Christmas At work

Today at work, everyone seems to be in a holiday mood..all seems so happy..

Not long after work starts, one of the accountant, Jean went around asking everyone wherether they want a tank top..it's free of charge, due to sports organisation purpose, there were plenty of spare tops left.. i took the pink, the pattern is nice and the material is good..it has a brand too but i can't remember what brand it is now but it's a sports brand..not those typical free and lousy material kind.. so lucky for us.

After asking around, Jean then gave each of us a Disney Characters biscuit round tin each..got milk butter & strawberry..i took the milk butter.. it's so gonna be my snack item during work..

After which we gather round the christmas tree and it's time to exchange our gift item..
I received a pair of ear-rings.. not bad quite nice though i must say it's not the pattern that i would go for.. Luckily no one at work have my MSN or Friendster..if not i am so gonna be smack.. and plus the giver never reveal who he or she was..Mysterious person...

Lunch time we went as a whole group, 15 of us to have our lunch at Soup Restaurant..

But as i was frantically searching the whole United square for an Atm machine..they went ahead and sat down first.. and to my sadness.. i sat at the table with most of the aunties..sigh..

The other group in which i usually have lunch with was sitting at the next table..while they were happily taking pictures..i was damn sian..felt so left out..damn..if i had not search for the stupid $@#! Atm, my lunch would have been enjoyable.. throughout the whole period, i pull a long face, sat there quietly and eat.. when it's was photo taking session for our table, it was basically impossible to smile..and i forcefully smile for the picture.

I was basically back to my real self.. and while walking back, i acted machiam like a da xiao jie, with a totally sian face walk at my own pace back to the office when the aunties were walking in front of me.. and one of them keep turning around to make sure i will not lose sight of them..

They never say a thing while waiting for the traffic light..one just comment that it's because i'm wearing high heels so causing me to walk slow. As the nice auntie walk beside me and started talking, i decide to get away with my mood swings and chatted with her while walking back..

Around 4pm plus..there was another gathering...this time round was eating log cake,choclates,chips and grape wine..those that have no alcoholic percentage.


A happening day indeed..and guess this partly happen as the manager was on urgent leave..
Neverthless, it was a fun day, really enjoyed myself and Thank God, i'm beginning to like my job more and more..

After work, went down to suntec to shop for the sotong exchange gift and stood inside the shop staring at the potential present for 15 mins and more asking for the shop assistant opinion.. as basically, i was kinda tired and my mind was basically blank as i stare at the stuff wondering to get it or not.

Suntec was filled with people despite the fact that today a weekday..

After tomorrow, i am so gonna have fun and enjoy Christmas..

Christmas is such a Joyous Celebration and i hate it when people change Christ-mas into X-mas..

It's Friday!

Sleeping at 12 plus last night causes me to stone & kept falling asleep at work this morning..opps..but my defination of sleep = sit in front of computer, left hand, on chin, right hand on mouse & close eyes for a minute or two and whenever i feel that i am just gonna fall into deep sleep, i would just stood up to make coffee or just walk to the toilet.

Was basically doing audit schedules the whole of today & one of the accountant drove us to suntec to eat..but as the car could contain a maximum of 5, the rest have to eat elsewhere, making it end up that we neglected a guy of the group, hope he's not angry with us for making him eat alone..feel so bad.

On returning we resume back to work and the office was basically silent..
Lunch time makes me more sleepy.. and as i was about to step into my stoneing mood.. there was laughter from behind.. the colleagues were discussing about what to get for the christmas exchange next wed as the accountant who drove us down make a christmas list and everyone were to write down, what we want to receive.. they were lame..mentioning about giving a whole bag of toilet papers & etc..

Thus i decide to write my down too.. Wrote that i hope to receive accessories or shopping vouchers..
While some others state they hope to receive bedsheet, towels, swatch watch and thermoil flask and the list goes on..
so basically no one was in the working mood..

Sigh.. the name i draw to give present, is my manager.. It's the hardest...what do i give to someone who can afford anything she wants or have lack of nothing..
So my mind was in a blank of what to give.. so gonna go shopping this weekend to find ideas..

Wonder what would i receive...

