Good News:

Was contacted by the Talking Hand (Deaf) Ministry member on thurs, it was a surprise indeed as i had received the phone call while i was preoccupied with work & after the conversation, i felt so happy within. and

" Thanks pal, so much for the help, i know i been thanking u since day 1..keke..but still i wanna say, Thanks so much" - u knw who u r..

Never thought my blog could be a help in this area...

Yupz, been mentioning in my blog since early last year that i had a desire to want to serve in this ministry and had enrolled in the sign language courses in the S;pore Association for the Deaf.. and with this:

2nd Good News:

I pass my Basic Level 1 Sign Language course!! Was like so nervous before the Test and my class was the highest amoong the others and a personal joke within the test was : "Hold-ed" & this word affect one of my classmates, frm scoring full marks.

MOving on to basic level 2 which commences on the last week of March.. In the Ministry side, i got to attend the sign langugage courses, & as i had aleady paid for the one in SAFD & bu sher de my classmates in which all of us will be in the samr class. it cld mean, having 2 diff sign language course in a week & woohoo i love it.. this means i can further strengthen my knowledge in sign Language!!


Gonna meet up my classmates later in another 13 hours time,Eve had arranged the gathering at her house where we would be interacting with each other with sign & finger spell thru games.. shall elaborate more in my next post..


Met up with 2 of my "Sotongs" last sun n went to watch:





Conclusion: i will giva it a 4 star out of 10.. the movie involves politics issues, too much Gross scenes n R18 sex scenes.. n basically the characters are far from X-men & it's rather draggy to be a 3hr movie..


A further sunday ago went to watch "Pink Pather" with my Sign Lang Classmates & personal rating: 2 stars.. it's lame to the core..

My all time favourite movie so far is still : Lord of the Rings 1 - 3


Back to the outing, Met up with the 2 couples, one of whom is newly attached.. n am really happy for her as her bf gives an overall impression of a decent guy. "Lao er, must cherish him well, good guys r hard to come by"

Analogy:
"Guys are like car park lots, the good ones have all been taken, the empty ones are all handicapped.."

I don't mean physical handicappeds but it means guys tt seriously fall short of criterias of a bf..

Again back to the outing: It was a great time catching up with the two gals & subsequently we went to selegie to have our not-s0-nice & cold chicken rice which we subsequenly was covered up by having the well-known my fav: Soya Beancurd & not to miss You Tiao!

Today:

Had a fruitful chat with my cousin, Sabrina after service.. which makes me seriously ponder & evaluate myself..

Sometimes i wish i can just type out my full exact thoughts over here.. to let out my frustration here, a listening ear, a person who can truly hear me out w/o judging, one who doesn't interupt, n nt giving me advice, i just need someone who can listen to me out, listen with understanding..

i don't wish to be stuck in the past.. the past me is dead.. n i don't want it to be a shadow tt sticks n had never left..

Finally a temp break for me to spend time slacking awhile to update on my blog..

The past two weeks was pure craziness.. was so occupied at work & had spend the last 3 days working for more than 12 hrs & rushing back to work after my evening lessons.. so it was pure Busy Busy Busy.. been like sleeping on average 4 to 5 hours a day..

a self-sadist it seems as instead of typing it out in a complain mode i am writing it with pride coz i seriously love the busy & hectic schedule of mine.. it's so fulfilling except that my weak health is affecting this flow & being unable to wake up at the time i wanted in the morning @ 6am can be rather frustrating.. i can be so dead asleep that my phone alarm & with two other alarm clock by my side can't wake me upz..


As picture speaks louder then words, this summaries my current life:




Trying to balance my work & nor allowing it to affect my time for my Church svc, ACCA lessons & sign language lessons and the curriculum of these main commitments, like cwll group meetings, revising at home for my studies & practising my sign language..

As it is, i got to assure those around me that i am coping well so far & i know what i am doing.. i am not a fernatic, extreme workaholic but someone who works Hardz & Play Hardz!



Last sun had a test on sign language, as this test determines going up the 2nd basic level of SEE & had been stress with the fact that i had no time to practice for it & last sun morning, specifically woke up @ 6am to practice and phew, it was easy, the instructor had signed slowly which allow everyone in the class to pass.. went out with a few classmates after the test, went down to Plaza Sing for dinner, watch movie, Pink Pather which was pratically a lame movie and hanged out at TCC, which our sign language instructor subsequently join us:



With one of my classmate,Eve.. the lively gal in our class..



With the Sign Instructor, Alfred..

Hanging out with them was funz & we communicate with each other by signing as it helps us to improve & out of classroom learning..

Love this group and can't wait to meet them up for lessons tmr afterwhich it's hanging out time & hopefully a class photo as it's our last lesson together.. the 2nd level only commences towards the end of March, though the opportunity cost of hanging out is my studies but it's all abt balance is a word i remind myself..

