A Clarification:  pls do not self-assume that i like u 

Thoughts:

 my expressiveness of words are best type out and not spoken out.


Inadequate? Nahz,  i would rather term that i am not a Eloquent person but there are my other strong points that u really got to know me well real well enough to find it out.



Call it Mysterious maybe.. LoLz..


Nahz.. maybe i used to feel that way but not anymore..


Quiet? Nahz..


I just don't like to talk..



In apparent, being talkative & loud can really spoilts one image..  applicable on myself that is..


Listening is apparently harder than talking.. and i'm glad i am gifted in the area of being a good listener..


How would this world turn out to be if everyone can't wait for their chance to talk..


Who would be there to lift up the lowly & lend a shoulder to those in tears?


How do one Understand without listening to another patiently??


Take a step back in the midst of your hectic life & look around for those who are hurt & in need..with your extended hands, u have made a difference in the life of others and that's where u find Happiness..


Since young, i went on the journey of searching for Happiness..


Someone once told me:


~ Happiness is when u are attached & found the one you love..


I can never accept any verbal truth till i have my own experiences..


and so i fall in love.. & out of love..


I didn't find Happiness..


They say:


- 'Happiness lies when u're smart & successful"


Though i'm still in the midst of this achievement, a taste of smartness was found in clearing 90% of my ACCA fundamental papers without retaking any. Thank God for that.


I was happy for an hour or so... the tinkling feelings then begin to diminish.


A taste of success was found when i was in charge of the Finance, HR & admin of my previous workplace.. it didn't last long & high expectations soon lead to greater disappointment.



Through observation, it was said that:


"Happiness lies in having lots of fun by engaging in external activies(i.e. clubbing)."



In clubbing, only when the alcohol kicks in and when the music goes spinning, the "Highness-state of altered consciousness) makes me laugh & go crazy, letting loose of the stress.. but in apparent such emotions send to the brain is not Happiness"



"Simplicity is Bliss" oftens ends with a . but mine ends off with "but Complicated is me"



Enjoys observing as i treb on every step along the way searching for my Happiness.. seen friends and colleagues smiling upon discussion of their recent holiday trip..


Surely..


"Happiness is when u go for a holiday"


Despite the circumstance, my stubborness got the worst of me and i followed my heart to join my colleagues for a Holiday trip"



Rather then anything else.. holidays are really good to recuperate after a constant stressful environment.. it lets u run into a temporary world of Escapsim


Trip ends = Happiness ends?



I look at the world map, i searched through the web, keyed into GPS... but none could direct me to Happiness.

This words appears to be an Intangible Assets in everybody's life, it can't be touched, it can't be bought but yet we can't survive without it, it seems almost equivalent to Oxygen.

Have you seen a face in the crowd who seems to walk around aimlessly, eyes seems to lose all hope & their lips are either straight or frowning.. where has their smile gone to?

In my pursuit, as i seek to view my life from a different perspective, did i realised that Happiness was always there in my life, i had been too blinded by my own limited mindset.

It was only then & then.. when friends came over & mention about how my life is an inspiration to them & when the smile of another warms my heart.. my heart gave a wide grin, it was all satisfied.

"Happiness is when the life of another is change for the better because u made a Difference in their Life"


As i pursuit in this journey of  Less of me, More of Others route.. i know that i know i am walking in the right Direction..


Someone's elses smile willl be my reflection in the Mirror , when they smile, i will too.