinda on closer terms with this friend of mine, knew him years back but only manage to catch up and talk more this two months.
He's quite not bad looking and quite a gentleman..and plus on chatting with him, his personality does resembled the 'him'.
It's been almost a year plus since i have feelings for someone.. wanted to test myself wherether was i numb emotionally and thus somehow decide to try liking him.
oh well..this sounds rather lame... at times, i don't even understand myself..
Or rather i shall put it this way, i missed those times i had with 'him', those never ending conversations, those days of closeness as a friend.. those times we have at work.. somehow i am a one-to-one kind, i like to be close to guys, not close to one whole group but an individual.
So in a way,ever since 'he' and me drift apart in the friendship, i had missed totally such moments, thus upon knowing this guy, makes me want to rekindle those feelings againz.
I sounds rather silly...
But somehow history always repeat itself, i am confirmed too that this guy doesn't appreciate my feelings.
So once again, oh well..
*Silly Me*
No matter how i try to look my best, i am still this woman that is not liked by or chased by any guys...it kinda sucks, really..
Anway..once again, to those who are reading this post..pls don't worry..if u know me well, i be alright in a while time.
Every woman, from a teenager to an adult, good looking or average or below average, smart,not so smart, rich,poor..all these categories woman does want to be loved.
Afterall, it feels good to be loved, valued & of importance to someone.
But society has outcasted the average & below, to have no priveliage to have feelings for the opposite sex.
Not true? Ask guys who are being liked by girls who belong to such category..the childish guys would chose to avoid these womans, the much mature one would keep them as friends. But one common would be, they would be laughing on the inside of being liked by such.
Outsiders? They would be thinking: "Pls lar, you this kind of looks, u think he will like you meh, why on earth are u getting so upset by someone who doesn't even like you."
Conclusion: Only the pretty and outstanding get attached and loved or the average but well-liked personality are chosen.
The rest? Get a Life and move on...
However, i don believe in conforming to the thoughts of society..
I still believe and I am not going to dwell in low self-esteem, for i hold on to the hope of meeting a guy who doesn't go for looks, someone whom i love and loved me back and the guy fulfills the criteria of my ideal guy. To meet the someone who is meant to walk alongside with me for the rest of my life.
I do not want to be shortchanged of what life has for me..
This blog is like a sea in front of me, where i shout out all my troubles and sadness..
As for now, my bad habit is to meanwhile numb myself with work..to be busy and nothing but busy..but there' nothing for me to be busy with either..
Will only be studying next year, can't join the silent ministry yet and as for work, office work doesn't have much workload and in Grill, all i do is cashiering & riverbank..giving me more time to be alone and dwell more.
Emotions are like rollercoaster..
Nevertheless, as for this moment, i got to get back to work and keeping my brain to think properly despite not sleeping the whole of last night.
Sitcom have Jia You Jing Shun..my life story title should be changed likewise to Jia You Cindy!!
I trust in HIM. For it is where i have the Strength and JOY to carry on in life no matter how life goes..
Rejoice in the Lord always & again i say Rejoice.
Once again, i had Insomnia..
Thus no matter how long i lay down on my bed, i just can't fall asleep, therefore i don't want to waste any more time and decide to come to work insteadz.
Reason for Insomnia??
Well..i was sad, kinda emo-ing...
Recently was kinda on closer terms with this friend of mine, knew him years back but only manage to catch up and talk more this two months.
He's quite not bad looking and quite a gentleman..and plus on chatting with him, his personality does resembled the 'him'.
It's been almost a year plus since i have feelings for someone.. wanted to test myself wherether was i numb emotionally and thus somehow decide to try liking him.
oh well..this sounds rather lame... at times, i don't even understand myself..
Or rather i shall put it this way, i missed those times i had with 'him', those never ending conversations, those days of closeness as a friend.. those times we have at work.. somehow i am a one-to-one kind, i like to be close to guys, not close to one whole group but an individual.
So in a way,ever since 'he' and me drift apart in the friendship, i had missed totally such moments, thus upon knowing this guy, makes me want to rekindle those feelings againz.
I sounds rather silly...
But somehow history always repeat itself, i am confirmed too that this guy doesn't appreciate my feelings.
So once again, oh well..
