也许在 workplace 见多了& 跟你们 hang out 一起多了，我既然发现我对你产生了好感。

我在感情方面还是那么的SILLY。。重是喜欢的人对我没感觉。。对我有好感的人，我却对没他有FEEL。

Logically, it seems ridiculous to actually admire someone who is younger & from another country! Close frens probably would walk up to me and slap me to wake up to my senses to prevent me from getting hurt all over once again.

As mentioned above, this scene probably won't occur.. heart sank heavy as his facebook status changed...

what draws me? Guys that are often of a fun nature, humourous, high EQ & smart not only in terms of work not to mention kind and  a gentleman.

So oh well.. no matter how numbers can add up, i'm still this bashful lady who always believe in taking the left path & not going thru e norm as what it terms as following the crowd..

若得特地寻找爱情那我宁可把时间放在volunteering.. 也许成熟了或也许经历多了，在也不把爱情这字放在第一位...

Just received the letter i been awaiting for from World Vision Singapore, had participated in the Sponsor a Child program and received the details of this child from Zambia.. gonna start writing my first letter and eagerly await the first letter from the child.

Funds from the sponsorship will be pooled together with the rest and World Vision Singapore will then use it to help out the community in the particular area of their healthcare, water facilities and studies.

Have done up various check on this Organisation before deciding on it:

http://www.worldvision.org.sg/

Ever since i  started serving in Talking Hands Ministry, Volunteering took up a whole new level.. when i started my first volunteering in the Christmas Event.. though it was a simple performance, chatting with the Hearing Impaired and serving up the food, the feeling at the end of the event was simply joyous, happier than when i got my first job, my first love and even obtaining my exams results.. more often than not, the former only gives me temporary happiness that after which any recollection of it bring no emotion with it.. whereas in the latter, the tingling joy of bringing a smile to others is simply indescribable.

It's about making that Difference..

My next goal : Volunteering Overseas... http://www.globalvolunteernetwork.org

So gonna blog about my first concert:

SHE Is the One at Indoor Stadium 17/04/2010..

Was waiting with expectancy since the day the ticket was bought..and after tonight's performance, i got to say the concert was simpy Awesome for the following reasons:

1. They sang all my favourite songs!

2. Ella was simply hilarious with her self-composed song and starring in the MV by using make-up as thick as Ru Hua.

3. Creativity- clips of Ella's comic of her life & how her thoughts of Hebe & Selina, clips of 3 little gals representing them drawing out their dreams, Sang other artist songs in a Ktv scene and have their own MV in the song whereby they dressed up in Vintage clothes.

4. Humour- More than once, they teases about Mayday's concert held at Outdoor stadium and even sang their song..

5. Talents- Sang songs that each individual composed of their inner thoughts of love life. Individually, Selena and Hebe sang english oldies songs & Ella singing her own composed.

6. Unity - There was no fakeness of them to attempt looking united, through the way they perform,teases each other and singing together, the sweetness of their frenship makes one envy.

7. High factor - Needless to say, the atmosphere was simply high to the core with their fast beat songs, i kept screaming non-stop.

I'm not the kind that believes in spending money on concert initially but after today, i got to admit, the price was all worth it!

Their Enthusiasm, their Unity, their Frienship, the meaningful encouragement lyrics not only draws the teenagers but different age range to simply admire at this Girl band that has been ongoing for many years..

Shall end this entry with my current favourite song (sadly this song was not sang in the concert)

Knocking on Heaven's Door

Mama PaPa take this badge   burden away from me

I can't use  take it anymore

It's getting dark too dark to see

Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Mama  Papa put my guns in  pride on the ground

I can't shoot  hold them anymore

That cold black cloud is comin' down

Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

"You just better start sniffin' your own

I can't move on my own

rank subjugation jack 'cause it's just you

maybe it's just me that's acting strong

against your tattered libido, the bank and

going against your intended plan

going against what you have gave

I am lost in all directions

the mortician, forever man and it wouldn't

Cause i can't hold on alone

be luck if you could get out of life alive"*

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

While cabbing from home to work today, as i was gazing the view thru e window.. lyrics of a song hit me hard :



Every lyrics seems so real..

