Time to blog again.. realised i been blogging entries on a random basis & weird timing.. like right now.. it's 2am plus & i am as wide awake as an Owl..

and it's really weird how my mind functions these few days.. was basically so worn out & sleeply the whole of today at work.. & i had to blast loud music keep stuffing food in my food to keep myself productive @ work but apparently it didn't help..




i would deemed it as lack of rest as when i reached home & had dinner, i immediately flunk myself on the bed as i really felt so wear out.. no stamina to take out my books to study..or even log online.. but.. physically i am dead beat but mentally, my brain was racking up all sort of nounsenses, i will start to think about work & my studies..

There's no such word as "Don't Think" or "try not to think" in my life dictionary.. it's the only Mission Impossible in my life..

Don't think = the words by alphabets will appear in different varities in my brain.. & that make it more worse..

and i so i kinda "admire" others who can just immediately fell asleep within minutes at night..on the average, i usually take an hour to just lay there on the bed before getting into deep slumber.. when i am very very very tired, it will take a minimum of 30 mins..

Lamenting to myself why my brain can't function for the right purposes.. i need it to think actively during my work n it's critical rather then being thinking so actively when i am at home doing nothing or trying to sleep.. am looking for alternatives to have brain food, to plan to buy health supplements..

Any suggestions??

Another cause for all this, i presume through the years due to my previous part time job nature as a waitress since 19, by working till late nite makes me a Night person..

* if only office job is : 10 to 6.. => 10pm to 6am.. maybe i will be more productive..

Crapz..

Been like trying to wake up @ 6am every morning so as to read the News in the morning, practice my sign language, pray before heading off to work n after work.. if there's no lessons, to revise for my lectures notes to catch up n this had succeeded for almost a week plus..

though it somehow had affected my capability as mentioned above to give in a 100% at work.. n after lunch.. the ALS (After Lunch Syndrome) kicks in.. was mentioning to my accoutant that my productivity drops to a minimum level after lunch n coffee is a must.. n she mentioned that i can't carry out discussion n give in ideas after lunch and i am "Ya lor.. how?" can i tell my boss: " Any major questions or tasks to be all handled in the morning?" if not after lunch my answer to him would probably be; "Huh??" "Can repeat that again" or ask silly questions or 'give-a-blank-look'..



Arghz!!

guess it takes time before i can be able to build up a habit of waking up early & remainig alert at all times..

After balancing well all these commitments.. i am planning to attend Investment workshops with my cousin, gonna attend the first workshop in March which i had registered.. n also continuing my wine knowledge which i had put on hold due to the demand at work due to Restructuring, which alone takes a whole new entry to blog about..n will blog about it once it's safe to share Beginning in March.


Planning is really important..

Investment knowledge is not a suddenly sprout out thought but something that i had aim to do when everything is more stable n plus my current ACCA module covers the basic of it.. As for Wine.. i am still looking out for courses which are reasonably priced..

*Gambate!*



Wishing everyone a Happy Valentine's Day!!

Today's Valentine n Thank God, i had gotten Emotionally stronger in comparison to previous years..a drastic change in comparison to my very first entry

Being single on this day does not makes me additionally Emo n neither do i feel upset when i see couple strolling by..

no Dates no dates lar.. it really doesn't kill me now as i believe Good things are meant to Wait & so i will Trust God that my happiness lies not far aheadz n while being a Woman-in-waiting, i will not take a stone, sit by the tree n see every guy passing by as a "potential candidate" n then feel all Emo n pathetic for myself sitting down there n wait..

But Rather, while in the midst of waiting, i will continue pursuing my goals, building up my character n Trust Him!

向未来前进，我会更努力!!

My eyes set on U in this Race that i run