Sighz..
This whole week at work was basically.. busy busy busy..stress & more stress.
Didn't have a single minute to close my eyes for rest. As i have to take over my colleague who's quitting next month. I just got to learn everything that she do within this month..if not, i won't be able to survive in handling all her pass over duties. It's tons of stuff to learn... the normally slack easily sleeply me in such a short period have to absorb and do so much..
Got inspired by what my lecturer at FTC mentioned, during the first 3-5 years of working life is all about Know How. Learning as much as you can at work.
Next 5 years would be about Know Who. Learning to build connections with people in other professions.
That shall be in line with my goals.
Went to dyed my hair on fri, requested for 2 colours, on top is brown and hair end to be dyed purple but the end result my purple could only be seen under sunlight not a obvious though.
Basically i'm getting lethargic in updating my blog so thus a lot of other stuff tt i do is summarised.
Friday, January 19, 2007
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Wei Lian's performance at Yellow Ribbon Concert_part 2
This song is specially dedicated to my bro cum good friend, Royston. Thanks.. u prove me in what i had mentioned in my prev entry. I thank God for a friend like u. ^-^c
Friday, January 12, 2007
sometimes i feel tired in standing strong. It's hard to smile everyday..
In this world, who can i trust?
Are friendship make so to manipulate each other in times of need.
This is a fast pace country, everyone has their own activities to handle, who can just stop for a moment and truely care for another?
I want someone who truely and sincerely cares for me..but i see none.
Everyone is just too busy and neither can i do that.
Can i stop being a listener just for a day, and have someone to listen to me instead hearing it sincerely?
My blurness is messing up work.
My personality causes me lots of problems.
is it me or is it the situations that is making me feel the way i am right now.
I am not feeling depressed but that's the cruel fact of life that is happening around me.
I be alright after a while, i just need a place to vent my frustrations..
In this world, who can i trust?
Are friendship make so to manipulate each other in times of need.
This is a fast pace country, everyone has their own activities to handle, who can just stop for a moment and truely care for another?
I want someone who truely and sincerely cares for me..but i see none.
Everyone is just too busy and neither can i do that.
Can i stop being a listener just for a day, and have someone to listen to me instead hearing it sincerely?
My blurness is messing up work.
My personality causes me lots of problems.
is it me or is it the situations that is making me feel the way i am right now.
I am not feeling depressed but that's the cruel fact of life that is happening around me.
I be alright after a while, i just need a place to vent my frustrations..
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Took the following quizs
| You Are An ISTP |
| The MechanicYou are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete. |
| Your EQ is 120 |
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| You Are a Social Blogger! |
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| You Are 55% Left Brained, 45% Right Brained |
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A new Blogskin..
Went out with my fellow ex cg members frm E305 yesterday...whlie walking to Orchard TCC to meet them, it occur to me that it has been 1 yr plus since i last met up with most of them.
Emotions are a mystery,when tt person matters to u, not meeting up for half a year is a torture,everyday seems to pass like a year..it differs from a friend whom u haven catch up for a year...it seems tt time has pass so fast..and yr friend hasn't change drastically..it seems like yesterday tt u all last met up.
Initially, just sat there quietly and watch them chatted & crap.. they were so lame.. esp Jian rong, hasn't change much..only his hair was much shorter due to army..he's just as good as suaning people and making them speechless. Back then, i always like to find trouble..keep saying him, and i won't give up talking back even when i was at the losing end..
Everyone elses seems to be the same...the only change is that Jingwei has a gf..so interesting..she's quite pretty too.
Plus her, we were the 2 ladies around in the midst of 8 other guys..Imelda couldn't be there as she have a headache and have to go home.. missed the opportunity to catch up with her againz.
Played a game..in which a person would start a topic and everyone have to say a word that link to the topic..and the rule of the game is that the word cannot start with the letters, P,M,S,C. It's really hard as most of the words that we have the back of our mind contain all these alphabets. I am quite bad at that, mind would be blank or i would be struggling not to make a mistake.. Wenkai, Benedict & Alex were the funny ones, they keep getting tricked and the whole cafe was filled with our laughters.
Wenkai then suggested to watch a movie but sadly as the movies that were being screened were either not nice or some of them have already watched it..thus we decide to walk to Park lane to play Pool..i sat there and watched them play..being the only female left.. it has been a century since i last touch pool and thus decide not to throw by own face by playing with them as they are quite a good player.
After which we decided to walk back to PS Mac to have our supper.. we chatted till 3 plus am and took N7 home.
