Time for a Break after an extreme month in March of long working hours

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So basically, slept for more than 10 hours till late noon n wanted to give myself a good break, a day break from my work & studies.. N just doing what i enjoyed doing, which is:

1. Had just finished watching a Dvd lend from my sign lang classmate:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3LeHX0aj9_Q

Quite an old movie but one tt is acted by deaf actors & actress..

*Waiting for a msg on the commencement of church conducted sign lang classes*

An quick update of my life:

Last Sat, went down to the Wine fair held by Harrys with Rajah & Rapture, tasted a total of 4-5 wines, ate and took some name cards of wine suppliers..

And from it, found a new love in :
www.spyvalleywine.co.nz/wines/spyvalley/riesling

Spy Valley Riesling 2008 from New Zealand.. had subsequently tried another Riesling:

Frankland Estate Riesling 2008

When comparing these 2 New World Wines.. the Former is sweeter n smoother to the throat..

n another White:

For red wines, i had particularly this combination grapes wine:

I prefer white wines to red as red tends to be more bitter n stronger.. but this particular wine was a little much lighter, a good wine to start i believe for pple who don't like red wines..

Yepz, so this wine fair was a pretty good start to my interest for wines.. despite not being able to attend the wine courses due to its steep course price.

2. a Time to Ponder & Self-evaluation

Had finally manage to attend cg after missing it for almost a month due to working till late on FrIs n it was a great time of catching up with my cg members as we went for supper subsequently..

Guess it's time for me to strike a balance in my own commitments.. this word constantly appears in my blog as this is the issues that i yet to solve..

On a particular day, my Cg leader, Ling Siang msg me.. on issues about one to balance well n have sufficient rest after i had told her that on the average esp during March, i slept an average 0f 3 to 5 hours every day.. in comparison to the sufficient rest of 6 to 8 hrs a day. N my a member leaves a msg on FB on priorities..

I confess i had over focus on my work.. which leaves me thinking last nite on the way while walking to cg meeting..

there might comes a day, where my boss might just walk to my table telling me that i am sacked.

The possibilities is always there no matter how much of effort i put in or sow..

Afterall, in Financial aspects point of view:

Employees are not classified as a Fixed nor Current Assets in a Company's Financial statments..

Companies look at the financial issues involve in increasing their profit n cash flow and employees are hired to manage n assists.. it's a matter of costs n benefits involved in obtaining well experienced n smart employees..

So if i had over focus on work n in the process loses my priorities in church n my christian frens.. what wld happen if i were to lose my job.. what does that leaves me with?

In terms of my studies, it goes in line with my job, i seek to pursue it n spend times on it all for the cause of a brighter future ahead, building up my experiences n knowledge so when i am 30 plus, i don't have to struggle with remaining as an assistant with fear that when economic crisis struck again, i will be out of job.. but rather due to the benefits of in Accounts where every Company needs that dept, a good experience n cert will serve its due. Perhaps being in this line, Long term-objectives is an essential and that explains why i strive so hard to excel in both..

But i am a human afterall..

There are other issues to consider.. if surrounding me are frens n leaders who are facing a higher demand at their workplace n pursing a Master/PHD & yet they are doing well in their ministry, frenships n relationship..

it's not about Comparing myself with them but rather their examples are for me to Evaluate myself..

We have the same 24 hrs..

n back to yesterday fellowshipping.. just seeing them makes me flash a genuine smile.. it just feels good to hang around happy pple after facing all the glum faces that i face at work,including myself to my co-workers. *guilty*

n all of the members are in the working field as well,smart, helpful n caring.. n our leader,who's 5 months pregnant, an ever caring smart n cheerful & Optimistic lady. Always feel that being pregnant is a physically straining thing, but looking at her and 2 other cg members who are mothers, they are ever so looking bright n cheerful. In the near future, when i get married, they shall be my role model.