Another weekday

Everyday i would have thoughts that ran through my mind and so wanted to blog each of the details down at night but always end up not doing it..i'm just simply too lazy to type.

Thank God, things are on the improvement side right now at work.. There's this glimpse of light for my wish to have my life turn for the better.

Since last week onwards, i am no longer having my lunch in the pantry eating alone, though i was fine with it and have become comfortable with it.
right now, we would be lunching in a group of 6 to 9 staffs, being with the manager, 5 accountants, 3 account assistants...this big a group causes inconvenience in finding a place to sit..these 3 days, have been going down to the new kopitiam at extended Novena Square, the food there was quite great and despite the crowd, all of us juz luv going down there to have lunch.


Lunching with them = cutting down my anti-sociasm=talking more= symptoms of fakeness?
Hopefully not.


On the surface, it feels good to lunch with the important people in the department..but it means having to make an effort to get along well with everyone...which i kinda feel lethargic at times but well i shall =x, & stop my complaining but to appreciate as things are now..

Initially when my accountant ask me to join them, i was quite reluctant.. as i was really used to eating alone..but i was thinking in this working society, getting well with my colleagues is a essential point, being anti-social is not going to improve anything..

As much as i wish to make friends over there, but the possibility is low... a protective layer of "do-not-hurt-me" armour is on me every single day during the week and i believe it's on most people out there too.

The definantion of 'Office politics' can be define even by students at the age of 12 to 13..experiencing it is another story by itself.

It's obvious that 1 in the group simply can't stand the sight of me & at times i would really want to avoid making conversation afterall i end up talking to the air or simply get an unobvious irritated reply..but we are no longer kids.. we can't show the "i don't-like-u/ i-don't-want-to-talk to u" look.

It doesn't bother me much though afterall at the back of my mind, i simply know no human can please anybody or everybody.

At the end of the work, while walking near to the exit, saw 2 department temp staffs, one's a teenage boy waiting for "N" level result & another gal..
the teenage boy is popular among in the department & basically is friendly & gets along well with anyone.

So basically walk with the both of them to the Mrt station and along the way we were laughing all the way as that boy was such a joker..

I mention them because i could feel i was totally myself all the way, that protective layer of me was basically put away and it's a totally different feeling.. it's the feeling of being with my group of sotong family & with the 3 lotus gals feeling.

It's just simply pure happiness.. it feels good in not having to process what i want to say to the other party in my brain before saying it.
Normally, with my colleagues, i would think for a minute before saying it out..in case, i end up talking to empty air or show a weak side of me, which most working adult won't do..

The older one grows, the more complicated the person is...& the simplicity of niceness & "just being myself" simply fades in most working adults..

To society, most of the 9 to 5 people that one see every weekday mornings is intepretated as boring and no life.

Which i simply detest.

I won't be so childish/naive/plain dumb/self-deception to deny that i too have stepped into the adult category for 4 years since.

Most teenagers, not all though,only to those whom i know are more simple and fun and they are the i am who i am feeling..no mask..no fakeness.

Which explains i just feel so relax with them.. and feel so happy..

Life is serious enough so i would go in the opposite side of it whenever possible...no matter how old i gets.


Tears whelm up in my eyes when i saw sweetie particular entry mentioning:"once buddy always buddy"it's a familiar feeling...even as i am typing it..tears re-form once again.
It's a deep feeling, how i wish with all my heart i could say such statement to him again.

(p/s: "sweetie, if u're reading this, don't feel bad or etc, i be okay..female are emotional beings)

Imperfect World of problems

Sigh.. everyone around me seems to be plagued by problems recently.. I understand such times are tough on them.

Problem are never singular.. they always come in pairs or more.. for me especially...
Thank God, there's a glimpse of light in my life right now..things are turning for the better & by God's grace, may my Life continue to turn for the better.

All i can do for them is to lend a listening ears & just meet up to chill out.

Cause i believe they know what to do at the end of the day.. i believe in each of them.

Dark cloudy days makes one feel grey but remember after it, the sun still shines.

The price of Sotongness

Spend 3 days during lunch time and after work to settle my membership of ACCA, went to make a bank draft for the payment during lunch on wed and yesterday after work,i went down to settle everything once and for all for my registration of ACCA so that i can don need to worry about it.