It was really fun..i enjoyed hanging out with guys..it's a different feeling from gossiping, & shopping with my same species. Back then, in E305 i was closer to the guys then the gals... enjoyed crapping, being lame and laugh with them.
Wenkai deserve a big thanks for organising such a fun outing...everyone seems to enjoy themselves..we decide to have another outing soonz..
This Coming Monday, i would be converted to a full time Account Assistant. On thursday, while walking pass the manager room,she called me in and told me that there's a vancany as one of them is quitting this coming feb..though happy that i could be a full time but kinda feel sad there's she's leaving after working for 5 years. Hope i can pick up what she's teaching me to take over her task fast.
Went for my first lesson for ACCA on thursday too.
It's all about being busy once againz..
Gonna enjoy and slack at home meanwhile right now.
Emotions are a mystery,when tt person matters to u, not meeting up for half a year is a torture,everyday seems to pass like a year..it differs from a friend whom u haven catch up for a year...it seems tt time has pass so fast..and yr friend hasn't change drastically..it seems like yesterday tt u all last met up.
Initially, just sat there quietly and watch them chatted & crap.. they were so lame.. esp Jian rong, hasn't change much..only his hair was much shorter due to army..he's just as good as suaning people and making them speechless. Back then, i always like to find trouble..keep saying him, and i won't give up talking back even when i was at the losing end..
Everyone elses seems to be the same...the only change is that Jingwei has a gf..so interesting..she's quite pretty too.
Plus her, we were the 2 ladies around in the midst of 8 other guys..Imelda couldn't be there as she have a headache and have to go home.. missed the opportunity to catch up with her againz.
Played a game..in which a person would start a topic and everyone have to say a word that link to the topic..and the rule of the game is that the word cannot start with the letters, P,M,S,C. It's really hard as most of the words that we have the back of our mind contain all these alphabets. I am quite bad at that, mind would be blank or i would be struggling not to make a mistake.. Wenkai, Benedict & Alex were the funny ones, they keep getting tricked and the whole cafe was filled with our laughters.
Wenkai then suggested to watch a movie but sadly as the movies that were being screened were either not nice or some of them have already watched it..thus we decide to walk to Park lane to play Pool..i sat there and watched them play..being the only female left.. it has been a century since i last touch pool and thus decide not to throw by own face by playing with them as they are quite a good player.
After which we decided to walk back to PS Mac to have our supper.. we chatted till 3 plus am and took N7 home.
It was really fun..i enjoyed hanging out with guys..it's a different feeling from gossiping, & shopping with my same species. Back then, in E305 i was closer to the guys then the gals... enjoyed crapping, being lame and laugh with them.
Wenkai deserve a big thanks for organising such a fun outing...everyone seems to enjoy themselves..we decide to have another outing soonz..
This Coming Monday, i would be converted to a full time Account Assistant. On thursday, while walking pass the manager room,she called me in and told me that there's a vancany as one of them is quitting this coming feb..though happy that i could be a full time but kinda feel sad there's she's leaving after working for 5 years. Hope i can pick up what she's teaching me to take over her task fast.
Went for my first lesson for ACCA on thursday too.
It's all about being busy once againz..
Gonna enjoy and slack at home meanwhile right now.
Monday, January 01, 2007
A New Year, a New Beginning
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS!
Another Year has passed, looking back, 2006 was a tough year. Went through heartaches, losing a close friendship, going through tough times during attachment & stuggles & decision to go back church.
In Jan, the voice of death was so visual on that certain day while i was revising for my exams, back then not only was i stress by my studies but family problems & not having anything suceessful in my life. I seems to be a failure in life, everything seems to be working wrong, i still remember i sat there feeling very lost, what ran through my mind was ways to end my life.
I just had to do something and thus i contacted my close friends and out of them all, my good friend aka my bro Royston was there..he listened patiently on the phone and we met up.. at the end of the day, i sorted out my thoughts and i was back to myself.
It was scary..i would not be here typing if i had heeded the voice of death back then.
In Feb, after my exams..i went back to Grill to work, and only then have i managed to finally let go of my feelings for a colleague at there,J. On that very night, did i learnt that he's attached but i wasn't upset at all, this convinced me totally that i am back to my feet. Had been like a fool for the past 6 mths secrectly having deep feelings for him & cried & stuggled to forget him many a times within that 6 months. I'm glad, though it was tough, i had become wiser in terms of relationships.. i would not act like a fool having a one sided love for anyone ever again. I begin to love myself even more.