N i want to get married too.. =x God willing, may i meet my one too.. *praying hardz*

In conclusion, i believe in HIS hands, life will continously turn for the better, circumstances,dark moments.. will not determine the direction of life's journey but an additional reason in pursuing for a better, blessed life aheadz.

did not mention to anyone else but confessing it over here, tt yes, i am currently going thru a dark tunnel this moment,it's not easy ain't that tough,i know i can n will go thru it.. juz pray n believe in me, tt will be more than sufficient. To my frens tt are concerned, the definination of Cyndiz = she's an Overcomer n "being weak" , n " giving up" does nor and never will exist in her ;ife's dictionary.

It's not about acting strong or putting up a strong front when i don't share my problems..i guess it just within me.. a strong stubborness tt had build thru the years, tt i don't intend to share n also everyone has their own problems n struggle don't they.?

The real me within is divulged in my blog, so it's a joke to tell me that u don't read my blog coz the past is the past n no point in knowing my past.. though i have gotten over u but the words u said still leaves a negative impact..

Cyndiz theology: After the rain, the sun still shines. ^-^

Protection



If you are not a christian, do u then believe in angels, or so what we define as an Invisble Being protecting over each individual life?

"Have u ever almost slipped down the stairs landing on yr butt n glad tt u didn't end up rolling down the stairs?"

"Have u cross the traffic light, with the green man still intact n nt even flashing yet, u cross the road and after a step, a car behind speed past n u wonder what wld have occured if u had missed tt step?"

I guess every individual has their little mishap before..

like when we were young, we imagine we were superman n defy the law of gravity by jumping from high places or imagine we were acrobats by walking thru a narrow high surfaces.. n tt's always caused our parents to let out a scream when we did eventually fail our adventure..

Thinking back we always laugh it away n nw tt we are older, we wld "phew., tt was lucky, i almost got hit by tt D*** car just now".


Just yesterday night, a minor freak incident occured.. after a long day of work n studying, i literally lied flat on my bed falling deeply asleep but got woke up at 3am plus by a loud noise by my fan, those that are fixed near the ceiling of the wall.. n my mum was jolted up, n mention that the fan apparently break apart, the cover flew out n landed just beside her..

N me, despite the noise, brush it aside n went back to sleep..

n the next morning, i woke up to find the fan flip..one of the flips was just a few cms near me n it was cracked n had a corner cut off.. so imagine my horror..

Minor accident: it cld have cut me, maybe my hands or slit a cut on my face (screams)..

Major: i wold not have been able to type this entry had it landed a bit further, i mean just between my chin n shoulder.. if one knw what i meant..

*thoughts fluttering".. imagine this: it was as if someone had spoke to the situation tt occured with words of love n Protection saying:

"That's my child, she's not allowed to be harm in any form of manners, nt even the slightest cut"..



*smiling*


I thank God for His Protection over my loved one & my Life, always assuring me that i am never alone

Everytime i feel down, since i won't it be blogging it out, my solution is to keep replaying my blog song again n again n i know i be back on my feet again..

I don't need encouragement, neither advice, just believe in me.. that's the best form of support.

Once a Christian, forever a Christian..

This is going to be a Christian entry.. to other viewers, u may have the option to move yr cursor to "x" at the top right hand corner of yr screen, as i don't wish for any sniggering as 1 scrolls down..

everyone has the freedom to think or react n it's clearly your choice.. no one can be your brain n forces u think what u don't agree on..


Had created a new blog site earlier this year as one can see from my "Darlinks"- A JOurney to Remember was for this intention but apparently not being able to figure out with the html codes, i was unable to set it up till now & cld not find anyone to help me out in this..

Though i am balancing my commitments & really learning to.. it may seems unconvincing to others..
Without God in my life, i won't want & unable to carry on with all my current commitments now..

More often than not, when i tell my friends that i am attending church svcs on sun, they will usually reply:

"huh.. you are a christian?"

"... "

I guess i had always took it for the negative aspect, that they might have perceive me as someone who does not behave like a christian..

It cld have been their impression of a christian was a standard, fixed character & to them.. i was some one different..