*Silly Me*
No matter how i try to look my best, i am still this woman that is not liked by or chased by any guys...it kinda sucks, really..
Anway..once again, to those who are reading this post..pls don't worry..if u know me well, i be alright in a while time.
Every woman, from a teenager to an adult, good looking or average or below average, smart,not so smart, rich,poor..all these categories woman does want to be loved.
Afterall, it feels good to be loved, valued & of importance to someone.
But society has outcasted the average & below, to have no priveliage to have feelings for the opposite sex.
Not true? Ask guys who are being liked by girls who belong to such category..the childish guys would chose to avoid these womans, the much mature one would keep them as friends. But one common would be, they would be laughing on the inside of being liked by such.
Outsiders? They would be thinking: "Pls lar, you this kind of looks, u think he will like you meh, why on earth are u getting so upset by someone who doesn't even like you."
Conclusion: Only the pretty and outstanding get attached and loved or the average but well-liked personality are chosen.
The rest? Get a Life and move on...
However, i don believe in conforming to the thoughts of society..
I still believe and I am not going to dwell in low self-esteem, for i hold on to the hope of meeting a guy who doesn't go for looks, someone whom i love and loved me back and the guy fulfills the criteria of my ideal guy. To meet the someone who is meant to walk alongside with me for the rest of my life.
I do not want to be shortchanged of what life has for me..
This blog is like a sea in front of me, where i shout out all my troubles and sadness..
As for now, my bad habit is to meanwhile numb myself with work..to be busy and nothing but busy..but there' nothing for me to be busy with either..
Will only be studying next year, can't join the silent ministry yet and as for work, office work doesn't have much workload and in Grill, all i do is cashiering & riverbank..giving me more time to be alone and dwell more.
Emotions are like rollercoaster..
Nevertheless, as for this moment, i got to get back to work and keeping my brain to think properly despite not sleeping the whole of last night.
Sitcom have Jia You Jing Shun..my life story title should be changed likewise to Jia You Cindy!!
I trust in HIM. For it is where i have the Strength and JOY to carry on in life no matter how life goes..
Rejoice in the Lord always & again i say Rejoice.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
I am bad at starting something... everytime i plan to blog,, i would be staring at the blank box in front of me for 5 minutes and more..simply becoz i would be thinking how shall i start in my post today..
Back in secondary school days, everytime my English Teacher ask us to write a composition, i would be fiddling the pen and stare for almost 10 minutes at the blank peice of paper and start to stone until there's ideas start to form in my mind, even then i would be continously using correction fluid..and by the time i wrote finish a paragraph, 30 minutes would have passed..i got to confess my written English basically sucks. I still remember in Sec 4,i was told to stop repeating the same verb for every paragraph..and thus resulting in my "O" level getting a D7.
Hmmm... i shall not bored myself with such an entry. I shall begin with something more interesting.
19th July, Vivien's Birthday..Both she and me were late in meeting Shirley at Buona Vista..the meeting time was suppose to be 6.45pm but we reach there almost an hour late.
we had XO Bee Hoon for Dinner, a recommendation by Sweetie. The last time i was there with my ex cg members was when i still had a digit 1 to my age..anyway after the dinner, we went to Eski Bar at holland Village to hang out and have a drink.
It was the Birthday girl treat, the choclate Martini that i had wasn't nice, yupz, choclate & Martini individually is nice, but a combination of both basically is well.. all i can say is i only drank 6 sip plus and i stopped drinking, Lao er had to finish it for me..
We went to the 0Degree room to drink after a while, the Pink sweater that the waitress gave was pretty looking and we took photos together.. i was basically freezing there at the same time and becoz of me, both of them accompanied back outside to the sitting area. After a while, Sweetie went back home, leaving both Lao er and me..and she treat me again to Singapore Sling..so Nice of her.. but she had to finish 1/2 of it again,hahaha..basically i cant' hold my drinking level well unlike last time, i was telling her, now u gave me a bottle of Hooch i would get drunk.. Wonder since when i became so lousy at drinking..does Age affects?? I wonder..
we went home at 1130pm..
I shall hold Sweetie's promise to hang out with us longer on my Birthday if we celebrate it on a weekend..
Last Sat,22nd, was my Cousin's Sabrina Wedding. I woke up as early as 5am and travel down to another of my cousin, Jasmine's house to travel down together.