Went out after work yesterday with my colleagues to celebrate my fren, in which i call him little boi's Birthday.. went to No5 to drink but as they closes at 3am, leaving us half an hour to drink.. n so we proceed to drink but tt half an hour was a "memorable" night for me.. the Sabo apparently instead of the Birthday Boi had turned to me.. making me wonder what i had done @ work to them tt result in an embrassing nite all because of a word: "He's so cute"... -_- and goodness, they practically went crazy, (read: Lunatic..) with that word when all i did was to make a comment on a 18 yr old boy waiter who basically can be my younger brother n my "cute" was a description of what one said to a newborn baby of a friend..
a memorable nite forever indeedz..
Arghz..

This word shall forever remain a Taboo whenever i hang out with them..

And the joke continues even as we move on to Balcony to have our drinking session againz till 6am this morning..


Gonna get back to my books & practising for my sign language..

Somtimes, i can just be a very simple person..

nothing pleases me more than hearing good news of my close friends..

Congrats Bro & Briony!!

Received a msg from my bro today that he has proposed to his gf on Valentine's eve..so sweet isn't it. Am like soo happy for them.. shall await the arrival of their "red Bomb" soonz..

Facebook is a good place to also get updates of your frens, even frens that we lose contact of or had not met up for a long period of time.. guess what i found out..
had kaypo view a fren's photos & realised he's a christian n frequent CHC! as usual good news of this fren of mine brought me a wide smile.. *delighted* it doesn't matter which svc is he from or will i bump into him, but it's more about having my prayers years before answered.


N also a close fren of mine is on a start of a potential romance.. was so initially worried for her @ the start of a year & on upon hearing the news thru another fren.. i can't help but to smile. ^ . ^



I don't know about others but this level of happiness that i feel within is much higher than for me in receiving a salary increment.

Sounds silly but it's true.. nothing Delights me more than the Happiness of those i truly care about.

Frenz that Impacted my life, they r a blessings & i am forever grateful & will forever cheish this friendship for life..

Time to blog again.. realised i been blogging entries on a random basis & weird timing.. like right now.. it's 2am plus & i am as wide awake as an Owl..

and it's really weird how my mind functions these few days.. was basically so worn out & sleeply the whole of today at work.. & i had to blast loud music keep stuffing food in my food to keep myself productive @ work but apparently it didn't help..




i would deemed it as lack of rest as when i reached home & had dinner, i immediately flunk myself on the bed as i really felt so wear out.. no stamina to take out my books to study..or even log online.. but.. physically i am dead beat but mentally, my brain was racking up all sort of nounsenses, i will start to think about work & my studies..

There's no such word as "Don't Think" or "try not to think" in my life dictionary.. it's the only Mission Impossible in my life..

Don't think = the words by alphabets will appear in different varities in my brain.. & that make it more worse..

and i so i kinda "admire" others who can just immediately fell asleep within minutes at night..on the average, i usually take an hour to just lay there on the bed before getting into deep slumber.. when i am very very very tired, it will take a minimum of 30 mins..

Lamenting to myself why my brain can't function for the right purposes.. i need it to think actively during my work n it's critical rather then being thinking so actively when i am at home doing nothing or trying to sleep.. am looking for alternatives to have brain food, to plan to buy health supplements..

Any suggestions??

Another cause for all this, i presume through the years due to my previous part time job nature as a waitress since 19, by working till late nite makes me a Night person..

* if only office job is : 10 to 6.. => 10pm to 6am.. maybe i will be more productive..

Crapz..

Been like trying to wake up @ 6am every morning so as to read the News in the morning, practice my sign language, pray before heading off to work n after work.. if there's no lessons, to revise for my lectures notes to catch up n this had succeeded for almost a week plus..

though it somehow had affected my capability as mentioned above to give in a 100% at work.. n after lunch.. the ALS (After Lunch Syndrome) kicks in.. was mentioning to my accoutant that my productivity drops to a minimum level after lunch n coffee is a must.. n she mentioned that i can't carry out discussion n give in ideas after lunch and i am "Ya lor.. how?" can i tell my boss: " Any major questions or tasks to be all handled in the morning?" if not after lunch my answer to him would probably be; "Huh??" "Can repeat that again" or ask silly questions or 'give-a-blank-look'..



Arghz!!

guess it takes time before i can be able to build up a habit of waking up early & remainig alert at all times..

After balancing well all these commitments.. i am planning to attend Investment workshops with my cousin, gonna attend the first workshop in March which i had registered.. n also continuing my wine knowledge which i had put on hold due to the demand at work due to Restructuring, which alone takes a whole new entry to blog about..n will blog about it once it's safe to share Beginning in March.


Planning is really important..

Investment knowledge is not a suddenly sprout out thought but something that i had aim to do when everything is more stable n plus my current ACCA module covers the basic of it.. As for Wine.. i am still looking out for courses which are reasonably priced..

*Gambate!*



Wishing everyone a Happy Valentine's Day!!

Today's Valentine n Thank God, i had gotten Emotionally stronger in comparison to previous years..a drastic change in comparison to my very first entry

Being single on this day does not makes me additionally Emo n neither do i feel upset when i see couple strolling by..

no Dates no dates lar.. it really doesn't kill me now as i believe Good things are meant to Wait & so i will Trust God that my happiness lies not far aheadz n while being a Woman-in-waiting, i will not take a stone, sit by the tree n see every guy passing by as a "potential candidate" n then feel all Emo n pathetic for myself sitting down there n wait..