In March, my friendship with the buddy i know at work since last Oct grew closer..though i had decided to shut down myself from emotional wounds temporary...but as humans are born with emotions.. before i could stop myself, i had developed feelings for him..he's just too nice.
Bad Mistake.. till now, i still regret liking him..if i didn't..would i have lost the friendship still?
In April, buddy went to army..didn't manage to send him off & missed his first day book in call.
In Mid April, i realised our friendship had changed drastically..he seems to change 180 degree over night. I couldn't accept the truth, i couldn't exchange the change....
During that first 2 weeks..i was very very sad...cried & sob non-stop.. never in mind i have ever thought i would lose this buddyship-someone i trusted & care, a person who shared similar ideas..
Up till now, i rather chose to deceive myself that one day we can go back to the past, as close as we were..just good friends, just good buddy is all that i ask for.
From April till Sep, i didn't have a good time in attachment in the audit Company.
Not only was in super bad luck, no matter how much effort i put in, my other attachment friends were much luckier..they often went to client place..not having favour of men, was often make to stay in office, doing admin stuff. Having to constanly ask around each person for tasks to do..even it means throwing rubbish & shredding paper.
Was under a mean senior auditor for a whole month,she make me work till 9pm without being able to claim OT,nothing that i do is correct,she fusses over a little mistake i make and would make me stayed till 8 plus.. till i clear it up...it was obvious to her that i simply detest the sight of her. Apparently, in attachment, my social skills, EQ dropped to a percentage of 10% and below.
Would often luch with auditors having no conversation exchanged. I will always remember the day, during the 2nd last wk of attachment, i wanted so much to go to client place and when i learnt that i wld be going to one the following week with another of the attachment friend,i was looking so forward to it, i wanted to learn as much before attachment ends but on the morning of the actual which i was anticipating, i was told only one of us could go,and it was my friend. I being the one who had stayed in office for 2 weeks & she having out in client place for the prev 2 weeks could go. I could have accepted it calmly if i was much less cleverer then my friend and if i had learnt lesser stuff then her..but it wasn't. I just didn't have the favour of men..it wasn't in my luck. I applied to have half day off on that day..cried badly on the way out, feeling dejected..i sorted out my thoughts while standing alone in front of Esplanade..i can't be defeated so easily.. i can't!
Even at the end of attachment, i wanted to so much stayed in the company despite what i went through, as i told myself i can learn a lot in audit line but there was simply no vancancy.
That period really mould me up..i had been through the so called worst moment, if i can go through it without quitting..so no matter how bad things can turn out in the near future, i can over come it.
In Sep, faces another defeat. I was told that i would end my waitress job a day earlier.. my last day was supposedly to be on a sun but on the friday night due to being too chatty & kinda having fun instead of working..it was no fatal mistakes but as due to certain reasons i was told to go..though it seems it was just ending my work two days before but to me, it was equivalent to being sacked. The place i love working the most had to turn out in such a way..
Got an account assistant job in End of Sep, though it was just a temporary job.. but it's a new learning experience..and i went back to church.. Towards the end of the year, things begin to change for the better..
Thank God for that.
After watching the firework last night, i stood near the window, facing the the road..i wished and hope that 2007 would be a much better year.
My Resolutions for this Year:
a) To secure a full time job in my current Company.
b) Alternatively, find a full time account assistant line in a known Company.
c) Pass with good grades for my level 2.1 and 2.2 June ACCA papers.
d)Pass with good grades for my level 2.3 & 2.4 Dec ACCA papers.
e)Go on a holiday with my friends this Coming Dec and to spend Christmas there.
f)To enroll into CC into Aerobics & having 1 lesson per week.
g) To do able to do volunteer work twice a month.
h) Be less Slack & more Discliplined.
i)Not To constanlty proscartinate.
j)to spend time with friends.
k)to let go of my feelings.
May 2007 turn for the Better and i Thank God for the greater days aheadz..
Another Year has passed, looking back, 2006 was a tough year. Went through heartaches, losing a close friendship, going through tough times during attachment & stuggles & decision to go back church.
In Jan, the voice of death was so visual on that certain day while i was revising for my exams, back then not only was i stress by my studies but family problems & not having anything suceessful in my life. I seems to be a failure in life, everything seems to be working wrong, i still remember i sat there feeling very lost, what ran through my mind was ways to end my life.
I just had to do something and thus i contacted my close friends and out of them all, my good friend aka my bro Royston was there..he listened patiently on the phone and we met up.. at the end of the day, i sorted out my thoughts and i was back to myself.