On reaching FTC office, i was sian when i saw the quene was quite long, so i just stood down there and stone, saw my poly classmates & chatted with her for a while. For the first time after knowing her for 2 1/2 years.. i really chatted with her for more then 5 minutes. Previously, i would know her as being ITE batch of students & greet her with a smile.. we seldom exchange words.. all thanks to my anti-social-see mood-see person Personality.

Quene and waited for more then 20 minutes and when it was finally my turn, the person handling the admin, told me that the description on the cheque wasn't complete..so therefore cannot submit. ''-_-. I was like.. what the hell... how come i didn't realise the error when i had checked the cheque at the bank. Inside of me was frustrated with my ownself: "Damn it(x20 times), me this big sotong in action again.." keeps repeating inside my mind all the way while the person was settling my form.. i don't want to come to the office, quene up and wait again the next day.. so i ask the person wherether could i don't quene tmr and just submit the form.. she said yes and i manage to calm down a bit.

On reaching the bank today, the person had to refund me back the bank draft amount.. she then told me due to a exchange rate difference.. the amount she refund would be $12 plus less then the original amount i paid on Wed itself. so i was alright.. i am fine with it.
But as i have to re-make a new bank draft with the exact spelling this time round on the cheque..i have to pay $xxx which is the amount i paid on wed simply because the selling rate and buying rate is different. To simply put it, i have to fork out an additional $12 plus again for the new bank draft.

The above event concludes the price of being blur costs me an additional $20 plus!! which i could have avoided if the spelling was correct.

Blurness runs in my blood..

Failure in Cooking

Sigh..

Went to the library yesterday to borrow some cookery book to pick up cooking & decide to cook up a dish or two from the book.

Thus, after reaching home from church today, flipped through the book and saw 2 dishes which looks less complicated and told my mum to accompany me to buy the ingredients necessary for it.

Spend around 45 mins in the super market as there were much ingredients needed.. for the first time, i really search through the whole supermarket departments by departments.. and spend quite a sum of money..

On reaching back home, i started to prepare by following the instructions on the book.. this is my 2nd time in attempting to cook.. the very 1st time, was centuries ago, i was 17 to 18 plus..that time, i also borrowed book to learn cooking.. tt time my mum was the one doing most of it, i just told her what ingredients to purchase and i only manage to touch the wok a while then she took over.. since then, i was just simply too lazy to step into the kitchen again.

My very first dish for today was Thai marinated chicken stir fried in chilli oil..it simply looks delicious in the cook book.

Spended 1 hour plus to marinate the chicken pieces & keep it in the fridge to marinate for an hour.

Then i move on to make some deep fried Wontons.. the Wontons were much simpler.. settled it with an hour..

I was quite satisfied when both dishes were done..as this is the very first attempt of my cooking without any help from my mum.. so i was excited when i took it to the dining table and awaited for my mum & dad to eat it...

But..

The dumplings were edible & taste not bad when i put it into my mouth but it was damn hard..maybe due to my braces or so..thus didn't really like it a lot.

Next was the chicken dish, in appearance & smell wise, it looks appealing but when i place it into my mouth........i was damn disappointed. It tasted bitter & awlful..

My mum told me that i had over put certain ingredients thus resulting in such taste..which i did, i had added 1 to 2 more tablespoon of ingredients to what was written on the book cause i felt it wasn't enough.

I'm such a Smart Alec..

Sigh.. there was a lot left.. it would be such a wastage to dump it away and thus i force myself to eat some.. and my mum was really nice, she ate some too..but being a fussy eater myself, i really couldn't tolerate the taste..it is just so awlful..

The Taste of failure is bad..esp after i have put in so much effort.

Up till now..i feeling damn sad.. felt that i wasted money & time.. though i know this is my first time and failures are unavoidable..afterall, i shld be numb to failure..i had failed in much other stuff before but have succeeded after refusing to admit defeat.

but the failure feeling is set deep into my heart.. i am just so sian.. guess i wld recover only tomorrow morning..

