Does one mood affects one's health.

Suppose to go for Louisa's GrandMother wake, arrange to meet up with some members but got to cancel it as a sudden giddy spell is affecting me..feeling rather weak & sudden depress right now..

Hope there is someone to lend me a shoulder right nw..

as for my bf,he's busy with work and it would makes me feel bad to bother him..

Feel so alone..

Below are my much earlier entry:


A penny for my Thoughts:



When i feel that there's no one to truely understand how i feel, am i expecting that individual to agree with me so that i can feel better?


Seriously.. i do wonder...

Still facing the same struggle for years.. time & time again, i seems to make all sorts of excuses to run away from the problem.. making myself busy so as to give a good excuse in not solving it.

It's simply all about trying & trying.. but sometimes.. trying sounds easy as spelling it but when the actual work has to be done...


If i don't try.. it's all about staying in my own comfort zone, it brings no harm to myself or others just that i be in the same circle and facing the same struggle..

Does the past and environment affect the way a person behave no matter how he or she try to change??

For years.. my life is all about work & studies burying my own face with it- an anti-social activity, that when it's time to step out of my own world and relating to people and trying to blend in.. to majority, it's seems no difficulty and who on earth enjoy being different??

Just ask the kid sitting on the bench who is outcast from his class.
Or the passer-by that have tried to slim down for years due to the pressure of society.
Orphans or sick kids born in 3rd world countries..
People who have handicapped abilities..
or simply women who are just not pretty in this world of reality.

Different...

If everyone are sociable.. are good looking..,fun loving are attractive, loving are smart are rich are with good EQ and etc..

This is not an Emo post neither an entry where i dwell in self-pity..

It's just one of those category that pass through my thoughts..

Only conclude all that i mention does not give me an excuse to stay the same.. hiding comfortably in the four walls surrounding me.

It's all about trying all over again.. Ain't iT?

To have a Spirit of Perserverance, a Spirit of Determination and being Optimistic in all..

*Jia You, Jia You!!*

For all i know, my future entry would be about overcoming my struggles..

Wishing all happiness..


Some update on my life:

I just got a disasterous hair-cut which begins with the thought of having back my fringe on Sunday..

The usual stubborn-want-things-on-the-spot-means-must-have-it-right-now of thinking.
Thus after my lessons, went to the auntie salon at my house down stairs and paid $5 for a fringe that is too long and out of shape.. thus on Monday itself, before meeting ZH(Short form for my bf name).. i hastily walk in to any salon @ Central- naively thinking that salons @ Central shld be of a certain class & hairdressers shld be of good standard...

Guess what...

It was on the Contrary.. my fringe became the opposite..too short.. and he snapped off i mean literally snapped off.. my years of growing my layered hair.. Thank God though he did not cut it till shoulder length.. which could have been worse..

I paid $60 plus for a hair cut i totally regret..

The first time in my life i paid so much for a hair-cut.. what a regret...