你是第一個發現我
越面無表情越是心裡難過
所以當我不肯落淚的顫抖
你會心疼的抱我在胸口

你比誰都還了解我
內心的渴望比表面來得多
所以當我跌斷翅膀的時候
你不扶我但陪我學忍痛

我要去看得最遠的地方
和你手舞足蹈聊夢想
像從來沒有失過望受過傷
還相信敢飛就有天空那樣

我要在看得最遠的地方
披第一道曙光在肩膀
被潑過太冷的雨滴和雪花
更堅持微笑要暖得像太陽

你比誰都還了解我
內心的渴望比表面來得多
所以當我跌斷翅膀的時候
你不扶我但陪我學忍痛

我要去看得最遠的地方
和你手舞足蹈聊夢想
像從來沒有失過望受過傷
還相信敢飛就有天空那樣

我要在看得最遠的地方
披第一道曙光在肩膀
被潑過太冷的雨滴和雪花
更堅持微笑要暖得像太陽

有時候覺得我們很不一樣
你能看見我到不到的地方

有時候又覺得我們很像
都愛仰起頭不聽命運的話

我要去看得最遠的地方
和你手舞足蹈聊夢想
像從來沒有失過望受過傷
還相信敢飛就有天空那樣

我要在看得最遠的地方
披第一道曙光在肩膀
被潑過太冷的雨滴和雪花
更堅持微笑要暖得像太陽






这首歌的每一句仿佛在形容我们之间成有过的友情。. As much as the frenship is back, due to our busy schedule.. we both are simply acquaintance.. 


Deep within, i confronted my own feelings.. i have truly let go of the past..i don't hold on anymore neither do i hope for anything more out of this acquaintance-ship..


Guess the song juz simply struck a similar chord between the both of us..


有時候又覺得我們很像
都愛仰起頭不聽命運的話






This sentences simply describe both our character.. we're simply people that grin thru our teeth to fight for our life destiny, never letting fate take us over..




It's simply madness.. i shouldn't allow emotions to rush thru me once again.. 


I can only believe n hold fast that i can find someone in this like manner in the near future.

Have you had days where you got make changes abruptly because of unexpected circumstances?

Have you had times where everything seems to occur all at once & once again u are brought back to familiar ground?

Downloading Memories in process.........

Date : 3 yrs ago

Location : NP Library

Scenario: Gal revising alone for exams

Feelings: Stress & lousy



This gal's life was in a mess, during school terms, while other students are busy doing project after school & taking notes during lecture & revising thru the weekdays. She be busying working part-time, 5 to 6 days a week.

While Sunday is a family day for her classmates, she will keep herself busy to stay away from home.

Where gals of her age are dolling up, this gal hates to look at the mirror.

Walking downtown, with couples all around.. this gal waits to bump into her crush. She has tons of crushes, from 1 guy to another but silly little cupid more than often miss cue & pierces the arrow into her heart instead.

Lousyness was in the air that very day in the library..

Because of her stubborness, she had earlier on let go of the One who Love her Unconditionally.

Thoughts of death fill her mind..

Sitting there while entertaining the thoughts, she was all ready to step out from the seat.

When...

a spur of thought causes her to reach out to the phone.. calling those frens who were impt to her..

And at the very last dialled number, her Bro-in-christ picked up the phone.

And the rest was history when she stepped out of the library.

Thinking back, this gal is indeed thankful for frens that stretch out their hands..but deep inside she knows that she got to be independent.

Events after events occur.. this gal trips & fall.. but with every fall, she stood up twice stronger..mindset changing in process.

Conclusion : After years of experiences, when it seems to be a deep valley yet again.. but this time round, thoughts of Optimism fills up her mind.

she's ready to share it with her frens becoz it's a phrase that she is proud that she have overcome.

she knows deep within, she's facing it with courage with head up believing that this storm does not last for long.

she's secure because she has ultimate Trust In One.