On reaching the Bride's house(*my 1st paragraph came to pass, i had type Bride as Bribe), the rest of the Jie Meis haven't reach yet except for Joyce..
Yeahz, my cousin basically look stunning, no trace of tiredness(she slept at 1am the prev night) but every trace of happiness..so happy for her..really..grew up with her, and saw how she and her husband together & so onz..
The rest of the sisters cane after a while, Ling Siang(my leader) came with all the sabo ideas..there was basically 4 stages:
Firstly, The bridegroom had to write down the answers to questions about his wife.. every wrong answer amounts to a sum.
Secondly, he have to go down to the grasspatch at her house downstairs and to said out his promises to her after marriage, the first few was stated by my cousin, he had to come out with another 2..and oh my..these 2 were so sweet..on hearing it,though i wasn't watching her expression, i believe she was smiling from ears to ears..While saying all these out, the bridegroom entourage had to, at the background formed the word: "i Love You".. it was a funny sight.
Back in secondary school days, everytime my English Teacher ask us to write a composition, i would be fiddling the pen and stare for almost 10 minutes at the blank peice of paper and start to stone until there's ideas start to form in my mind, even then i would be continously using correction fluid..and by the time i wrote finish a paragraph, 30 minutes would have passed..i got to confess my written English basically sucks. I still remember in Sec 4,i was told to stop repeating the same verb for every paragraph..and thus resulting in my "O" level getting a D7.
Hmmm... i shall not bored myself with such an entry. I shall begin with something more interesting.
19th July, Vivien's Birthday..Both she and me were late in meeting Shirley at Buona Vista..the meeting time was suppose to be 6.45pm but we reach there almost an hour late.
we had XO Bee Hoon for Dinner, a recommendation by Sweetie. The last time i was there with my ex cg members was when i still had a digit 1 to my age..anyway after the dinner, we went to Eski Bar at holland Village to hang out and have a drink.
It was the Birthday girl treat, the choclate Martini that i had wasn't nice, yupz, choclate & Martini individually is nice, but a combination of both basically is well.. all i can say is i only drank 6 sip plus and i stopped drinking, Lao er had to finish it for me..
We went to the 0Degree room to drink after a while, the Pink sweater that the waitress gave was pretty looking and we took photos together.. i was basically freezing there at the same time and becoz of me, both of them accompanied back outside to the sitting area. After a while, Sweetie went back home, leaving both Lao er and me..and she treat me again to Singapore Sling..so Nice of her.. but she had to finish 1/2 of it again,hahaha..basically i cant' hold my drinking level well unlike last time, i was telling her, now u gave me a bottle of Hooch i would get drunk.. Wonder since when i became so lousy at drinking..does Age affects?? I wonder..
we went home at 1130pm..
I shall hold Sweetie's promise to hang out with us longer on my Birthday if we celebrate it on a weekend..
Last Sat,22nd, was my Cousin's Sabrina Wedding. I woke up as early as 5am and travel down to another of my cousin, Jasmine's house to travel down together.
On reaching the Bride's house(*my 1st paragraph came to pass, i had type Bride as Bribe), the rest of the Jie Meis haven't reach yet except for Joyce..
Yeahz, my cousin basically look stunning, no trace of tiredness(she slept at 1am the prev night) but every trace of happiness..so happy for her..really..grew up with her, and saw how she and her husband together & so onz..
The rest of the sisters cane after a while, Ling Siang(my leader) came with all the sabo ideas..there was basically 4 stages:
Firstly, The bridegroom had to write down the answers to questions about his wife.. every wrong answer amounts to a sum.
Secondly, he have to go down to the grasspatch at her house downstairs and to said out his promises to her after marriage, the first few was stated by my cousin, he had to come out with another 2..and oh my..these 2 were so sweet..on hearing it,though i wasn't watching her expression, i believe she was smiling from ears to ears..While saying all these out, the bridegroom entourage had to, at the background formed the word: "i Love You".. it was a funny sight.