Either or..

Christian is not a religion.. it's only when one go thru it & feel it.. that's where they know..


"is it compulsory for u all christians to attend church every sun?"

& i wld usually reply: "Not compulsory, we attend cause we want to"

and yes.. due to my studies & wanting to achieve as much as i could.. there are times where i miss church svcs or may go disappearing for a while.. nonetheless, i always make try to make it a point to attend, not becoz of frens or any other reasons.. it's just because of HIM..

Had told my cousin.. the current me is "Achievement operated"

right now, maybe if i don't attend church or cg, i can use my time to do much more achievement based stuffs..

But...

Without HIM, i would not be wanting to do all that i am doing..

if u know the me years back ago.. i will not even be a blogger & typing all those previous posts..

to some, it might be unconvincing.. it's True:



He's the reason where i am right now.


Still Loving my God..


One thing is still for sure:

I have choosen to follow & will never regret..


Here's a link to a christian flash:

When i first saw this flash, i had already formally declared i was no longer a christian but after watching a particular one.. i teared.."


http://www.donghaeng.net/english/main.htm

Here are some of my fav:

1. Title :I love you

2. Waiting 2

3. Leave

4.Comimg Together - this clearly illustrate another main reasons why we christians go to church.. as there are christians tt choses to stay away from church..

5. Rubber Band

6. string <= this hits me hard.. n tears overwhelm

7. again...

8. passion (this is really making me tearing even as i'm blogging)

9. The Top (all christians can skip the rest but muz watch this.. isn't tt a stage where we had been thru or going it thru nw)

10. (New)Footprints <= it's true, bad times (trials) when we went thru it, we did not understood y & had felt alone but it's thru all these we became stronger n we were never ever alone..

11. Lamplight (a good Illustration)

12. Heavenly hope (l to all my christian frems..let's run this race together & let's never give up k?)

13. Cross2

14.duty (this is the one tt i mentioned, the one tt make me teared yrs back then)



Hope this site has bless u too.. & i have put it under my link..

Check this out:

http://www.harrys.com.sg/Downloads/EDM-Wine-L.jpg

Anyone interested in joining me? Drop me a tag..

Will be going with one of my fren n hope more will join us..

Good News:

Was contacted by the Talking Hand (Deaf) Ministry member on thurs, it was a surprise indeed as i had received the phone call while i was preoccupied with work & after the conversation, i felt so happy within. and

" Thanks pal, so much for the help, i know i been thanking u since day 1..keke..but still i wanna say, Thanks so much" - u knw who u r..

Never thought my blog could be a help in this area...

Yupz, been mentioning in my blog since early last year that i had a desire to want to serve in this ministry and had enrolled in the sign language courses in the S;pore Association for the Deaf.. and with this:

2nd Good News:

I pass my Basic Level 1 Sign Language course!! Was like so nervous before the Test and my class was the highest amoong the others and a personal joke within the test was : "Hold-ed" & this word affect one of my classmates, frm scoring full marks.

MOving on to basic level 2 which commences on the last week of March.. In the Ministry side, i got to attend the sign langugage courses, & as i had aleady paid for the one in SAFD & bu sher de my classmates in which all of us will be in the samr class. it cld mean, having 2 diff sign language course in a week & woohoo i love it.. this means i can further strengthen my knowledge in sign Language!!


Gonna meet up my classmates later in another 13 hours time,Eve had arranged the gathering at her house where we would be interacting with each other with sign & finger spell thru games.. shall elaborate more in my next post..


Met up with 2 of my "Sotongs" last sun n went to watch:





Conclusion: i will giva it a 4 star out of 10.. the movie involves politics issues, too much Gross scenes n R18 sex scenes.. n basically the characters are far from X-men & it's rather draggy to be a 3hr movie..


A further sunday ago went to watch "Pink Pather" with my Sign Lang Classmates & personal rating: 2 stars.. it's lame to the core..