" when u don't understand,

when u can't see His Plan,

when u can't see His Hand,

Trust His Heart. "

Christmas Eve & Christmas Celebration

Though it was a working day on X'mas Eve.. it's only for 2 hours!! Left the office in a rush though, grabbing all personal docs & stuffing them in the drawer.. & catching up with the Mgmt who drove us to the venue:

Sakura Pte Ltd- International Buffet at Dhoby Ghaut- 2nd latest outlet.

The Brand which i do its accounts.. 11 headaches..

Photos taken with my Colleagues from Accounts Dept:

Afterwhich, we move on to Plaza Sing to shop & chill at TCC..

Supposedly had agreed to turn up for JY's performance at Heeren(coz i Promise her!) but apparently with no response from my SADF peeps & colleagues had own errands to run.. i got to give it a miss with much regret..

With much time to fill from after shopping with Kelly & Cassandra to meeting up with my Batch 6 peeps.. decide to msg those who can come up early to accompany me..

and guess who responded?

It was as if my last entry had a voice that had turned my wish into a reality:

It was time really for us to do a good catching up before Yr 2009 ends:

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Yepz, it's none other than my Buddy, Lionel!

This pic was taken in our X'mas party in class & coincidence would occur yet again, he was my secret angel..

Imagine my shock when he pass me the present?(awkwardness was still in e air as we took e pic) i was like.. "Hmm.. of all classmates.. he became my angel"

The rule of the X'mas exchange: Ian the coordinator, would be allocating names to each of us on a random basis..of our recipent & their wishes of X'mas gift... (Unless Ian reads my blog which is pretty impossible).. it would have been Coincidence #3 for our Reconciliation of Lost Buddies..

As can seen in the picture, received a pair of beautiful silver ear-rings from Chomel.

got to say, it's my best christmas present thus far...

Coincidence #4 : he just happen to be out after work, had planned to meet his frens for dinner elsewhere but due to distance, he had a change of plan.. & we met up for dinner..

It was a good old hours chat as we had dinner at :

guess what? as far as my memory could bring back to 3 years ago.. this was the very foodcourt (was @ Wisma) we had dinner before we meet again 3 years later.

Chatted about each others life.. and we can't stop laugh about Coincidences #1 & #2:

Coincidence #1 for our Reconciliation of Lost Buddies:

Same Ministry- Talking Hands Ministry..

Being in same church is not a Coincidence. as CHC is a large church.. Ministry wise,Had we met in usher ministry, it would be pretty common as it's among the largest ministry in church..

but THM? it was a small ministry, not one really popular ministry...

Coincidence #2 for our Reconciliation of Lost Buddies:

Same Batch - Batch #6..

Now, who could ever predict we can end up in the same batch when i been in church for yearsss & he being around a yr plus..

i waited a year before i finally received the call from the coordinator..

He came in 1 lesson before mine..

Mystery : a question i popped up - why 3 yrs?

None of us could come up with a logical answer for that..

Spiritual number he says.. Christ was risen 3 days later..

Hmm...

End of dinner before we met up with Mark.. whom can't stand waiting for us to finish our prolonged dinner..

Conclusion : we both had changed & mature much since the last 3 yrs... all misunderstanding & awkwardness by now, had been 100%  cleared..

Truely, i thank God for this Buddy-ship which i thought i had lost forever.. i am blessed. =)

Differ-ability:  for every lost frenship, i will always attempt to salvage it back... but for every lost relationship, i prayed hard & hard that i will never see my Exs ever again.. not on the street.. 

if coincidences as above occurs,  i will consider it a Trial rather than a blessing.. & i will quit that activity with immediate effect.. no hestitation at all.

Simply to put it, every broken r/s is an stepping stone towards courage & personal goals.. i burned the bridge as i cross.. a never turning back.

 

On to something happier..

We rush to meet up with Mark at St. Andrew's Cathedral:

 

We wanted to catch a feel of Catholic Christmas Service.. Mainhall was fully packed, we had to move on to the Overflow room..

Aftermaths: we left halfway, after the carols were sung ( i gave an extreme bored look) before the main service starts..