Went to the art Museum where her Matrimony is held and went there to usher in the crowd and oh boy, it's been centuries since i last do ushering and i even stammer.. guess i became public shy..At Night was the wedding dinner where i helped to do reception. Initially, i was suppose to do ushering but as Louisa saw i saw was too comfortable in sitting at the reception counter that she asked me to do insteadz. It was quite an interesting experience, for the past ten years or so, i had been attending countless weddings and always feel that the ladies sitting in 1 straight row and collecting Ang Pow is basically is just sitting there and be Pretty.
In a Summary, had a fulfilling and attended one of the best wedding so far, the Bride,my cousin is stunning beautiful, groom is good-looking & great character, everything went on smoothly, food was delicious.the Montage to the MC at the wedding was done professionally by my cg member & church member.. and it was fun, where the Groom was being sabo at stage and our cg had a great time Yum-Senging.
Had a different overview of Weddings ever since Sat, a day of Marriage is make up of months to a year of Preparation..Neverthless, it's every Woman dream to have it come to pass.
When would my turn come....
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Haven been blogging for almost a month.The frequent desire to log into blogger have wear off after 1 year plus of weekly updates..and plus no one read it either, it's more of a place for me to type out my frustration and thoughts..
Right now in office..not a working day in office but as i am suppose to go Grill work later, i decide to come straight t0 office and slack after church service.
On the way here, pass by a old man leaning on the corner near the bus-stop and his hand was grabbing his chest and an middle age woman was holding him and a young boy was beside. Initially i had thought they were a family but i overheard the boy saying he Need Help on his phone & was looking at me while saying that. As i walk pass by them, it was then i realised that the man probably had a heart attack and the boy was calling for an ambulance.
As i cross the road, i can't help but feeling guilty of not turning back to help when i walk pass the boy on his phone, he sounds rather helpless.. I wanted so much to turn back but thinking that he already have the yonug boy& woman to take care of him, i will only be of no help but yet, is such a thought a selfish one?
Sighz..i could hope for the best for the man and may he recover soonz..
Went Central to shop for dress for my cousin wedding this coming Sat..there lots of varities to chose from and found a dress that i like and wanted to look for more choices before buying it and alas such a decision can be rather costly. As i went up another level, saw a dress that caught my sight and i got persuaded by the salesgirl that the dress is on last day of sales and the only piece left amd thus i bought it. But as the first dress that i treis was too tepmting not to own it, i went back and bought it.
Such situations are the reason why i haven't been shopping for a while..at one side, i am taking up two jobs to save up for my studies but at the other side, the sight of clothes make me spend them away.
These past few weeks have been constant working at Office & Grill..Busy & tiring, have been getting a hold of the duties at office though still have lots to catch up.
It won't be long that i would blog less & less as i am limited to what i can express in my blog, i can't freely express myself without having the risk of another reading it & expose it.
Right now in office..not a working day in office but as i am suppose to go Grill work later, i decide to come straight t0 office and slack after church service.
On the way here, pass by a old man leaning on the corner near the bus-stop and his hand was grabbing his chest and an middle age woman was holding him and a young boy was beside. Initially i had thought they were a family but i overheard the boy saying he Need Help on his phone & was looking at me while saying that. As i walk pass by them, it was then i realised that the man probably had a heart attack and the boy was calling for an ambulance.
As i cross the road, i can't help but feeling guilty of not turning back to help when i walk pass the boy on his phone, he sounds rather helpless.. I wanted so much to turn back but thinking that he already have the yonug boy& woman to take care of him, i will only be of no help but yet, is such a thought a selfish one?
Sighz..i could hope for the best for the man and may he recover soonz..
Went Central to shop for dress for my cousin wedding this coming Sat..there lots of varities to chose from and found a dress that i like and wanted to look for more choices before buying it and alas such a decision can be rather costly. As i went up another level, saw a dress that caught my sight and i got persuaded by the salesgirl that the dress is on last day of sales and the only piece left amd thus i bought it. But as the first dress that i treis was too tepmting not to own it, i went back and bought it.
Such situations are the reason why i haven't been shopping for a while..at one side, i am taking up two jobs to save up for my studies but at the other side, the sight of clothes make me spend them away.
These past few weeks have been constant working at Office & Grill..Busy & tiring, have been getting a hold of the duties at office though still have lots to catch up.
It won't be long that i would blog less & less as i am limited to what i can express in my blog, i can't freely express myself without having the risk of another reading it & expose it.
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