It was scary..i would not be here typing if i had heeded the voice of death back then.
In Feb, after my exams..i went back to Grill to work, and only then have i managed to finally let go of my feelings for a colleague at there,J. On that very night, did i learnt that he's attached but i wasn't upset at all, this convinced me totally that i am back to my feet. Had been like a fool for the past 6 mths secrectly having deep feelings for him & cried & stuggled to forget him many a times within that 6 months. I'm glad, though it was tough, i had become wiser in terms of relationships.. i would not act like a fool having a one sided love for anyone ever again. I begin to love myself even more.
In March, my friendship with the buddy i know at work since last Oct grew closer..though i had decided to shut down myself from emotional wounds temporary...but as humans are born with emotions.. before i could stop myself, i had developed feelings for him..he's just too nice.
Bad Mistake.. till now, i still regret liking him..if i didn't..would i have lost the friendship still?
In April, buddy went to army..didn't manage to send him off & missed his first day book in call.
In Mid April, i realised our friendship had changed drastically..he seems to change 180 degree over night. I couldn't accept the truth, i couldn't exchange the change....
During that first 2 weeks..i was very very sad...cried & sob non-stop.. never in mind i have ever thought i would lose this buddyship-someone i trusted & care, a person who shared similar ideas..
Up till now, i rather chose to deceive myself that one day we can go back to the past, as close as we were..just good friends, just good buddy is all that i ask for.
From April till Sep, i didn't have a good time in attachment in the audit Company.
Not only was in super bad luck, no matter how much effort i put in, my other attachment friends were much luckier..they often went to client place..not having favour of men, was often make to stay in office, doing admin stuff. Having to constanly ask around each person for tasks to do..even it means throwing rubbish & shredding paper.
Was under a mean senior auditor for a whole month,she make me work till 9pm without being able to claim OT,nothing that i do is correct,she fusses over a little mistake i make and would make me stayed till 8 plus.. till i clear it up...it was obvious to her that i simply detest the sight of her. Apparently, in attachment, my social skills, EQ dropped to a percentage of 10% and below.
Would often luch with auditors having no conversation exchanged. I will always remember the day, during the 2nd last wk of attachment, i wanted so much to go to client place and when i learnt that i wld be going to one the following week with another of the attachment friend,i was looking so forward to it, i wanted to learn as much before attachment ends but on the morning of the actual which i was anticipating, i was told only one of us could go,and it was my friend. I being the one who had stayed in office for 2 weeks & she having out in client place for the prev 2 weeks could go. I could have accepted it calmly if i was much less cleverer then my friend and if i had learnt lesser stuff then her..but it wasn't. I just didn't have the favour of men..it wasn't in my luck. I applied to have half day off on that day..cried badly on the way out, feeling dejected..i sorted out my thoughts while standing alone in front of Esplanade..i can't be defeated so easily.. i can't!
Even at the end of attachment, i wanted to so much stayed in the company despite what i went through, as i told myself i can learn a lot in audit line but there was simply no vancancy.
That period really mould me up..i had been through the so called worst moment, if i can go through it without quitting..so no matter how bad things can turn out in the near future, i can over come it.
In Sep, faces another defeat. I was told that i would end my waitress job a day earlier.. my last day was supposedly to be on a sun but on the friday night due to being too chatty & kinda having fun instead of working..it was no fatal mistakes but as due to certain reasons i was told to go..though it seems it was just ending my work two days before but to me, it was equivalent to being sacked. The place i love working the most had to turn out in such a way..
Got an account assistant job in End of Sep, though it was just a temporary job.. but it's a new learning experience..and i went back to church.. Towards the end of the year, things begin to change for the better..
Thank God for that.
After watching the firework last night, i stood near the window, facing the the road..i wished and hope that 2007 would be a much better year.
My Resolutions for this Year:
a) To secure a full time job in my current Company.
b) Alternatively, find a full time account assistant line in a known Company.
c) Pass with good grades for my level 2.1 and 2.2 June ACCA papers.
d)Pass with good grades for my level 2.3 & 2.4 Dec ACCA papers.
e)Go on a holiday with my friends this Coming Dec and to spend Christmas there.
f)To enroll into CC into Aerobics & having 1 lesson per week.
g) To do able to do volunteer work twice a month.
h) Be less Slack & more Discliplined.
i)Not To constanlty proscartinate.
j)to spend time with friends.
k)to let go of my feelings.
May 2007 turn for the Better and i Thank God for the greater days aheadz..
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