We wanted Life and so on Ian's suggestion.. we move on to:

Timbre @ Arthouse:

My favourite Hang out place!

The band performing on that day was great:

Band name: Co-ed Liza.

Fact finder:

Members:

Coy - Cajon/Drums- Coy is a veteran of Manila's alternative music since in the early 90's. He played drums for the 4-piece punk rock band Public Menace which performed in underground gigs in and around of Manila. A Restaurant Manager by day, he briefly disappeared from the music scene and resurfaced as the "cajon"player for Co-Ed Liza. His influence include The Clash, Geenday, Offspring and Manila-based, Eraserheads, and Rivermaya. Edwin - Guitars/Vocals- A self-taught guitarist, Edwin is a veteran of overseas gigs particulary Japan. He is a licensed Mechanical Engineer in the Philippines, but he decided to pursue his passion for music. The guy with a well-controlled, full-toned voice, Edwin can sing and play the guitar particularly well. His musical influences range from David Gates, Christopher Cross, Eric Clapton, James Taylor, Stephen Bishop just to name a few. Liza - Vocals- Liza or "Meemye" as she is known in the Manila acoustic music circuit, is an accomplished singer who shows her versatility in performing classic, ballad, alternative and R & B songs. Born to sing, Liza is a veteran of numerous singing competitions in Manila since she was young. From Patti Austin to Taylor Swift, Karen Carpenter,Colbie Caillat, Lisa LOeb, Sheryl Crow,Rihanna and Beyonce Knowles. Her influence in music shows in the song she loves to sing every night.

Genre:

acoustic

Hometown: Philippines

 

Check this link of their Performance:

http://www.facebook.com/search/?q=co-ed+liza&init=quick#/video/video.php?v=1249343721504

It's better to watch the live version

Love their takes one: Lady Gaga's Poker Face and  Black Eyed Peas- I gotta Feeling

Drank my favourite Yagger Bomb and we chatted, photowhore, played game till 1am plus.. wanted to hang out later but we had our church service the very next morning.

25th: Christmas Day

Attended service bringing Jing Yi, Kelly, Cassandra together with Xin yi's and her bf (of whom is a chc member too)..

it was a great drama production by the fabulous Drama team.

Met up with SADF peeps in the evening to had dinner @ Mahanttan's Fish Market:

Supposedly to go clubbing at St James Powerhouse after the dinner.. but i blew quite a huge amount the nite before & couldn't afford to blew another round on clubbing again.. if not i got to survive on bread & butter for the whole month.

Simply because be meeting up Rapper & Rainbow for Dinner at Bollicine , Meet up with the Sotongs.. both group which i had not met up with ages..

and saving up for my upcoming studies in ACCA.

26th:- My Virgin Attempt

went for SADF's Youth Beat meeting.. our very 1st meeting for the year.. conducted by James. this group consists of 11 members of whom i am glad there is Mark & Ian. Kok Leong and a few others.

James went on to brief us on the objectives of Youth Beat & i became the Interpretator for him and all the way.. the very 1st attempt..saboed out by Kok Leong who insists & told james beforehand b4 i agreed..

Had our discussions on the Activities to plan out for the deaf youths and Agenda for the next meeting..

This's gonna be exciting as the group of us are going to put our heads together to branch out ideas, source for sponsors and befriend the Hearing Impaired Youths..

1st Idea branched out: An Ice Breaker for Introduction & Bonding in Feb.

Gonna go into further details for our next month's meeting.

Gonna rope in more people with interest to help out.

=)

Signing off.

Saw this blog from Nanz Inc makes me so interested to sign up for Cake Baking Courses:

'http://mengchoo.livejournal.com/

Tags: Creative

对你冷谈是有原因。。 对于过 去我以没有任何挂念。退后是 不想给任何人负单 和不快..

因为我不想对任何人有种依赖。。只有 God 能 carry it all.


"the way we are right now, being friends like we just met, is the best way out.. i hope u do understand it someday.. "

No Worries to those who are reading this..

I just needed an area to say it out as by keeping it in within doesn't make me stronger..

我会学着把生活打理好。

in my heart, you're always forever my buddy...