Took some photos of the food:-Initially while cooking, i thought i would be happily blogging abt my success by posting pictures of the food but now it's just a reminder to myself to improve the next time round.

My wrapping of Wontons.. my 1st attempt.

It look out of shape though..

The alien looking wontons(on side of plate) were created when i got bored of making it the ordinary way and thus decided to do something different.. My mum helped in making too..if not i would take ages to finish wrapping.

Deep frying in process..

Every woman hates this part.. we are just afraid of getting burnt by the oil.

That's my main reason for not cooking tiill now.

But i manage to overcome it by telling myself that i can do it. if not, i can never be able to cook.

Tadah.. here comes my deep fried wontons.. though it doesn't appealing. but at least it is edible.. if i have failed in such a basic stuff..i would have swore to myself that i will never take up cooking ever again.

My Supposedly Thai marinated Chilli oil chicken dish.

IT looks disgusting on pictue alreadiz.. so anyone can understand how it taste inside the mouth.

The chilli was an attempt to make it look presentable..

Sigh..wasted 2 packets of chicken.. my mum told me she won't throw it way..she will edit it by re-cooking it with other sauces for dinner tomorrow.

Nevertless, i am not going to raise my white flag so fast.

I shall try & try in brushing up my cooking skills till it's perfected.. and also taking lesser time to cook.. If i were to take 3 hours to prepare 2 dish.. next time, if i were to ever get married.. my husband wld faint from hunger just by waiting for me to cook finish.

I predict the next time i touch the cookery book would be 1 month from now..

Meanwhile.. maybe i should consider buying the Idiot's/Dummy Guide to Cooking book.

slight Improvement..

Went out with Royston on Wed after work..someone i regard as my good bro.. i asked him to go chill out 2 weeks before, cause at that moment i was really bothered by a lot of stuff & thus wanted to find someone close to hang out & talk.

We went to a cafe at Dhobhy Ghaut.. didn't order any full meal.. decided to just order 1 coffee each & some snacks as we chat.. then when the waiter came & took order..he asked me do i want the Choclate fondel or salad.. when i heard 'salad' i look at him with wide open eyes..
Haiz.. knew this bro for quite a few years.. still don know i don eat veggie.. i told him i was so disappointed, well.. his reason was that he's quite a Bo chup kind.. don usually remember his friends birthday.. i forgive him..hiakz..

Begin to chat & update about one another life.. though we hang out for around few hours plus..it was really fruitful, it just feel good to hang out with a friend who just understand & cares.. Told him i'm gonna be his supporter in purchasing his Christmas card which he edited & be the first few customers to purchase the T-shirt of the online business when he starts it.

"Keep SmiLing, KeeP ShiniNg, KnowInG U caN AlwAYs CounT oN Me FoR sURe, tHaT'S whAT FrIeNDs Are FOr."

Met up with my cousin sabrina yesterday to go shopping at Chinatown..yep..A place which normal teens to 20s plus would not consider there a shopping area.. and plus my impression of Chinatown is a place for Ah Gongs & Ah mahs.. or simply a place to go during Chinese New Year for goodies shopping..

Thus my cousin prove me wrong by bringing me go People's Park Market level 3..and i was surprised..

Within it was little stalls similar to far east and bugis village.. but what different is that certain shop does sell auntie type of clothes & the price range is different...

Following my cousin who is a frequent shopper of there brought me to other trendy stalls.. there is one which i particulary like.. and in one shot i bought 2 tops & a belt.. and like bugis village, one can bargain over the price & the boss there is very friendly, it does makes one luv to shop there. Gonna go shop there from now onwards.. since the price is affordable & the clothes are nice.. would definently recommend my friends to go there to shop too..

I'm glad that things are getting slightly better at work.. On wed, the accountant whom i assist.. asked me to join her & the others to go for lunch.. Initially, i was reluctant..simply becoz i was kinda feeling comfortable in eating alone & really like to avoid making myself to make conversation with pple whom i don't know well.. But i decide to join them, afterall, in work life, being anti social doesn't help & it would be a handicap for me.

Afterall, it's having lunch with my Manager and Accountants..


Simply wish & pray that My LiFe will Turn for the Better...





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