My all time favourite movie so far is still : Lord of the Rings 1 - 3


Back to the outing, Met up with the 2 couples, one of whom is newly attached.. n am really happy for her as her bf gives an overall impression of a decent guy. "Lao er, must cherish him well, good guys r hard to come by"

Analogy:
"Guys are like car park lots, the good ones have all been taken, the empty ones are all handicapped.."

I don't mean physical handicappeds but it means guys tt seriously fall short of criterias of a bf..

Again back to the outing: It was a great time catching up with the two gals & subsequently we went to selegie to have our not-s0-nice & cold chicken rice which we subsequenly was covered up by having the well-known my fav: Soya Beancurd & not to miss You Tiao!

Today:

Had a fruitful chat with my cousin, Sabrina after service.. which makes me seriously ponder & evaluate myself..

Sometimes i wish i can just type out my full exact thoughts over here.. to let out my frustration here, a listening ear, a person who can truly hear me out w/o judging, one who doesn't interupt, n nt giving me advice, i just need someone who can listen to me out, listen with understanding..

i don't wish to be stuck in the past.. the past me is dead.. n i don't want it to be a shadow tt sticks n had never left..

Finally a temp break for me to spend time slacking awhile to update on my blog..

The past two weeks was pure craziness.. was so occupied at work & had spend the last 3 days working for more than 12 hrs & rushing back to work after my evening lessons.. so it was pure Busy Busy Busy.. been like sleeping on average 4 to 5 hours a day..

a self-sadist it seems as instead of typing it out in a complain mode i am writing it with pride coz i seriously love the busy & hectic schedule of mine.. it's so fulfilling except that my weak health is affecting this flow & being unable to wake up at the time i wanted in the morning @ 6am can be rather frustrating.. i can be so dead asleep that my phone alarm & with two other alarm clock by my side can't wake me upz..


As picture speaks louder then words, this summaries my current life:




Trying to balance my work & nor allowing it to affect my time for my Church svc, ACCA lessons & sign language lessons and the curriculum of these main commitments, like cwll group meetings, revising at home for my studies & practising my sign language..

As it is, i got to assure those around me that i am coping well so far & i know what i am doing.. i am not a fernatic, extreme workaholic but someone who works Hardz & Play Hardz!



Last sun had a test on sign language, as this test determines going up the 2nd basic level of SEE & had been stress with the fact that i had no time to practice for it & last sun morning, specifically woke up @ 6am to practice and phew, it was easy, the instructor had signed slowly which allow everyone in the class to pass.. went out with a few classmates after the test, went down to Plaza Sing for dinner, watch movie, Pink Pather which was pratically a lame movie and hanged out at TCC, which our sign language instructor subsequently join us:



With one of my classmate,Eve.. the lively gal in our class..



With the Sign Instructor, Alfred..

Hanging out with them was funz & we communicate with each other by signing as it helps us to improve & out of classroom learning..

Love this group and can't wait to meet them up for lessons tmr afterwhich it's hanging out time & hopefully a class photo as it's our last lesson together.. the 2nd level only commences towards the end of March, though the opportunity cost of hanging out is my studies but it's all abt balance is a word i remind myself..

Went out after work yesterday with my colleagues to celebrate my fren, in which i call him little boi's Birthday.. went to No5 to drink but as they closes at 3am, leaving us half an hour to drink.. n so we proceed to drink but tt half an hour was a "memorable" night for me.. the Sabo apparently instead of the Birthday Boi had turned to me.. making me wonder what i had done @ work to them tt result in an embrassing nite all because of a word: "He's so cute"... -_- and goodness, they practically went crazy, (read: Lunatic..) with that word when all i did was to make a comment on a 18 yr old boy waiter who basically can be my younger brother n my "cute" was a description of what one said to a newborn baby of a friend..
a memorable nite forever indeedz..
Arghz..

This word shall forever remain a Taboo whenever i hang out with them..

And the joke continues even as we move on to Balcony to have our drinking session againz till 6am this morning..


Gonna get back to my books & practising for my sign language..