But Rather, while in the midst of waiting, i will continue pursuing my goals, building up my character n Trust Him!

向未来前进，我会更努力!!

My eyes set on U in this Race that i run

An update of my life..had a fun time last sat as we went to celebrate my part-time colleague @ Veneto last sat mid-night, organised by felix..

And so let the pictures do the "talking":



In apparent, a happy occassion with a happy bunch still results in all the guys acting "cool" & not smiling in front of the camera





Simply luv this group photo.. though i am pretty hidden @ the back

The Lucky birthday boy had the lucky chance of posing with all the ladies in the group.. what was missing according to him, was a peck on the cheek by each of us.. cheeky indeedz..




The GUys..

And the sabo to the birthday boy was craziness..

he ate a cake added with Wasabi, Tabasco & chilli

tied to a lamp post outside the pub, as each of us take turn to smirk choc cake & whip cream on his face..

and nontheless, make to drink countless times..

the sight of his sabo can all be viewed in my facebook links..

They are really a fun bunch of friends to hang out witn..

To remain optimistic despite of circumstances...

I will be strong & to remain positive all day long. ^-^

It's about what we choose to think about- controlling our thoughts, as it either carry us along the distance or crush us along the way.

Instead of asking "Why?, i have learnt to take an appropriate course of actions to make the decision => "Where" & "What".

Pursuing Happiness every single day of my lifez..



a Random post..

Herein begins a much challenging life for me from today onwards, & i'm taking it with expectations & optimisim.

Just got home from my sign lanuguage courses & i'm glad these past few months of practices were fruitful, i could attend the lessons with confidence, a far cry from what ocurred last year..

As of last year, due to poor time management, i never got the time to practice & always felt so slow & feeling super awkward(read unconfident) whenever the instructor call out one by one to sign..there was this particular lesson tt i had felt so terrible that i wanted to walk out of the class.. and i kinda attended 3 lessons & gave up..

Low self-esteem can seriously crippled a person's ability.. one year from then, i am still me, still having the same surname, 2 eyes& & 2 ears.. but yet, right now, i am looking forward to every lessons, obtained the cert & joined the ministry & probably be a volunteer in teaching the Hearing impaired children tution..

For viewerrs who happen to browse thru my blog: if u're interested in joining me in sign languages, do view the following website for more informations:

http://www.sadeaf.org.sg/

Friends have asked me why sign language..

Well, cause i want to live a life that is not for myself but a life is purposeful, if in this lifetime, i can make a difference, a positive impact to a person.. it will be all worthwhile..

In a Christian point of view, it might comes in handy when i go for mission trips and in a general point, being able to communicate with childrens who are born with or due to sickness becomes hard of hearing.. to let them know that physical disability does not rob them of their opportunity to carry out & live life like everybody elses..

a Pastor used to share this illustration:




" To that Starfish...i make a Difference"


I was greatly impacted.. day in & day out, all of us are busy with our lives, from busying studying to rushing projects to work to earn income to spending time with loved ones to having time to relax..

Time is a crucial factor to many of us.. to achieve as much as one could before wrinkles start appearing & before we got to carry a walking cane..

But if we were to grow old & to look back, what we will be in our mind?

"oh.. i manage to achieve XXX nos of distinctions for my subjects"

"My school project was being published in school"

"oh.. i attended xxx number of meetings"

"I earned $xxxxxx during my years of work"

" i got promoted from a ... to ... "

So?

So many "I"s.. to me, i do want to say the above statements, who doesn't but that's not my definition of living a meaningful life..

I am not a saint & i know i don't have as much compassion & capacity in comparison to Gandhi & Mother Teresa..

But as little as i could.. i wish to do something for those i know & contributing to bring a smile to others..


and i will try my very best to achieve all that i mentioned.. and my next plan for next half of the year after completion of sign language courses is to take up counselling classes..

Basically, this is how i keep my life going.. a goal to achieve, the sense of achievement is what stirs me when situation or human factors disappoints me..

Yupz, causes i had simply wasted too much of my time..during teenagers years, focusing on the wrong stuffs & always wanting my needs to be met & had felt that life owe me something..

Tomorrow's onwards gonna get busier, as there's major changes taking place at work, and i want to be able to contribute to a postive success of my working Company.. to observe & learn as much from those in the higher management.. & also to meanwhile balance well my studies as this work doesn't allow me to take too long a break during exam periods.. it's all Balancing and it cheers & motivates me as there are friends around me who are leading even much busier & doing a fabulous job of balancing commitments..

Everyone has their individual ways in encouraging themselves in tough moments..

As kiddish as it may sounds.. the following song is my other motivation source whenever i feel down, esp during those years of heartache.. since teenager yrs, i will constantly replay again & again & again this song when i had cried myself to sleep..periods where i had to go thru dark moments in life.. telling myself:





My Real source of motivation is as stated in my profile under my Loves, the very first stated..